and what excellent boiled potatoes!

anyone else ever think about how "the man who would be king" is framed as castiel's prayer to his father for a sign as to whether or not he's on the right path, and it ends with him defeated, thinking that there is no sign. but that sign. was literally dean. he tells cas at the end of the episode that he isn't going to "logic" him with reasons about why opening purgatory is a bad idea, and instead asks cas to stop, "just cause." he demands that cas have faith in his judgement the same way god asks for blind faith. and that. that was cas' sign.

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remember when. cas was human and lost and angry at dean but mostly hurt. but as soon as he saw dean strut up to the counter at the gas n sip it was like real sunlight was cutting through the fluorescent lights overhead

like yeah he put the mask back on but his first reaction, his expression on seeing dean was like his heart had stopped for a second. cas had felt before, of course, but now he was feeling his longing in a human kind of rawness and it shows on his face before he can catch himself

castiel girlgogames.com love calculator puts in his and deans names (Castiel Angel Of The Lord (as much as will fit before the text limit cuts him off at least) and Dean Winchester respectfully) and when the love calculator gives him "3%! Better Luck Next Time! Try again?" he blows up the computer. whether or not that was intentional is up for debate. sam goes to research a case at some later point and goes What the. Dude why is my computer in like a million pieces. nobody answers him

if you want know why destiel makes people so insane, it really is the everything of it all. the “what the hell is this new guy doing” to “working with him is like a high” pipeline of it all. the three episodes to three seasons to 12 years of the gay angel fighting the showrunners to exist. the public-facing homophobic denial and the on set gay jokes. changing multiple scenes because they were too on the nose about it. “I should just suck his cock.” “You’re my baby daddy.” “I didn’t play him that way.” “Oh they’ll definitely read into this.” “There’s a reason the story skewed the way it did.” “I never thought they would actually let us do it, but I left the window open.” 12 years of shining the gay bat symbol just to turn around and say “don’t ruin it for everyone” when someone dares to point out said massive fucking gay light in the sky. And one writer says “give me this explicity queer scene or I walk” and who knows how grueling that script was to get approved. And who knows what acting choices were left on the editing room floor or confined to jensen ackles’ phone. destiel is in the details, and it’s in the text, and it was in everyone’s minds the whole time even when it was just something you shut down and crossed out and sneered at until it’s five years after the show ended and we still talk about it nonstop. It’s almost five years since Castiel died for his love for a man (a character, an actor, a show, a society) who was already buried beneath the weight of an inability to see queerness as anything but a dirty joke and a weakness. Destiel was seen as a liability to the reputation of an otherwise average genre show, and now it’s supernatural’s greatest legacy.

Everyone you love dies. So you fall in love with someone who is super strong and is extremely hard to kill. And then he proceeds to die a dozen times in front of you.