jace/maia; you took off your shoes, said anything further would be bad news, 'cause you'd already started to disappear.
By now, Jace knows when theyâre coming. At first it had been harder to tell, especially since heâd been so trained to push past mild discomforts. But itâs happened enough that he began to recognize the signs: first the room gets too crisp and bright, like heâd activated his vision rune without meaning to. He did that sometimes now. But next was the wave of nausea, and that was when he knew for sure that he had to get the hell out of wherever he was. Soon after that heâd be on his knees, nerves shredded with pain that had no source, just a black hole opening somewhere inside him.
âWhatâs up with you?â
Maia speaks in that way she has that hard and disinterested but somehow expectant, like he better answer honestly or else. âYouâre off lately.â
Theyâre combing the streets for the demons that had emerged from a newly-opened rift, Shadowhunters and Downworlders paired off in a half-assed team-building exercise. Jace didnât expect to find any demons. It would be a miracle if no one ended the night tearing their âpartnerâ to pieces.Â
Jaceâs own voice is bland when he replies, âGee, I didnât know you cared.â
His jaw is already clenching, because he can feel it. His vision is sharp enough to be disorienting.Â
âCasually noticing and actively caring are not the same thing,â she says. Then thereâs a spike of surprise. âHey, are you ââ
Even though he knew it was coming, Jace still does not expect the sudden roiling of his stomach. He stumbles, already, too early, too fast. âFine,â he cuts her off, jaw tight. âYou should take the night off. Find Simon, or something. I can finish the route myself. Itâs ââ
Again his feet forget themselves and Jace finds himself grabbing for whatever is nearest to stay steady, which in this case is Maiaâs wrist. Her brow furrows and she grabs for his other arm, but she does not appear impressed. âJace. What the fuck.â
âIâm sick,â he tries. âIâll go back to the Institute.â
Maia watches him critically. âMy place is closer.â
Jace disengages, letting his back slouch against the nearest storefront heavily, glass window chilly even though his jacket. He raises an eyebrow. (Against his will, he shakes.)
Maia rolls her eyes, shakes her head. âGod forbid you keel over while weâre on patrol. Your grandmother will probably put me in a more permanent glass box.â She puts her hands on her hips. âCan you walk?â
âYour bedside manner leaves a lot to be desired,â he tells her, but heâs not sure that he can until he does.
Her place is close, only one block up and one block over. The stairs prove to be a problem but she hooks an arm under his and hauls him along with more strength than he has without a rune to boost it. He takes in glimpses â gray walls, cracked floors â before sheâs unlocking her door and depositing him on a teal velvet armchair, the kind thatâs more cool than comfortable. Jace is bent so far his foreheadâs on his knees, his knuckles white as he shudders through a spasm. When it ends he unfolds, slumps back into the chair and breathes like heâd been punched in the stomach. The break is a relief, but he knows itâs not over yet.
Maia is staring at him but Jace avoids her eyes, feeling caught and stupid for not having evaded it better.
âIâll be fine in a little bit,â he says. It never lasts longer than fifteen minutes, twenty.
Maia looks at him, lips this side of pursed, and then she says, âOkay. Water?â
Jace is surprised she doesnât ask him anything else. âYeah. Thatâd be nice.â