yahaha u found me

#tbh i think the intense stigma against “straight” ppl “fetishizing” queerness keeps a lot of ppl in the closet

#theres no harm in exploring those feelings in private. indulge in the fantasy and see where it takes u

#dont be a creep to other ppl obv but that goes w/o saying #if id had the courage to confront the ache id feel when i thought abt lesbian sex and how id “never be able to have it” earlier

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Guess which infamous nightcore song I was listening to while drawing this

I was playing rn9 for the second time recently and I started noticing a lot more things then i was able to during my first playthrough. Something that immediately stuck out to me is their interaction after Daichi has to give him a blowjob in the third task. Seiji is described as going immediately back to his normal self like he's used to this, even though this is supposed to be only the second time he's gone through this.

When i first played rn9 I thought this was just him slowly getting used to the torture but I think it's too early on for this to be the case, considering he didn't act much differently the first time this happened. We know that Daichi's torture in the game is getting physically tortured and his ability to shrug it off so easily is because he was violently abused as a child. The game makes it pretty obvious that his torture method is supposed to be very personal to him. So why is Seiji sexually tortured then? I think it's way more then "reserved rich boy gets humiliated." That explanation doesn't make sense for how many breadcrumbs they give us that would be hinting at absolutely nothing otherwise. Seijis backstory is very mysterious to the player due to the fact we play from Daichi's perspective, and he keeps himself very secretive to Daichi. There seems to be a lot of shame from Seiji considering how he isn't open about many of his issues or emotions. He is implied to at least have SOME family issues Daichi doesn't know about.