Multitudes of Thoughts

I think this is the only platform that I can rely on bursting out my emotions.

trauma, a trauma of being just someone they can rely on when they needed, but in reality they just wanted to heal. Like, you should've just get away from me back then lol. I HATE PEOPLE LIKE YOU! I HATE YOU!!!! I HATE YOU ALL, AND I WILL NEVER LOOK AT YOU AGAIN! maybe my words are subtle, but ok. idc.

Some people just needed you for a brief moment, then they'll leave. I always experience it alway.

I thought I'll be able to withstand this sadness, I guess I thought wrong.

I showed to much feelings, people need to hide themselves to be discovered. That's what I'll do now.

I guess this is the only safe place to be.

I feel lonely, not because of being alone but because you're not here. You're not here for me, even virtually you're too far away from my heart.

Hmm. These days, I feel you here beside me, I don't know why but I have to resist this until I can be profitable for myself too.

I want her to see how beautiful the world is with me. And, absolutely, I want to see the the aesthetics of this world with her.

building the very craft of yourself, then ends up being destroyed is the most oddly satisfying thing. not because of the destruction, but because you know that there will be a comeback some day.