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That’s a great way to look at it, and I love this artist! (Anna-Laura: instagram / website)

Movement nudge! The movements you do now will be a treat for future you. So nudging you to get up and move!

my problem is if i enjoy something enough i will be nitpicking. i Will have things to say about where and how it failed. out of nothing but love straight from my heart. unfortunately this often makes me indistinguishable from a hater who has never experienced joy or kindness. such is the amateur critic's burden.

all of my favourite things are like beautiful racehorses that trip over their own feet a hundred times. but they get back up again. and goddamn, you should see them run.

"the great laws" of the vampires that are used as the formal legal justification the paris coven uses for their lynching literally have a clause about not turning disabled people or people who need care into vampires. the trial script literally calls claudia a "cripple" and the entire alleged justification for why a 14-year-old black child should've been left to die from her injuries in a race riot, why her entire existence past the age of 14 is supposed to be a "mistake" that needs correcting, is bc saving her life would mean she'd have a stunted child's body and her body would cause her anguish, which can be read as an allegory for people who survive serious physical trauma having permanent disabilities. and despite all that it's still underlined that claudia was a greater vampire than either louis or lestat or any member of the paris kkkoven, that she wasn't a mistake and she wasn't inherently doomed or fated to kill herself. she's literally kidnapped in s2ep6 when she's on the precipice of true freedom and happiness and self-actualization, finally living a life separate from her adopted parents, ready to travel the world with her chosen partner. but bc she's a black woman in a black child's body and seen as unfit to live by vampire society for being a "cripple", bc she stepped ~out of line~ and transgressed normative racist hierarchies and hierarchies of vampiric power by (almost) killing her white maker, bc she broke every cycle of abuse she was born or adopted into and freed herself, she's tortured, publicly humiliated and murdered before she reaches age 50. i know claudia is based on anne's daughter who died of cancer and narratively speaking she was always "meant to die"- but from an in-universe pov, from the logic of the story she inhabits and how her character is written on the show, there's nothing destined or doomed or inevitable about claudia's death. the fact that she dared to survive past age 14 despite the limits of her body isn't an inherent tragedy, and the fact that she didn't survive past age 46 wasn't mercy. claudia's murdered, brutally and unjustly, and her life is cut short bc of the intersection of violent misogynoir and ableism that's taken the lives of so many other black women before their time

you ever try to read a book and it's like. damn they really just let anybody write these.

I always know its getting toasty out in the world because girls start reblogging this post like crazy

[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame