i dwell in possibility

I don’t have kids

I don’t spend money on nicotine

I don’t gamble my money away on sports

I’m not reliant on a chat bot for all my life functions

- it’s fun to be awake & in an upright position

- consciousness is a gift

tlo is seriously everything to me

percy defends annabeth, wants to turn hermes' anger away from her without a clue about what the source of conflict is, and given it's about luke it definitely would've been a point of contention between the two of them in any other situation too. but all he sees is a friend being threatened and so he's instantly on guard.

then later when he comforts her there's annabeth who kinda does feel like it's her fault and percy who is adamant it isn’t even if they haven’t been on the best terms.

(and annabeth looking at the hearth like it’s her pyre. the hearth where hope survives best. the hearth that represents family and friends. and it’s death don’t even get me started on this)

but the part that is so interesting is when he expresses doubt. he’s always accepted annabeth’s plans and insight, has always trusted her wholly. but now it’s been a year of them being on eggshells around each other and yes they’re best friends, but there’s so much secrecy and doubt between them. now everything is coming to a head so there really isn’t the time to process what they haven’t said to each other.

him not knowing how to comfort her either while a younger percy in som was able to hug and comfort her with some mild (LOL) discomfort, but now even after making her a representation of his mortality things are still so confusing. they’ve been so out of sync but also they’re never not on the same wavelength and it’s just so ???

but regardless of it all, it’s interesting to see how percy’s first instinct is to defend his friends and his family no matter what happened in the past