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He ate 2 of the 7 way dewormer for dogs thing but over the course of about 12 hours, roughly. I mixed it in with his food & he just wouldn't eat it all at once, he's a pretty picky eater honestly. I also gave him one flea med thing, that I got on Amazon with the help of my parents, & online it said to do this because they often get it from eating infected fleas.

So he's probably okay, but I have him scheduled for Tues with the vet to check him out & get him some meds for preventative care since he's out in the woods hiking with me & consistently finds dead shit all the Fucking time!....

I couldn't get my shit together, like I wrote earlier, as the person I am being disabled & all that, then my parents become something that makes it very difficult to get him his meds, beyond just complaining, & so I just put it off & ended up forgetting over & over then would talk about it then it wouldn't get scheduled again, whole thing.

What helped was I could just email them to get him scheduled. My other vet I couldn't do that & calling is always a thing that is harder for me to do thanks to be hard of hearing & having my anxiety & more.

So, yeah I could never afford my dog. I got him free because he was being given away in the parking lot of a Safeway when he was just a puppy. I took the chance & my life is better for it.

I've been able to care for him the entire time, he's never been without food & or water, love, or having a fun time hiking with me. But I end up making a mistake & needing help I would ask for thanks to my parents being that way & he got worms.

It happens.

I also need my coping skills & ability to pursue life so yeah, that's why I can't get out of my abusive parents being in my life helping me.

Govt don't help much anyways, but it does help.

Wondering why isn't nosey, it's trying to find something to go after someone. Mind your shit or get fucking wrecked to shit bitch.

It was mpoxde's YouTube video about the 3d printer that made me cancel it. I've been looking for muti-toolheads that have an enclosure. Nothing is large enough. Without getting into extreme prices, for me, at least; I'm broke as fuck & even pay as you go I don't have a lot of purchasing power.

They are the only, realistically (I'm still looking though), actual printer that fits my size & has multiple filament types I can combine, with a heated chamber, filament drying, & filters.

They... Aren't known to be particularly great. I got burned so fucking hard on the qidi xmax 3 that I literally just don't want to anything cad & printing anymore & I'm pushing to keep trying. It's a work in progress.

I've been looking at elegoo for a good multi toolhead, they don't have one, what I mean is I'm hoping that they will make one, seems like it's the new hotness. Flashforge is the other one besides snapmaker, but they have a wait until November to have the upper part for an enclosure & the rest.

I'm okay with waiting, I need to get my money back anyways, bro I have food, bills, & more that I need paid. I don't care about it, I planned around a little emergency, I got groceries today (I had a moment where I thought I didn't grab a bag but I did, I went back, got the items I thought I didn't get, then found it & then went back & returned the other items & explained it, it was my mistake :P no big deal just having a bit of a time with it), dog is taken care of, fed & happy, I've taken a shower, have toiletries, I have Internet, you get it.

My shit is good, got help from the parents previously for a full tank of gas when it was 40c off, with an extra 5 in the gas can I keep with me.

I have insurance for my car paid, tags good for quite some time. But still I want my fucking money back bro, give it back.

They said too many people bought things & it's taking time to process, totally normal & I'm okay with it. But like yeah I'm just stressed lol. So it's like, mostly a joke because I'm fairly sure it will come back; I mean the printer hasn't shipped, it's still in pre-order, so it'll be fine likely.

But I remember the giga elegoo... Major hardware did a whole thing about it. It was not good.

The centauri 2 is good, no chamber heater. So can't, also no multi toolhead.... Prusa has the only printer that is multi toolhead, the size i need (actually a little bigger than I need so I'd have to figure it out) & can come with 5 of them with an enclosure. It's Also! Like fucking 5k, I can't possibly afford that.

Want to. Yes.

Can't.

I talked about the elegoo giga because, I'm a bachelor who has the ability to move things from around in front of my bed to other places & could put it at the foot of my bed.... Yet, obviously don't want too, but like.... I did think about it briefly.

Briefly.

That's full on garage/workshop territory stuff dude! Lol I don't really have the ability to swing that.

But the prusa XL is able to be on a shelf & off the ground a little. Like genuinely feasible, but sadly I'm super broke boy.

So, yeah, nothing has the build volume. Which led me towards flashforge as the only real other one, but I need to wait anyways because... Well life stuff dudes. Shit happens, we've all been there dude.

so, how was the calming down before pike's peak? Nothing like a little running out & spending money for a coping skill to help the nerves after your 2nd channels video. I remember posting about those issues you could have with the ecu. I don't know if they saw that, but hey there you go. Looks like your frustrated with your manager, because he isn't keeping up or filming? Which is it? I dunno. Don't care, truthfully, did you do well & will you maybe finally finish your other truck. Coping or not, funding this through your other things is nice, my guess is you are running out of space & Vince is gone now.

But then again you have your own home & everything so what do I know. I shouldn't be getting involved, the uproar about investing in cars people were only going to get to look at was weird to me too. Then again it didn't get mentioned again either. You don't have to, but that's just what it is, people dislike things you are doing but it helps you, you end up just not telling them.

Boats, cars, racing, & acting with some hosting, eh? Busy, busy, busy. No wonder you start to avoid things. It's written over you everywhere. You have to let things go & know you can't do everything. It takes time to process stuff.

Me, sure, yeah. But saying it isn't that way for everyone is like saying everyone is the one dude who quite liked the war. You remember that guy, was all up on reddit & more online about some dude that got shot & hurt in multiple wars & said it liked it. Few people like him. Few, just saying.

I know you know, racing would be great but joining it later on in life is hard & typically only in some specific styles... Ones you might not like. Takes you around without the ability to do your other jobs. Its hard on the body for some & people that have been trying their whole lives while putting in their efforts with their talents are there too, its not always so easy to just join. Nothing against you, just saying you know your side & how much you can do.

What do you want to actually focus on, using that mirror while you practice how to act to others, like I said, can make you forget who you are in the real moments. Allowing yourself to freak a little is a human thing & people will just be themselves dude. Your life won't implode just because of that.

You have friends. Already, dude. People who actually care even if the money & fame goes bye bye.

Was it the race you wanted to do, to have the story, to pull it off with others, what money & or other things you could get out of doing it from sponsors/people watching, was it connections talking to others you know networking, you know I know its written over you. I don't have to say I even wrote it down. Nothing like a little misdirect, eh?

honestly , yup. if you paid for it, nope no effort is not your art and a percentage of your profits should go to the original artist(s). just like any ai, they get no money and or credit for their work. use of their work deserves payment even that for a tool as the tool doesn't exist without their work. I'm , genuinely, surprised that the Republicans don't get involved because it's right up their alley for their whole schtick identity thing they do.

modification of the original needs credit to the original and payment for the given total amount it resulted in being towards the whole project, like all other contracts before. but the reason it doesn't happen is thanks to youtube "transformative" work bs making it become something is not. kinda like my comments being used for youtube videos, people just go along with its not mine.

even though it's because of a built up parasocial relationship to the creator that feeds them continuing with it, but also barely bothering to look at comments & or put effort in to caring about it.

filament recyclers can't come soon enough, honestly.

if they made the cad design fully themselves, like you said, it's art, I'd its copying another design it is not art is a picture of the painting someone is calling their art. the photo might be done well, but it's the painting that is the art. if they changed more than... lets say this, you took a boat and now it's an action figure that looks like a different super man boat thing that has a cape, moving parts that can be removed then is inspired by and it's uniquely yours, but have to credit inspiration, that's it.

you decided to spray paint copper on it and then electroformed a, let's say benchy, until it was the action figure, well that's uniquely yours now. It might have to be said that is has a benchy as a part of it, but its pretty obviously not a benchy anymore its a action figure, clearly. Inspired with the benchy inside of it, sure, but you get it.

If you made an entirely unique your own cad design, then printed it, then did electroforming, sanding, painting, all of it, that's art. End of discussion. Period.

As for making the cad design of your, or someone else's, design really good & getting so good at printing it that it comes out looking as if it was a fully injection molded part we just call that skill. We don't call that art. The distinction remains, no matter that argument given.

Just like my comments & posts.

But, hey this is the guy that has only modified someone else's raspberry pi 4b case model & only added it to their page & never claimed it as anything other than theirs completely with just my mods. Its a 25mm fan that I think looks cool. That's it. Its not art. It's not modded enough in the slightest to have that be mine, its not transformative, its nothing but theirs completely. With some slight modifications, sure, but it's only theirs.

The landfill waste continues to grow the pacific garbage patch & will only get worse in the coming decades. Creality's filament recycler is looking good. There are better filaments that bio-degrade & a far better to print with, with better (outright) strength characteristics. Previously they smelled, be we have enclosures & honestly all plastic off-gassing organic volatiles & particulates are bad, there are no safe levels. You will be filled with nano plastics printing. If you aren't grow tenting even regular filaments on open nonenclosure printers you are just waiting for the plastics to coat everything in your home/apartment. Same thing for, sadly, even enclosed printers as many aren't good at doing it. SO, yes, grow tent everything, fume hood it out your restroom with that vent on for negative pressure, use tons of activated carbon & great filter cloth for everything as pollution has started to get really bad & its just hiding in smaller forms instead of raining down chunks of carbon like back during the era of the start of the industrial revolution.

Gases that never had a shot of existing now enter your brain, same for nano particulates & volatiles. It isn't good, sadly. But downwind of any dump will tell you that, a building collapsing (even purposefully demolished) will show you how much it just kills you faster, tons of plastics in those things. That farm for the fidgets is an open air nightmare & likely will get someone cancer & or some brain/heart/lung condition directly & indirectly attributable to it, even outside & downwind of it like all the refineries, gas stations, & more we've already seen be this exact thing.

Be careful, be a cautious dude, multiple successful people in multiple industries have said various versions of this next part, be paranoid. There is nothing but someone finally being able to enforce good practices onto bad practices, or entities. Industries & people (Trump with Epstein, for instance) get away with it for decades & or longer. It doesn't work protesting, shouting about it, it works when you get directly involved in your gov't & or local gov't. It works when you stop it in your life, your own individual settings, grow tents & activated carbon, hepa on the way out, a board for the window & or vent cover. Push it up high & if you can, use percolation styles of reaction based filtration systems together with uv & electricity to force it to go back to basic bio-organic/non-polymerized/non-harmful & non... Just not able to stick into our bodies.

im at 15.30 & I've noticed something that you probably already know about, but just in case, the nuts are moving & slowly coming undone. I know it might not mean much, but maybe. Other than that, the valve is rubbing & will wear in, but could become something of a pre-failure because of increased stresses on your valve, maybe. Maybe completing the other groove & putting another matching one on the other side might just give you what you want, or just I'm worried for no reason. Because lube, & a better spring isn't out of the question, but its because of how much work it is to take it apart & put it back together again that makes me also feel like maybe something for the future to deal with. But like.... yeah, I dunno I'd like to do it too.

BTW! ABSOLUTELY CONGRATS! Dude, it works far better than it did ever before, all your hard work has fully paid off & you have a hammer that is amazing. If you wanted to sell restoration for customers, they are likely going to be annoyed if you didn't do that final valve stuff, but that's not what you are doing okay. It's yours! YOur hard work & amazing efforts with others that got you to the point of having a hammer you love now.

If you sell it later, they will get you on the valve.

Just saying, I'd have to agree with them as a bystander. It's worth far far more, don't even, but yeah.

I still want the 3d printer, even though I think I should cancel the order & save up for something else more expensive later.

Also, I'm having a huge migraine but I got through the appointment & it looks like, 2 out of 3 is done, the 15th was apparently the one for inspection day.

I mean.... 350mm x 350mm x 350mm build volume with 16but color seems appropriate for me.

But they haven't gotten it out of preorder & said it would be delivered around the 20th of June for orders after a point.

But it's still in pre-order & I have it on pay as you go. I think they think I'm too broke & I'm thinking it would be worth it to just save. The prusa core 1 L is big, but not as big & I do need volume for car stuff & building drones, your mom's dildos (😏), rockets, you get it.

But I think the quality is quite high.

This is in reference to the comment I made on the subreddit, because I know I have stalkers so I'm not even giving you an inch, I know you know by this point, the rest will think it's kinda cryptic... Maybe 🤷 I dunno, I mean suck my dick & get off my back bitches who cares.

It seems theirs is too, but ttthhheeennn... I dunno. I'm stuck here wondering about the lock down of open source software & to a degree hardware too. Going over how much my shit was stolen & no body cared either & it's a bunch of things from hypocritical people often.

I need reliability, & for another 1k I guess I could do that. I don't have another. I'd have to wait for quite some time. Which even this pay as you go is stressing me. But I'm paying it off with the other & my credit card. It's right & my parents are helping me with my dog & other essentials, if they didn't I wouldn't even have a shot.

I'm guessing I'm stupid sensitive to them. Which sucks. I've taken my ubrelvy, but had nurtec much earlier today (close to 12 hours ago but I mean it's an emergency I guess), a liquid multivitamin, magnesium citrate, Benadryl 25mg, magnesium taurine, & I'm hoping it works.

I've been going to the ER with severe migraines off & on for months, typically only a few weeks at most in between. I think at this point it is hormones & the longer lasting stuff in the cocktails they give me wearing off & then I end up with massive migraine attacks again & again.

I don't really know what to do. The hormone wears off & then I'm suddenly massively stressed & anxiety ridden without any way to calm down with any of my coping skills. Then huge migraine attack.

Same for the ergoline as they call it.

I can't take antipsychotics because they give me psychosis, fucking not great on that one. Need my ADHD meds, which on the days I can take them as prescribed I do better with less migraine, then they wear off & boop, migraine.

So the opposite of what online suggests it to be.

*sarcastic* super!

I have an important, at noon, meeting in my apartment today (yup it's today the 12th) later to have the go ahead to have them say I didn't fuck everything up & I'm allowed to live here for another year.

That's also not helping me with stress & anxiety which contributes to my migraines as well.

Sucks. Completely.

Then, because of multiple rounds of migraine cocktails, I'm pretty sure it's side effects of those at this point causing my issues, which could persist for (possibly) weeks or months.

Ergotamine, real quick, utter terrible. It made everything become something that is unrelaxing, unrelenting, & I have to pound my hands into something just to settle down a little.

The only one that made me tell them to just knock me out. Literally, just fucking put me to sleep. They gave me more Benadryl. Not totally better, they said something about histamine being released with it, so I guess it helped, but yeah I was already on my Zyrtec & my nasal spray fluticasone.

Came in with my ubrelvy already going, this Alka Seltzer antacid ibuprofen stuff, with the liquid multivitamin b vitamins in there & the magnesium. Couldn't function worth jack shit. Was able to hold myself together just long enough to get myself driven to the hospital.

I forced myself to get other needed things done, but fuck off. The most panic.

I finally let them benzo me with Ativan. Finally, been there a few times & it seems to help but I have to say I don't like being on something that can kill you if you become dependent on it & is still highly easy to have increased mood deregulation & possible rebound side effects too later.

Which is why I told them the last few times to not give it to me. Stuff is scary.

But genuinely started having weird intrusive thoughts for homicidal & suicidal things. I keep myself together & have thoughts, yes, but this shit was aggressive & brutal, with genuine difficulties not giving into sudden bursts of my brain trying to force reactions. Like literally just force it, like sudden brains tries to move hand to just punch something & I have to go like no, not doing that.

No idea why it's wanting to punch said thing but yes, can't relax wants punch something. Very similar to after hormone given in ER visit then my body was on fire & I needed to start running & screaming in terror while wanting to fight everyone around me.

Literal feelings I was having alongside of wanting to attack anything near me. Not angry, though. No rage, just do this & no reason to it. Nothing, no anger, no rage, no annoyance, just do it thing.

Fucking awful, then they shot me up with a bunch of benzo to knock me out. Helped out. Likely the hormones leaving, it made me massively anxious too, stupidly stressed out too.

Ergotamine (I believe was what it was) was that without the others or me involved, just hit the arms of the chair while sitting. Like pound into it in being uncomfortable massively, massively uncomfortable.

The only other one I would say, besides the hormones, just better to knock me out. Literally just sleep me up.

Fuck those things, not really ever worth it, I'd have to deal with it later too! I mean, yes maybe in really, rrrreeeaallllyyy severe cases, yes, but only with the understanding I'd be admitted to the hospital & could be given meds & treatment to deal with the side effects after for a few weeks possibly.

That's how fucking bad those were.

But, yeah they did ... Work I guess.

The Ativan, I can recommend for my type of migraines. They come with huge mood swings, stress, & anxiety. So yeah, benzos make sense to me. The magnesium citrate works, the moment I started back in that in my regimen as a daily, it helped reduce severity. Same for my liquid multivitamin trace minerals brand.

So that helps, the emgality works to help reduce, same for the nurtec & the ubrelvy when I need it.

All of that hasn't gotten rid of whatever it is that's been the cyclical problem.

Which, I think it's the er visits from last year that led to the issues. They correctly helped with meds, but the hormone & other treatments in the cocktail given, sadly for me, became a rebound & wears off later increases my sensitivity & other issues problem.

For me, that many times, it lasted just long enough that, unfortunately for me & anyone like me, that the risk of it causing further problems later was then actually something that happened & it became a cyclical issue that reoccurred over & over again.

Why did it happen? Because I didn't have my doctor do the prior authorization until I hounded them & I was off the emgality for about half a year. Taking my ubrelvy barely enough & then too much work with the rebound withdrawal symptoms from my main meds then coincided with the emergency room visit cocktail meds.

Same for not having my tremfya, which was like 7 or 8 months off. Psoriasis increases migraines, depression, anxiety, synaptic pruning, psychosis like issues, & more.

I was fucked.

My inability to follow up with my doctors, which it should be automatic without me hounding them to do their actual literal jobs, caused my issues. Whatever they thought, think, etc of me also causing it to be slow & or not done isn't something that allows for that to be an correct or acceptable thing to do either. This is what my insurance allows for.

This is America.

I could, technically, go to the ER... Again! But then I'll be telling them this is my concern & the best you can do is the toradol & Benadryl to help with whatever iv fluids & maybe the benzo?

Not what I'm looking to do. I'd liked to sleep, but I took my (which yes ergotamine seems to cause sleep disturbances, which have been happening for quite some time, around when I went to the ER for my mega bad migraine where I ended up calling the police fucking close to 20 times having my dad dodge a fucking ambulance because he could just drive me there faster & I doubted I could even get out of the truck into there but also was in massive panic & stress mode, & it's still true he did drive me there faster & the questions they were going to ask wouldn't have done anything, truthfully think of it as stupid on my part to not have gone with them but yeah, logic was sound still. Huge heart attack like symptoms, slurring words, left arm numbness & tingling, stroke like symptoms with weakness on one side, fucking ask me questions I'm sure I'll *proceeds huge panics attack & blaaaaaaaahhhhh happens* nope) night meds the day before, my lunesta.

Can't take my lunesta the very next day. Doesn't work as well but also causes dependency too.

Soooo.... Benadryl hasn't done much, just slightly sleepy. But I wasn't able to sleep before.

Oh Phaser has worms, tape worms looks like, & I was able to convince my parents to help me out with buying the OTC tape worm meds & flea & tick stuff, going to need to call the vets later today for an appointment for him to get checked out fully.

The OTC meds cover hook & round too, not heart. He keeps getting into dead animals, I haven't been able to get my shit together to get to the vet to get his meds & he hasn't had the preventative meds for a while. So this happened. Chronic issues not helping & my disabilities working together on that, plus my parents then going after me as well.

Need to get him in the preventative meds, somehow keep those payments up. Fucking shit sucks. Still looking for the chiropractor referral, the dentist referral I need for insurance to cover it isn't seeing any adults right now because they're booked. So waiting on something else. Need to call the ENT specialist, myself I guess, because they won't call me even though the referral went through.

The vision referral called me & the dermatologist for the tremfya did too. I went to them after my last er visit just to fucking get it done before I had more issues. Need labs done.

My dogs worms make me want to get tested, rare & I doubt it, but still. He sleeps with me on the bed so now I'm anxious about it.

Truthfully been having issues before the biologics that I attributed to age & stress, but honestly I don't think that fits anymore as it keeps getting worse. First layer labs look fine, nothing there. I need deeper which is my problem, they don't want to but now I need those because it is something. Not just normal fatigue, which could be the biologic. On no migraine & or psoriasis treatment, I did stupid (yes stupid) but still, incredible bike rides (again stupid & needed more water & food & sunscreen etc but still) that I couldn't even hope to match.

Let alone getting a hike that would be anywhere near that long as back then. Although I would recover for weeks sometimes, I literally couldn't even attempt that now. Weeks of barely walking because of pain from inflammation caused through those psoriasis issues & the migraines that ensued, but still I could.

Now.... Is it that? I was on humira (however you spell it) & it didn't work, but didn't cause this, in fact the migraine med emgality didn't seem to be that bad. I dunno what to tell you. I've just been getting slower & slower, more & more tired, less & less able with more things forgotten & unable to be done around my apartment even.

My treatment resistant (for everything sadly) major depressive disorder didn't go away, but got better with my ADHD meds in a good regimen. But that didn't really stop anything, like off my meds suddenly I can do things again like hike escudilla mountain. Suddenly I can get up & get going a bit again.

Am I frantic at times, yes, am I over eating at times, yes, am I also unable to stay on any task, no but kinda because any is a little too far honestly but kinda.

The problem with stimulants is that they don't treat all the areas of the brains under & over stimulation & arousal issues going on. But nonstimulants have caused psychosis, which straterra, Wellbutrin, actually I don't want to go online & search yet again all of them & I feel like that makes me look like I looked up meds to lie that I've been on even though it's just to remember. But it seems like all of them over 20+ years I've tried, even tricyclics, tetracylics, SSRI, snri, anticholinergics, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, truthfully seems like everything.

Consistently the same results for me, opposite of what it's supposed to do, especially with time & dose, does nothing, does something else that comes with huge side effects others don't get & I must be lying.

Sometimes, lovely enough sometimes, it works & I can keep it! I love those ones. But damn it if it isn't shit. The withdrawals are tremendously terrible & my sensitivity seems to be heavily random to it too. Hormones & ergotamine are giving me huge side effects after a few uses?! Like fuck off what!?

Stupid.

Doctors give up because yeah what do you do. A patient that's tried basically everything & taking the risk is way more risky than before with other patients, then they are fucking knowledgeable like you on a lot of it, it becomes fucking horrendous to try. You'll hear them say side effects from meds that require much more actual use for those side effects to occur & then think it must be something else, but it isn't.

Lying, they took something, all nope. You can't do the same with them, completely disrupts their typical methods & makes them uncomfortable to prescribe like they should. You would need to be a psychiatrist who specializes in treatment resistant patients with alternative (migraines & psoriasis for my example) pathways to what is causing the issues going on. Hormones for psychiatric issues if they can cause me to fucking go bonkers like that in the emergency room, which is supposed to be a endocrinologist, but no!

That's right no! It's not, it's a psychiatrist that would be the one who could help, but even then the risk can be massive thanks to those issues. Dexamethasone? Or was it methylprednisolone? Those cause it? Fucking what?!

Not typical & yet I guess it is. Huge swings & fast, it suggests hormones & or other adjacent treatments can be immensely influential for me. For better or for worse. Same for those other pathways in the body & brain going on that cause those to go up & or down. Not typical testosterone pathways, likely.

No copy did I do.

Migraines, ergotamine not wonderful, hormones caused severe sudden intrusive thoughts to hit & or otherwise after wore off.

Ergotamine made me want sleep sleep for migraines, not worth without admitting in for a while to deal with side effects, same for hormones.

Why am I more sensitive to them than others don't know, but the cycle continued after huge migraine last year & was given many times the migraine cocktail.

Doctors didn't prior authorization for half a year to over that & caused issues.

Now still dealing with it.

Phaser has tape worms, got meds from parents.

Bad shit, all migraines & more with disabilities caused no push with parents & call vet to get preventative meds for him, he gets problems.

Wouldn't be able to afford it even without other purchases. It's not possible, disabled people be broke, govt doesn't pay anything.

Need good appointment for continue live here for another year.

Phaser stuck until Saturday.

Call vet later today.

Big problems with meds, migraines don't stop, likely need specialist in treatment resistant, deals with paradoxical a lot & hormones & possibly alternative pathways because migraines & psoriasis increases depression, anxiety, mood swings, & psychosis like symptoms together with synaptic pruning issues.

I'm incredibly happy she was able to track down her killer & put him behind bars & they didn't buy the defense of removing the premeditation side. Its a classic anti-villain trope of he does good after abusing & hurting for that long. If he had gotten away with it, he would have likely decided to hurt more again. It was a planned thing, he bought the ticket & knew he could look unassuming & good.

Trump has effectively distracted with the war, he has consistently gotten around the law, the whole ice issues of fully removing an protected right as an American (should have gotten MAGA to hate this guy, hasn't sadly done that) by just going in & not needing warrants, he's repeated shown with others that he can just do whatever & then they barely can get people to enforce the rule of law, Congress has said no more war he continues war, truthfully its been completely successful. People just go along with him keeping them in a new form of jail, let alone getting rid of American rights, thinking they need identification on them at all times, serious infrastructure issues still are going on, energy crisis issues haven't gotten better, the fact that we just got away with invading (might have forgotten this btw) a country & taking their president.

To be fair, he was helping cartels & honestly going after America. So... Not good, but you can't really invade a country to just take a president. Then he's been fully able to have shown the DOJ & more is fully apathetic & basically complicit with his orders, even once again showing how congress doesn't dictate who decides when we are at war. We have a huge debt & deficit in our budget, that only Republicans caused. Really, we have seen the beginning of a out & proud police state, entirely complicit hiring to make sure racists flourish, our taxes were spent on making sure our wealth got worse, honestly yeah all he's done is put on a great clown show of distraction & we went with Legos for a good distraction.

The Legos deserves a full on law enforcement & federal investigation, truthfully. I mean... The lay-away thing has me thinking. Like for real, what was going on there, some life style thing, maybe commission, like what? Just helping others not buy something because they know the person, even if its only a few hundred dollars maybe & being petty in their community? Then a RICO? Like, no way they have real evidence for that. Looks like a dude was trying to help dudes, then tried to help them with bad hyperbole going on & was showing off they needed to curtail & curb that.

Right? But then it just blew the heck up, huge! He had to flee to Mexico. No! That just doesn't make sense, it sounds like a bunch of decided to handle it incredibly incorrectly police officers & more that ended their possible good will in the community on top of worse in terms of the chance of them handling real money issues as serious once its "child stuff" as if cars aren't just stupid bang bang things that roll. Some old jalopy going put put down the road, but its worth some half a million for some. You treat that serious. So its Legos, we all know what you decide is correct to care about now. Money. & now you've shown the people who you organize yourselves underneath & any of their passions won't be protected unless its the right ones.

You need to treat anything seriously, remember who your masters are, okay police?

You can't be serious about that kind of reaction & non-reaction. Now, for me I don't think Crystal is really someone I'm going to judge, truthfully past is past but it doesn't change something weird & off is going on here.

Ms. Rachel is fine for helping & showing that people are people. Stupids be stupiding, like normal. Thinking most people will go along with their need to have them de-humanized & invalidated just because they are humans that do legally live here but even if they didn't they are still humans & can't be treated like that. They need a Nazi way of looking at this & Trump put that out there in his campaign. So they are just going along with the program.

Bill Gates is a part of it, if anything all of what you went over just showed how many interconnected powerful people are just like we think they are in sitcoms, tv shows, & movies. "It'll be bad for pr." For real? & so many more things besides. They're getting away with it, which is why everyone went to Legos.

There is the death threats to people that are democrats. No one is going after that. Then the Mark Kelly thing, where he really just said you can't do that illegal thing, then they went after him for that. Nothing is being done there, completed distracted.

Just like the Panama Papers.

Threats to try & make Iran, whom we could knock out their nuke (pretty easily btw) out of the sky is all that looks like, while also showing off exactly why this is a distraction. Big multiple MIRV players are hard to knock down & no one has any real defense for that which makes what Iran is doing literally irrelevant. So, that truce exists with Russia & others for a reason. It's a distraction, a need to control prices, get insider money trading going on that won't be gone after he leaves & or for his kids & others around him, among a few other things regarding getting a nice way to not have anyone remember things & enforce those things.

I'd love for you to go over that science he was talking about at the end a little further, not because its going to mean he's correct but actually because I love science & wanted to learn some more about it actually. My understanding is that there should be next to no testosterone in eggs what-so-ever. I know of people that are transitioning using eggs to "grow" really make their needed hormones to use, sadly as a consequence of not being able to afford their meds & be allowed to transition as the normal people they are. Using, often, plastics & quite a few neat little tricks of amino acid bio chemistry to make the hormones from precursor chemicals that allow for these to be made fairly easily & effectively.

The filtration usually only require specific styles of vacuum distillation, or a binder style which attaches to the given compound at hand then they react it to crash it out of solution. Sort of like making DMT from all tree bark around you & easily from any plants. Which makes it impossible to police & enforce as all of it is hardware store supplies & some basic bark you can easily legally get for higher total percentage volumes of the given DMT molecule. In fact, most of this is easily found online & at any local library. Gotten around, if you have some internet block, by simply buying any book, which is legally easily purchasable online, that tells you how to do this.

For reference, tikal & pikal might have that in there, but most online forums aren't wrong in how to do this & it is well understood.

Much like making your own hormones. Weirdly enough, like from spit & skin cells you can make the needed bio-chemistry amin-acid & enzyme reactions. Often expensive online to buy, not so much when you have them in your body & they are easily isolated & used. Same for found around you on many surfaces of things.

Regardless, I would be surprised if they ever went back to that study & saw the increase of nitrogen in the body. I mean we have the oxygen pressure chambers to help now, for burn victims, & I wouldn't doubt they would have looked at that study around that time to see if it was even close to being viable still. Let alone people doing, almost, anything to get a performance boost so I would think they would have tried again.

To be honest, this is me just thinking back to when I first started watching you as blargypaston & you going over studies & just bashing on people with how that just wouldn't be the case & or work that way. Which I loved & still love. I miss that side of your content. These videos make me sad, about how far they are getting & how much the industry just kills young people, lies to them, & they go along with it the same way maga got others to go along with their idiocy. They know they are lying & that mentality is what helps bad laws & policy get approved & voted up, alongside of politicians & more.

It's not just them, fitness & health, its the whole thing helping create this issue. Anyways, hormones & reuptake inhibitors for hormones aren't hard to make; Remember you had to evolve these things being consistently made, they are simple compounds done in simple ways, often requiring very little to get them to become those things. Storing them is what becomes the harder part. That became a bunch of peptides & proteins that tend to have buffer compounds that keep them stable. In our bodies, things to reduce acids & alkalines. Those are ubiquitously, often, things that don't react with out bodies & are safe. Cause no harm to us at all levels of safe, typically the same ones in our own bodies, meaning blood.

I think about it, because, more than likely, these super jacked dudes are getting their hormones from some dude who's transitioning who had to learn how to do this because of the total amount of expensive it is & all the stupid ideas of enforcement being there let alone politicians ability to stop people mixing things & having it work. The drug enforcement agency's ability to police anything has been consistently bad & has only resulted in people believing in a maga conspiracy hoax & more allowing for them to further vote them in & take on more risk. Knowing they aren't going to get good results at the end.

They already know enforcement is through teaching them the correct things, why & why nots, how to do properly, no shame, & more. In fact, over in places (not america although there are some that exist here & they've had great results) in the northern & southern hemisphere (just making sure to talk like that dude at the end) there have been many successes in which is drove down the use. I mean, in America alone, they legalize weed & the teens don't use it as much & even better its because the parent's & other adults feel comfortable with talking to them about it. Many many such cases that their other side had to cherry pick examples & find "causality" instead of correlation with no actual ability for it to have been not correlation to say it was the opposite, especially with larger numbers that didn't actually mean those things with how they did the questions in a leading manner, on top of how them specified use, how much in any test (which they didn't perform so how did they have ppm in anything? LIKE WHAT?!) was there, then looking at that & seeing that they were not only done incorrectly they were also the wrong tests to even see thc, on top of many other things.

But people believed their propaganda lie study as if it wasn't just a few billionaires spending money to have people who look at a title believe something wrong. I ended up writing up a whole big thing, comment & cross-post & I think a repost on tumblr, about one involving the detrimental effects on teenage use because it didn't follow correct procedure & tried to claim it had enough people to mean something statistically to conclude but never did the work correctly to actually have that be the case. It was a non-sense study & wasted years of research that could have meant something but fell flat on its face having no results to draw any conclusions from what-so-ever. Completely worthless study, like a decade of work down the drain all the researches names tarnished & then they just put it out like, "hey we know this will look good, but any scientist studying & or caring that is a real one because they also know these things reading this will immediately disregard this completely & find it hard to even look at us. Please, we need hiring elsewhere, we were forced to do this, let us out of having to help the terrible side more. It was forced into looking this way & we'd like you to know it didn't have any conclusive results for anything detrimental if not likely would have been another 'it depends" on use & route of administration, based on zeitgeist perspective, help from others, therapy, continued practice in anything, & more all showing off it could help to hurt to do nothing at all & the bigger issues were in the republican framing of things, having help, tools & good teaching methods, more than enough money & time to have anything worked on & more like always but they didn't want that one to come out about the reefer madness compound again, instead needed it to be the bad guy instead of them." the study.

Like, obliteratingly obvious what that study was. Man they didn't want that... So they used a big statistical approach that meant nothing again.

Imagine how petty the Amazon review could be. "After using my Atomic Force Microscope, I discovered that this sandpaper was 1 micron too large. 0/5 stars" from mtndew314

which is a response to this comment

Year ago I reviewed cleaning filament for 3D printers on aliexpress and I wrote that it's not nylon or polipropylene and couple months after, one guy use FTIR to determine material and he found it's pure polyethylene. Screenshot from FTIR was attached xD from bartoszpiszczek

in response to this comment (my first comment)

Yeah, but this one would get me, hard. If I needed nylon I need nylon, which ever number it was & or the multiple nylons put together. I'd be incredibly grateful for that review. As for the amazon one, I'd say its important for those who need those highly specific degrees of accuracy, but for others it would be a little much, like oh if it doesn't matter don't listen to this review, but if it does & it might mean something... yeah don't get it. just saying.

my second comment

Time for calibrations, chamber, & a bit of cleaning up around it so dust doesn't get in the way of your results, when it matters. Lint free & hood, in a super clean box would be easier to be fair. Yes, nigel i do think a vacuum would be easier & work quite well, but its up to you. I heard you ask me.

Okay, but.... Loook. I like writing comments about my ideas. So, graphite is a wonderful material that if electrified can expand in highly predictable ways & if you were to vibrate it in the right manner (i.e. like ultrasonic) you can have the sodium atoms fit into the layers & move around along the cushions of repulsive fields that you generate by doing so. Also, a little light emission helps out too with being extremely careful in where it gets placed. I used to use it in one of my old designs that used ultra high density materials for space craft inside of engines to reduce neutrons getting out & reflecting them back in.

Its in one of my shower videos. I describe using, back then, a branching convergence of accelerators (that now sound like the qubec dudes electron wake field accelerators) that basically get them vibrating in such a manner I can fool them into thinking they are not there, fermion like, next to another atom. This led to my (hey patent dudes, this one isn't a chandler az trap, you aren't allowed to take it without problems, just like all the rest I talk about, write about & more) one I at'd the plasma channel for how to make quantum foam get fused together in a non-expensive (energy-wise) manner.

Anyways, instead of chemistry, its more electrodynamics & then chromodynamic field collapse that allows for a new allowed state of ion bonding to be formed. This is a part of my Lemke bonding. Like metal ionic but no I just called it lemke bonds. After my last name.

But that allowed for me to make stupidly high density materials that get stuck together in an incredibly unwilling to move at all state. I tend to have to cool them to Bose-Einstein states & hit them with a very large amount of fast moving atoms & tons of electron volts together with a bunch of inductive electromagnetic fields that collapse into the material to get them to break. They aren't fun to work on, so if you don't make them correctly from the start, its better to just remake them. They aren't coming apart & or getting put back into tolerance later with finishing steps.

That's why I got so good at my one pot methods of making millions of them at once, perfectly acceptable. For stupidly cheap. They will break down, however, using bio-chemistry. Turns out those dudes are great at potentiating smaller movements of orbits into evolution styles of deformation to spring release to final reactions. It's not going to react, but it moves it, just enough, to finally get it to release a thing (which nope, not telling con-artist patent people & more thieves, not that actual phds probably wouldn't already know what it is, so hint hint hush hush) that finally allows for the reactions to finally allow for it to be eaten.

So, I tend to not have to worry about them... *chuckles a bit* because they're in rocket engines & space, & or other extreme environments, but once they get tossed they become eaten by all the life on our planet & are very eco-friendly.

No, but like, actually they are pretty typical sounding, think like an 3d chainmail of electron orbits in-between the hexagon that create their own fields either through a directly in the middle of the hexagon atom, to slightly above to slightly below & then way to close orbit in a virtual state that now has a collapsing consistent spin to it forcing it to be no longer conventional & so it is allowed & a new state orbit that isn't (like rare-earths yes) typically allowed to be there.

Basically I said, "I don't care about you & your ideas of "allowed" chemistry. I'll make it do it & I will force F-ck it in to place & make sure it can't move, but in the exact right way that it will only break apart one way. Correctly for our life to eat it & or slowly & exceptionally specific to force it to then remain as one chunk that doesn't ever actually explode upon doing it." & so I did that.

Using the above methods. They were a massively huge series of tubes, all converging into one area that makes single material pop out. A sheet, sure, or more often then not a huge block, specifically shaped gears, chips for computations, space 3d printed ships sometimes, engines, etc.

....HAHAHAhaaaa, which is why I ended up volumetrically doing things later with pre-setup designs that then just make millions of them at once instead. That, while tubes move around & all that, was annoying after a point. The thing was, that it wasn't that hard to put together tubes, they were just plates stuck together & then smaller little tiny hollow core fibers got the light, vibrational, & field based areas connected together to allow for it to work so much easier.

Again, in my shower videos, I think the one I really remember was the one with gears for the thumbnail & only single image as its only a audio video. & a shower, so intentionally made to not be transcript-able & or something ai could get through. Which made it so only real listeners would be able to get it, people who would give me all the viewer retention entirely through. Which made it so no one could cheat through it.

Anyways, sodium ion batteries are wonderful when used with occlusions, typically hollowed out through intentional plasma-fication of the material during deposition, they allow for specific electron orbital "piezoelectric-like" effects that are built up virtual ion states inside of the occlusions that allow for it to gain more volt energy & total electrons to move per sodium ions & will gain you well past the 4.2069 volts at the half-way mark, but we have to start somewhere, riiiggghtt! *shrugs knowingly* eh, ehhh eh?

I'm only at 20.53. this is also going on my tumblr.

an old battery idea that is only allowed for ukraine to use to fight russians upon crediting me, like basically all my ideas.

this uses fish scales, a microwave kiln, & good 'ol 3d printing to work.

The valve reminds me of carburetor tuning. Needs a certain amount of choke & a total amount of idle screw adjustment. So, a little opening, then some total air comes in & gets it to work through your screw inside of the valve, like in a diesel screw adjuster for total amounts of fuel being used in mechanical diesels.

so you just place a screw inside the valve then you screw in in & or out along the length, maybe the middle area, to allow for more or less air to just go through, to be fair I think the outsides of the valve (the outer 2 vertical sides of the rectangle that are smaller lengths) would work with a worm screw to open those areas up & let an air hockey table effect happen.

you know, a Leiden frost effect, where the air provides a cushion effect & can escape into the valve opening from the sides as well. Interested to see what you will have already come up with then edited then put out later into the future, while you read the ideas after I said you would be working on this, like half a year or something like that on bluesky & used this episode to talk about wine decanting & then how to better make refrigerators & more. Then a while after that evan & katelyn made a video about glass blowing (actually something that I talked about, wine decanting, something during the advert I randomly caught a word & it started it off in my head, or I just whatever into adhd brain) after talking about, at the end there, glass blowing competition on netflix that I think is really cool.

So, after my dad managed to get his meds (been going hard during retirement & couldn't keep up w his Dr to make sure, my mom stopping her meds too, going to Vegas for a dental appt b/c vacation & need to gamble & she's an gambling addict) I finally got word of maybe better Internet, costs more though

Instead of 10.5 down & .8 upload I'd be allowed 1gig down&up on fiber

We talked about it, even posted on here (bluesky) about them agreeing to it but then being worried later they'll say no & go back on our agreement

So irate, not even I'll help you out

I have to help them w their house when they're gone

They decided to come into my apartments complex at about 50mph in a gravel road slamming on the breaks b/c they can't just wait a sec to let me take my meds then talk to them over text

I mean, they don't have to help, but now they aren't helping w anything

They do this every time, though

To threaten me

Now the locks are changing, again

Apparently my dog's food needs to be in the back of their truck

My dad is diabetic, so her butt gets butthurt saying from me saying she could help my father keep up w his meds & its a good thing to not drive 8h (or w/e) to Vegas for a dentist appt

Thing is, they want me to return someone to them, that now can't be used on top of their keys, which the locks got changed apparently

... I'm liikkeee... Then why do it? Lol 🤣 like actually feeling like woah, I'm glad I'm not longer a child dealing w them

Holy shit! I'm free from that

this is BIG btw, like genuinely huge for outlining new programming for new chip architectures & far far more. This results in an much easier method for noise cancelation at much higher real time speeds that give us near femtoseconds, with good skill & effort that is. Better chip architecture & this will give us that immediately. Which means superposititional things don't need to be standard superpositional qbits anymore, combined with that other post on here about using different electrodynamics in programming, we can gain more than terrahertz in the next fab if we were to hurry on this. Not easily a thing, hurrying though lol. So I feel like maybe within to just past a decade we could maybe have this at a 3d chip level going hard with tiny interconnected qbit systems using leveraged thermal movement & inductive forces controlling smaller areas of potential light emittance to get dumped into controlling total heat flux zones in given ways that allow for us to use this for those real time non superconducting superpositional states for regular everyday use. Just like I thought about a few years ago, looks like we cooking dudes.

Glad to have helped in the ways I did.