Looking back,
I should have died right there and then
In your arms,
For the first time content.
We were
Love incarnate, and
Love is the only argument
Why
I should not have died right there and then.
There,
In your arms,
For that while under heaven's
Luckiest stars,
Tracing back the years,
I realize,
It was the only time in my life
Lived in the complete absence
Of the search, the questioning, the flight
Toward, but without ever
Finding,
Hiding places.
All these jarring desires
Simply were
Non-existent.
Does it sound miserly, now?
Certainly when compared to our love, then,
It must.
Yet since you left, the chasing
Recommenced,
And, so,
The deterioration,
The derangement;
The hunt for my troubled soul, until death.
There is
So little left of me, now,
I crave an end —
Another jarring desire,
Haunting; whispering maddening guarantees
Of lasting
Contentment.
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17-12-2025, M.A. Tempels ©