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and give and give

and the world doesn't even

give a shit,"

You gave up on me even when I never gave up on you.

And it absolutely broke my heart.

It tore me down lower than I'd ever been before.

You hurt me more than anything or anyone has.

In a couple of weeks, you were head over heels over someone new.

In a couple of months, I was still screaming at the sky, begging for my pathetic heart to be whole again and to just feel "okay" for the first time in months.

Everything you said to me became a lie because you were saying the same things to someone else.

I've tried to understand why this happened, why you chose to end things the way you did, but I guess that's one thing that never ends up clear when it's all over.

Some things will always just linger in the backs of our minds saying

why?

but when I do

it is a deep, genuine love

that never ends

even after everyone else's has

people want me around

when they want things

not because

they just want

to love me

For her

For them

I try and try

But I still feel like this

And I'm the one that's alone

but always

alone