kay 🩹

ctommy outsold⭐

The judge? Minecraft youtuber Grian

phil saying they all genuinely had fun going to the zoo and it was so chill he’s not sure tommy’s even gonna make a vlog out of it even though tehy did film and he doesn’t care either way coz it was just a really fun experience with kristin and tommy and they went to the gift shop and got plushies and and what the honk… not to be the lamest person on earth but they’re some kind of family or whatver 

also llike. this isgoing to be a poorly worded post i'm sure there's better meta on it already but like...............genuinely as a fucking abuse survivor there's something very fucking important abt. having items. having stupid small things that are meaningful to you if you've had ur agency stripped from you for fucking years then like. there is something incredibly important and meaningful about having your own small things. it's a way of reclaiming your self when you've had someone Actively Trying to diminish you into the kind of person they want. like there was a point in my past where one of the most important things in my life was my fucking binder with a whole bunch of shitty printed out memes and stuff taped inside it. at that time it was a huge rebellion for me and it was a moment of reclaiming my agency in an environment when i was actively Being Controlled in every single aspect of my life. i genuinely cannot express the importance in my life of small stupid items that i've been unreasonably attached to. & this is fucking why tha cphil lore is so upsetting to me specifically btw!!!! ctommy never fucking valued items over people he was in incredibly traumatic situations with an abuser who took away every semblance of agency or self he had he's had his fucking shit taken from him his whole life. it's not a 'ctommy being selfish thing.'

my man has the sword he killed his son with but also simultaneously the FUCKING AUDACITY