☣️ 0ZZYD0G2004 ☢️

This version will have an anti-contact stance, so it will be a reference to Fleur without being strictly tied to it (it meaning Fleur, not the stance). The intention is to have stronger plausible deniability. Although this may make it more ambiguous, having multiple options can be useful.

When asked if you like strawberries, you reply by mentioning the flowers.

This is not a bad idea! If anyone wants to edit this. The symbols in question for if anyone wants to:

ESPECIALLY since I've had so many experiences of trying to explain to professionals my issues and what I deal with only for them, who have only seen me for a few hours every other whenever, that just by their judgement on looking at my behavior in those moments that they can confidently say I'm actually wrong and don't know what I'm talking about. It has actively hindered recovery for me for so many years. It's forced me to have to do my own research, and help myself because the people who were apparently supposed to help me were only making it worse by wrong and bias assumptions about me. It's been years of trial and error. Sometimes Id come with a wrong conclusion about what's wrong with me. That doesn't make my journey any less valid. "Self discovery is important!! You can turn out to be wrong about yourself during your self discovery, that doesn't make your experience any less valid!" until it's about mental health I guess. Stopping giving a fuck about professionals opinions on me and my psyche and just listening to myself, doing my own hard research and doing this shit myself has helped me so much fucking more than any professional EVER has. In fact a lot of professionals have often set me back in my recovery, hindered my recovery, and/or just perpetuated the same shit that had been making me suffer with it for so long. I don't care who you are or what school you went to I will ALWAYS know more about me and my own thoughts than ANYONE outside them

Of course this doesn't apply for everyone, because everyone's experiences and mental struggles and different, this is just my personal experience. I doubt myself a lot, so when I am CONFIDENT about a fact I'm likely VERY sure from all angles. And I'm sick and tired of people taking one look at me in an isolated environment not taking into any consideration the fact I may have masking habits engrained into me just tell me I'm wrong because of [insert some form of engrained masking here]. Thanks! I've been shamed and made to feel embarrassed about my symptoms and just expected to "stop doing that" so I've gotten real good at masking them whether I mean to or not!! Good to know I seem "normal" enough to you I guess. Time to go home and struggle and struggle and struggle and struggle and