"three hundred silver would be cheap at the price of this girl"
can i just talk about this specific arc in volume 5 of the apothecary diaries TāT
so this is the part where theyāre investigating the village of the quack doctor and i just want to HIGHLIGHT how insane it is how quickly jinshi picks up on whatever maomao is thinking.
to be loved is to be known.
he doesnāt need the full explanation. he doesnāt ask questions. he sees her in action, understands the direction sheās taking, and silently backs her up.
i fully believe jinshi is constantly amazed by maomaoās mind. heās in AWE of her. her intelligence? her skills? her way of thinking? he watches her work and his eyes practically sparkle. he is the poster boy of āsupportive malewife who lets the girlboss thrive.ā and the best part?? heās never once felt threatened by it.
never once has he been insecure about how smart she is. never once did he try to downplay her. never once been dismissive. never once been competitive. in fact, he actually tries to learn from her. remember when maomao was kidnapped and jinshi tried to think like her, to figure out where she might be and how sheād act? THATāS HIM APPLYING WHAT HEāS LEARNED. thatās him treating her intelligence as something worth listening to, learning from, protecting. this man said āwow sheās incredible, iām gonna start doing that too.ā š
also can we talk about how at this point, jinshi is literally jus there to make sure maomao can do whatever she wants šš he is using his position to create space for maomao to move freely. ane he does it silently, without demanding recognition or credit. like. she has the freedom to act, investigate, speak outābecause jinshi has the status and he uses that power so SHE can keep doing what she loves.
heās not the type to put her in a cage and call it loveāheās the type to open the door wider.
maomaoās a low-born woman in a rigid society, and yet sheās moving through rooms she shouldnāt be allowed in, questioning people way above her rank, throwing herself into dangerāand she gets away with it. because jinshi is behind her.
and the beauty of it is he never rubs that in her face. he never says āyou can only do this because of me.ā
NO. he simply uses his status to create space for herāa safe space where she can be brilliant, reckless, clever, infuriatingly blunt, and still be protected.
we love a supportive malewife whoās just out here empowering his genius goblin girlfriend š
heās not just in loveāhe respects her.
SEE WHAT IāM TALKING ABOUT šš he just lets her do stuff.
LET PEOPLE ENJOY THEIR INTERESTS!!!!!!! even if itās borderline unhinged, even if it involves starting a drinking bet with 5 men and other maomao-coded behavior.
jinshi has so much faith in her. he doesnāt hover. he doesnāt interrupt. he just trusts that she knows what sheās doingāeven when literally no one else does.
and GOD. may this love find me.
the kind of love that doesnāt try to change you or dim you down.
just watches you go feral in your weird little field of expertise and thinks, āyeah. thatās them. thatās the person I trust.ā
jinshi NEVER holds her back. (okay, MAYBE sometimes he takes away her mushrooms and poison samples but THATS BECAUSE SHES INSANE. thatās not control, thatās just him trying to keep her from dying LMAO š)
but even then, he never tells her to stop being herself. he just wants her alive long enough to keep being brilliant. like⦠imagine someone believing in you that much. not just tolerating your interests. not romanticizing them either. but respecting them, supporting them, helping make sure you get the space to keep doing what you love.
and now as the scene progresses, all that ātrust herā energy?? YEAH. itās still there. but heās also 1000% ready to step in the moment she crosses the line.
because like⦠letās be real. maomao?? out of her mind sometimes LMAO š sheāll do unhinged things without flinching. sheāll walk headfirst into danger with zero self-preservation and just go āyeah itās fine <3ā GIRL. STOP.
and jinshi??? he knows this. he respects her intellect, he trusts her judgmentā but he also knows she needs someone to pull her back when she goes too far.
so the moment it gets tense? the moment the landlord starts getting pissed?
everyone else is still sitting there stunned, but jinshiās already upābecause if anything happens to her, heās already decided he wonāt just watch.
this is what I love about them so much.
they balance each other perfectly. she pulls him out of his perfect palace persona. he pulls her back from the edge of self-destruction sheās the chaotic gremlin genius with zero self-preservation. heās the calm, composed, high-ranking disaster with a soft spot the size of the moon, and together they function like one complete human being ššš
they are the definition of equal and opposite.
not trying to change each otherājust naturally falling into place like two puzzle pieces.
he is her stability. she is his clarity. and neither of them asks the other to change.
okay but can we TALK about how maomao literally just accepts pain?? like. āyeah iām probably gonna get punched but whatever, i need that info.ā GIRL. what do you MEAN "its fine" šš this woman treats her own life like a tool. like a thing she can offer up to science or logic or knowledge or whatever cause sheās chasing at the moment. she was READY to get beat up if it meant getting closer to an answer. and this isnāt even the first time!!!
tested poisons on herself
walked around with reopened stitches like itās no big deal
been punched in the face and brushed it off
was ABOUT TO CUT OFF HER PINKY
AND SHE THOUGHT THAT WAS FINE. she didnāt flinch. no hesitation. because thatās how little she thinks her body matters. to her, pain is just another step in the process. if she has to bleed for the answer, then so be it.
but Jinshi? Jinshi sees that. and it kills him.
he's the only one who stops her. heās the one who sees her sacrificing herself over and over and goes āno. not like this.ā the way he literally wonāt let her hurt herself, even when sheās convinced itās necessary.
like that one last scene in season 2ā sheās about to CUT OFF HER OWN PINKY to test a medicine (she hasnāt seen jinshi in a while, sheās not in the rear palace anymore, sheās fully gone goblin mode with no one to stop her)
and then??? jinshi walks in. and she STOPS.
she doesnāt even argue. she just stops. because heās there again. and heās always been the one to keep her grounded.
girlieās ready to bleed for her answers and this man is out here being like āno you are NOT cutting off your damn pinky, are you INSANEāā
jinshi is the reason maomao doesnāt self-destruct completely.
he takes care of her like sheās breakableānot because he thinks sheās weak, but because he loves her that much.
he treats her like sheās fragile. like sheās precious. like sheās someone who deserves to be protectedāeven from herself.
heās the only one who reminds her sheās not disposable. heās the one keeping her grounded. keeping her alive. she pushes herself too far and he pulls her back every. single. time.
they balance each other in the most painfully beautiful way.
maomao brings out his true selfāthe silly, unfiltered, messy version of him that no one else gets to see. and jinshi brings out the part of maomao that still wants to be human. to be cared for. to be held.
when heās stuck being the perfect, composed, unreachable official, sheās the only one who treats him like a human being.
she calls him out. makes him sulk. brings out his bratty, petty, real self.
she gives him space to breathe.
they balance each other in every way.
they are each other's anchors and i am LOSING IT
"three hundred silver would be cheap at the price of this girl" thatās it. thatās the whole thesis. thatās the line.
you can write entire essays about their dynamic but THIS. RIGHT. HERE. is the mic drop.
maomao, who would willingly slice her own finger off in the name of science, who shrugs off bruises and reopened stitches like theyāre part of the process, who thinks her value is in what she can do, not who she is.
and then thereās jinshi, saying with his whole chest that even 300 silver would be a bargain. even that wouldn't be enough. like heās not just protecting her anymore, heās putting worth on her in front of a whole room of people. redefining her value out loud.
and the way he says it so casually, brushing away the hand of the man holding her, like ādonāt touch her. sheās not for you. sheās not for harm.ā
that level of possessive protection??? ARE YOU KIDDING???
she risks herself like she doesnāt matter.
he guards her like sheās everything.
HE VALUES HER MORE THAN SHE VALUES HERSELF.