#2am thoughts

Wake

How do you mourn someone who isn’t dead?

How can I ever explain the feeling to someone?

I think the debt was more than paid.

In blood, sweat, tears, cash, scars, pain.

All I had to give I gave.

Yet still you cling onto me. Why?

I’ve done my best, maybe it wasn’t you, but I who saved a life.

I don’t want to hear about you or from you.

I don’t want to know anything at all, if you’re dead or alive.

I don’t even think I’d be relieved, you still breathe and I still cry.

I don’t want to be around for if a day comes where there are news that you have died.

I don’t want to know the details.

I don’t even want to know the, ‘whys.’

Nobody deserves to tell me, none of them deserve to cry.

Fuck all of them, and fuck you too.

this is the kind of sadness that only 2 AM brings. the world is quiet, but my mind isn't. unanswered questions, endless what-ifs, plans that never happened, regrets, and so much self-loathing.

and I went out

and I looked at wikis and at articles and at microlabels

and ho ho didn’t I find microlabels and I WILL present to you them here we go FIRST:

CONDIGENDER

isn’t is beautiful

anyone here you have a link

yep beautiful from a wiki and you can see the flag there so basically. A condigender person’s gender identify changes depending on whom they are with.

hihihihihi isn’t it beautiful

anyways after that I looked through asexual microlabels which was kinda easy I sort of opened the first article i found and found a chart.

There you go a link

And a link

Anyhow here we go a microlabel

PLACIOSEXUALITY

basically, the person who placiosexual will be okay with giving in sexual acts but won’t be okay with receiving

yeiii

I view my placiosexuality as being something like a gender neutral asexual who is also a service top

I guess

also micro labels normally are a way of achieving internal piece of finding a map or a blueprint for yourself, so sometimes it’s easier to use other terms to explain your microlabel to other people.

anyway next micro wo hooo

novoromantic

It’s cool

so I basically started looking into genderfluid microlabels and found something totally different I stumbled upon the genderfluid fragment gender system and here you go a link

it had a lot of microlabels and explanations on them! May help someone.

so I kept looking into specifically romantic and sexual attraction that is fluid but isn’t really abrosexuality and I found

novoromantic label

so basically the romantic (& sexual) attraction changes with the gender. it’s perfect

anyway I felt like this whole links and like things would help someone out there if they needed to look into microlabels

I’m also sort of coming out to the tumblr I guess

lol

To be loved

To be cherished

To be chosen

To not be the one to always get left behind

To not be the one to have a fun short time with