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for the ask game: top 5 iconic lines from QL series! (from velvetxviolet)
@velvetxviolet hi and thank youuuu! this was very fun to ponder, and picking only 5 was very hard! I tried to focus on lines, rather than moments (if I hadn’t, my list would probably be quite different) and also on the iconic part (so not just my favourite lines or the best, but some that are snappy/catchy/memorable). I also focused on Thai QLs to narrow my choices. Now, keeping the best for last and so my personal winner for the end:
Number 2: "Isn’t it difficult enough to be born poor? And now you’re gay?" Uncle Jim, Moonlight Chicken.
Out of context, a very funny line that would be iconic for its sheer memeability alone. Within the context of the show, a heartbreaking glimpse into Jim’s fears, wounds, and frustrations with his lot in life. Its clumsiness is, for me, part of the appeal: Jim is not a particularly eloquent man in general, and here he is panicking, worried that his nephew will share the same fate as him, and that it is Jim's fault because he couldn’t set the proper example for him. It’s a gutting moment! but also simply a really funny line. Iconic for sure, and Moonlight Chicken is an excellent show: if you haven't seen it yet, go for it.
Number 3: "'Gorgeous man with clear skin found dead in a crop-top.' My dad will recognize me right away." Style, The Heart Killers.
I know for a fact that multiple people watched the show after seeing that line out of context. If that's not iconic I don't know what is.
Number 4: "Is killing people a gender-specific task?" Mae, 3 Will Be Free.
On a superficial level, I find delightful that we’re using a girlboss clapback to justify a little revenge killing. Women can do anything, even murder! Mae’s exasperation at Ter’s chivalry/machismo, here, is quite funny and very real, but also a good example of what make their strange dynamic compelling. But I also think there are layers to putting that quote in Mae's mouth. To the fact that Ter is, specifically, being chivalrous toward a trans woman, and that she's having none of it. And I do really like how this show explores violence and gender. Despite (or maybe in part through) its love of Girl Power posturing, the way 3 Will Be Free deals with feminist issues is my favourite out of every Thai shows (and many non-Thai ones as well) I've watched, and this quote is just a cheeky example of it. I cannot recommend this show enough.
Number 5: "I'm your pet aren't I? And I'm hungry now. And you walked out! So I had to come find my owner." Pete, Kinnporsche.
Sorry about that one, I'm aware it stretches the definition of "line" a little bit, but I simply had to mention it. Kinnporsche happened to be my very first Thai QL, and though I don't know that I would recommend it (it's complicated there's nuance etc) it definitely rearranged some wiring in my brain. As I've said before there is something to characters lowering themselves (like say, calling themselves their ex-tormentor's pet) in an act of defiance/self-actualisation that is entirely insanity inducing to me. Pete here is desesperate and panicking, but he's also openly angry, and making demands for the first time in a long time, and its... idk. The wording can make one cringe the way witnessing two people's kink that you don't share can make one cringe, but the scene had me holding my breath. You have to sit with the discomfort (no, these two people "should" not be in love) for the scene to work, you have to accept the premise, but if you do it's an incredibly rewarding climax to their arc, and something rather unique that feels like it really belong to these characters, and that moment. And like, I do believe it changed the game a little, and helped open the way for more risky, ambiguous romances in Thai QLs! Kinnporsche the series adapted a work that, from what I read of it, was interested in its characters first and foremost as vehicles for sexy moments (not trying to throw shade: there's a long, long tradition of these type of works) and then found itself having to make an audience believe in their love. I would argue it pulls it off, here. Iconic To Me!
AND OUR NUMBER ONE, OUR UNCONTESTED WINNER:
"Pull out your untamed weapon, and thrust it in my 9th hole," Chonlatee, Tonhon Chonlatee.
I'm not sorry for that one. Some are born great, some become great, and some have greatness thrust in their ninth hole.
Make him smile.
Here is some quick historical context for Episode 5: What was really going on during the 150th-anniversary celebrations of Bangkok and the Chakri Dynasty¹?
1. The revolution’s original window of opportunity was the Chakri Dynasty's 150th anniversary.
On April 6, 1932, major celebrations (including the opening of the Memorial Bridge) concentrated Thailand's political and military elite in Bangkok. The Khana Ratsadon anticipated this milestone would be the symbolic moment for King Prajadhipok to voluntarily grant a constitution. The tragic irony is that the King had actually been drafting constitutional reforms with his advisers, but senior princes on the Supreme Council opposed and ultimately shelved the plan. This failure was the turning point, proving to the conspirators that top-down reform was impossible.
Phob and Tin's heated arguments are basically different diagnoses of the same crisis. It’s the ultimate ideological clash, and honestly, it’s the exact same debate historians have been going back and forth on for decades.
Captain Phobthee’s position perfectly channels the real-world frustration of the Khana Ratsadon: the absolute monarchy and its aristocratic bureaucracy were simply too slow and conservative to adapt. As the Great Depression triggered an economic crisis, everyday people suffered while the elite protected their own, and empty promises of reform led nowhere. To Phobthee, the system itself was the problem.
On the flip side, Prince Tin’s defense is anchored in a genuine historical perspective. He argues that the king, princes, and ministers were anything but indifferent. They sincerely believed they were doing everything possible to rescue the nation from a historic catastrophe. From the vantage point of the palace, the situation wasn’t a matter of simple negligence. It was a nightmare of impossible trade-offs.
Now, as I mentioned, King Prajadhipok was indeed trying to implement reforms, but the history here is deeply nuanced. He is generally regarded by historians as one of the more progressive, reform-minded Chakri monarchs. Prior to 1932, he had actively discussed the possibility of a constitution, established committees to study constitutional government, and considered expanding political participation, fully recognizing that the absolute monarchy could not last forever. However, he firmly believed that change should be gradual rather than revolutionary.
Was he blocked by conservative princes?
To a significant extent, yes. The government wasn't a monolithic entity controlled solely by "the king." It was dominated by senior princes and aristocrats who had amassed enormous authority under previous reigns. Many of these elites harbored deep-seated fears: that a constitutional government would weaken the Crown, that inexperienced politicians would breed instability, and that rapid democratization would threaten national unity. Consequently, reforms frequently stalled due to a lack of consensus within the royal elite. That said, I am not painting Rama VII as a reformer who was merely "held hostage" by reactionary nobles. He was himself inherently cautious and occasionally hesitant. While he envisioned change, he simultaneously sought to preserve as much of the traditional order as possible. By the time meaningful reform was actually on the table, a younger generation of military officers and civilians had simply run out of patience.
So where lies the "core problem"?
The show is actually giving us two historically defensible takes. The captain sees a systemic failure caused by an elite class dragging its feet on reform. The prince sees an administration doing its best against an inescapable economic collapse, arguing that reform is always harder from the inside. Most modern historians would tell you that both are right. The Great Depression wrecked Siam's export economy, forcing drastic budget cuts and immense hardship. The monarchy was actively trying to manage a brutal fiscal crisis, but the agonizingly slow pace of reform completely alienated a new generation of educated military officers and civil servants. This is why the People's Party met so little resistance in June 1932. By that point, confidence in the monarchy had already evaporated.
Getting back to the plan: why didn't they strike during the celebration?
Contrary to what the series implies, there isn't strong evidence that the People's Party set April 6th as the definitive "revolution day" only to postpone it. Instead, they held off for a few highly practical reasons. For one, their organization was still expanding and actively recruiting reliable military officers. The military wing, spearheaded by officers like Phraya Phahon, Phraya Songsuradet, and the young artillery officer Plaek Phibunsongkhram (later Field Marshal Phibun), needed tighter coordination. They wanted to secure enough support within key army and navy units to ensure the coup would be virtually bloodless. Because of this, most historians view April through June 1932 not as a delayed launch, but as a period of crucial final preparation.
By late April, King Prajadhipok had left for Klai Kangwon Palace in Hua Hin², which left Prince Paribatra, the most influential prince in the administration, holding the reins in Bangkok. The King’s absence from the capital gave the People's Party a major strategic edge: it drastically reduced the chances of violence breaking out around the King himself. The revolutionaries had no desire to kill or overthrow the monarch. Their entire strategy relied on forcing him to sign off on a constitutional monarchy, rather than ending the monarchy entirely.
2. If the revolution was going to work, Bangkok had to fall before the royalists could mount a resistance.
Everything depended on lightning speed: locking down military headquarters, cutting off communications, taking the Royal Plaza, and rounding up senior princes. With the King away and unable to personally take charge, the royal government's reaction was hopelessly sluggish.
3. This gave the revolutionaries massive leverage at the bargaining table.
With Bangkok firmly in their grip, the conspirators sent word to the King in Hua Hin, demanding his consent to a constitutional system. King Prajadhipok considered fighting back, but he ultimately ruled out a civil war, stating he refused to keep a throne "besmirched by blood." He chose to return peacefully, officially agreeing to become a constitutional monarch.
The revolution also benefited from a massive stroke of luck: ironically, the coup almost collapsed before it even started. On 23 June, the police caught wind of the plot and asked Prince Paribatra for approval to arrest the conspirators. Paribatra hesitated and postponed the arrest order until the next morning, partly because the suspect list contained so many prominent, well-respected officers. That delay handed the People's Party the exact window they needed to strike first. Historians generally consider that hesitation one of the most decisive blunders of the entire revolution.
NOTES:
¹The Chakri dynasty (or the House of Chakri) is the current reigning royal family of Thailand, headed by the King as head of state. The family has ruled the nation since 1782, a reign launched at the end of King Taksin's era, when the capital of Siam shifted to Bangkok and established the Rattanakosin Kingdom.
²On the morning of 24 June 1932, King Prajadhipok wasn't at the Grand Palace in Bangkok. He was 200 kilometers south at Klai Kangwon Palace in Hua Hin. The seaside retreat, whose name ironically translates to "Far from Worries," had been built in the late 1920s as an escape from Bangkok's heat and politics.
But the Khana Ratsadon's goal was never to assassinate the King; they wanted to transition Siam from an absolute monarchy to a constitutional one with minimal bloodshed. The King’s physical isolation from the capital was a massive tactical gift. It meant the People's Party could lock down Bangkok before royalists had time to organize. They rounded up key princes and ministers, commandeered communications, and seized government buildings. If the King had been in Bangkok, loyalist troops would have rallied around him, turning the capital into a warzone.
Instead, the revolutionaries pulled off a cold, calculated sequence: secure Bangkok, detain the local establishment, broadcast their manifesto, and send a delegation to Hua Hin demanding a constitution. Harming the King would have turned the military and public against them. To avoid a bloody civil war, King Prajadhipok accepted, ending 150 years of absolute Chakri rule in a matter of days.
This is why that single intel drop was everything for Phob. The King's exact whereabouts unlocked the whole operation: Do we fight or negotiate? Can we take Bangkok cleanly? Knowing Rama VII was in Hua Hin meant the People's Party could take the capital first and dictate terms from a position of power. That tactical restraint is why 1932 is remembered as a largely bloodless coup. They eliminated the risk of civil war without firing a shot at the King.
For the revolutionaries, the stakes could not have been higher: failure meant losing their lives. But while the conspirators were risking everything on the outcome, what was the actual fallout for the Thai royal family after the 1932 revolution?
On 24 June 1932, a single pivotal uprising ended nearly seven centuries of absolute monarchy in Siam. Orchestrated by the People's Party, the revolution reshaped the kingdom into a constitutional monarchy. Contrary to popular belief, this was never about overthrowing the royal family or abolishing the crown. Instead, it was about stripping the monarchy of unchecked political authority and placing sovereign power under the law.
I. Royal titles remained intact
Importantly, the 1932 revolution didn't strip away royal or noble titles. The traditional royal hierarchy remained intact:
Chao Fa (เจ้าฟ้า): The highest royal rank.
Phra Ong Chao (พระองค์เจ้า): Middle-tier royal princes and princesses.
Mom Chao (หม่อมเจ้า / M.C.): The lowest rank that still counts as official royalty.
Mom Rajawongse (หม่อมราชวงศ์ / M.R.): Aristocratic descendants (nobility, though legally commoners).
Mom Luang (หม่อมหลวง / M.L.): The final aristocratic tier before titles drop entirely.
For example, a Mom Chao in 1935 was still titled His or Her Serene Highness, and royals maintained the deep social respect tied to their rank. More importantly, the monarchy itself didn't collapse. King Prajadhipok stayed on the throne after agreeing to the constitution, and when he abdicated in 1935, the crown passed seamlessly to his young nephew, Ananda Mahidol.
II. Political power changed dramatically
The core shift in 1932 was political, not social. Before the revolution, absolute monarchical rule meant that royal princes held nearly every major post in the kingdom:
Cabinet Ministers
Department Heads
Top Military Commanders
Regional Governors
Privy Councilors
In practice, the line between the royal family and the state was virtually non-existent. The nation’s key institutions were essentially run by princes.
The 1932 revolution shattered the idea that princes had an inherent right to govern. Under the new constitutional setup:
High offices were opened up beyond the royal circle.
Ministers became accountable to a constitutional government, not the King.
Real political power migrated to civilian bureaucrats and military strongmen.
Royal rank no longer guaranteed a seat at the table.
As a result, the old guard of royal statesmen was gradually pushed out. Royals who stayed active in diplomacy, education, or defense did so as appointed professionals rather than hereditary elites.
III. Did the royal family lose its wealth?
The truth is nuanced: the royal family didn't suddenly go broke, and many princes retained substantial personal wealth. They kept hold of their private assets, such as:
Private residences and landholdings
Inherited estates and investments
Personal heirlooms and jewelry
While private wealth was left intact, the revolution fundamentally restructured institutional finance by drawing a hard line between:
The monarch's personal property
Crown property (held for the institution itself)
General state property
This divide became official with the Crown Property Act of 1936, placing Crown assets under the new Crown Property Bureau rather than the King's personal discretion. Revenues that once poured straight into the royal treasury were suddenly slashed, restructured, or brought under state control.
IV. What happened to royal allowances?
Historically, many princes had depended on a mix of state and royal funding, including:
Palace stipends and court appointments
Government salaries and ceremonial offices
After 1932, those revenue streams evaporated quickly:
Royal stipends were dramatically slashed
Numerous court positions were eliminated
Government-funded ceremonial offices were abolished outright
As a result, several princes lost vital sources of income. While the royal family retained its formidable social prestige, individual members suddenly had to navigate a far tighter financial reality.
V. Did princes have to work?
Absolutely. One of the most noticeable post-1932 changes was seeing younger royals enter the standard workforce. They began forging careers based on talent and qualifications rather than royal lineage, becoming:
Diplomats and civil servants
Professors and doctors
Engineers and lawyers
Businessmen and career military officers
Birthright no longer guaranteed a high-level post. They had to build actual professional qualifications like everyone else.
VI. What happened to royal estates?
The financial impact varied from family to family. Some managed to keep hold of key assets:
Palaces and urban Bangkok residences
Vast agricultural land and inherited estates
Others gradually unloaded real estate as upkeep became too expensive on slashed royal incomes. Over the following decades, former royal palaces were:
Sold off
Repurposed as government buildings
Turned into museums
Subdivided for new developments
VII. Social prestige remained
The revolution stripped away the monarchy's political authority, but its social prestige remained largely intact. Royals continued to:
Hold top ceremonial precedence
Command massive public respect
Intermarry with elite families
Patronize major religious and charitable institutions
Remain highly influential societal figures
Even at the baseline level of royal rank, a Mom Chao was still treated with immense respect and deference.
VIII. The monarchy under constitutional rule
The 1932 revolution transformed the king into a constitutional monarch. On paper, executive authority belonged solely to the cabinet and parliament. In reality, the crown continued to exert soft power through:
Moral authority and cultural reverence
Religious legitimacy as the head of the Buddhist faith
Deeply rooted patronage networks
Strategic alliances with the military and bureaucracy
Unrivaled symbolic status
Over the following decades, the real balance of power between the throne and elected officials rose and fell with every political crisis.
IX. The restoration of royal prestige
During the late 1930s and 1940s, the monarchy maintained a relatively low public profile. Beginning in the late 1950s, however, military regimes (most notably under Sarit Thanarat) deliberately revived and elevated the crown as the ultimate symbol of national identity and political legitimacy. Under King Bhumibol Adulyadej (reigned 1946–2016), royal prestige grew exponentially through hands-on development projects, tireless provincial tours, religious stewardship, and strategic state promotion. While executive power remained constitutionally bound to the government, the monarchy re-emerged as the most revered and formidable institution in modern Thailand.
X. Would Tin have lost his job?
Had Tin served as the King's Principal Private Secretary (or in a similar administrative role handling royal correspondence and appointments) he likely retained his post. The crown survived 1932, and the monarch still required a running household. But if Tin held a government position solely due to royal favor under the absolute monarchy, that role was either eliminated or completely transformed. Many palace officials went through this exact transition: they kept their royal titles and personal loyalty to the King, but they no longer wielded actual government authority.
XI. One historical irony
One of the great ironies of modern Thai history is that while the People's Party fought in 1932 to permanently reduce the monarchy to a ceremonial role, the long-term result was entirely different. In the short term, they achieved their goal: the crown lost its absolute power, princes vanished from government ranks, and the revolutionaries held the reins of state. Yet in the decades that followed (especially after World War II and under the military regimes of the late 1950s onward) the monarchy staged a remarkable comeback. Military rulers quickly realized that the crown was an irreplaceable source of national unity and political legitimacy, and they actively elevated its public profile. By the reign of King Bhumibol, the monarchy had reclaimed immense prestige and moral authority, even within a constitutional framework.
Ultimately, the very institution the 1932 revolutionaries sought to sideline transformed into one of the most revered and symbolically powerful forces in modern Thailand. While the revolution permanently dismantled absolute monarchy, it never erased the crown's central role in Thai public life, an ironic twist that few of the People's Party leaders could have ever anticipated.
Another bitter irony is that the People's Party eventually lost control of its own revolution. By the late 1940s, military factions had completely eclipsed the movement's civilian wing, leaving many of its founders sidelined, imprisoned, exiled, or forced out of public life entirely. While the constitutional system they built survived, political power routinely flowed to military dictatorships rather than the parliamentary democracy many had envisioned. That legacy shapes the modern state: today, Thailand enforces one of the world's strictest lèse-majesté laws under Section 112 of the Criminal Code, criminalizing any defamation, insult, or threat against the king, queen, heir apparent, or regent. As a result, open dialogue regarding the crown is subject to limits rarely seen in other constitutional monarchies.

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why are people reblogging this again
this post is like 11 years old
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what gym is aou going to that lets you workout with cats… asking for myself 👀
Suddenly struck with a need to explain to you how boat pronouns work (I work in the marine industry).
When you're talking about the design of the boat, you say "it".
When the boat is still being built, your say "it".
When the boat is nearing completion, you can say "it" or "she".
When the boat is floating in the water you probably say "she", unless there is still a lot of work to be done (e.g. no engine yet) then you say "it".
When the boat is officially launched and operating, you say "she". If you continue to say "it" at this point you are not incorrect but suspiciously untraditional. You are not playing the game.
If you are referring to a boat you don't really know anything about you may say "it" ("there's a big boat, it's coming this way"). But if you know its name, it's probably "she" ("there's the Waverley, she's on her way to Greenock").
If you are talking about boats in general, you say "it" ("when a boat is hit by a wave it heels over")
If you speak about a boat in complimentary terms, it's "she" ("she's a grand boat"). If you are being disparaging it may be it, but not necessarily ("it's as ugly as sin", "she's a grotty old tub").
If she has a boy's name, she's still she. "Boy James", "King Edward", "Sir David Attenborough"? The pronoun is she.
If it's a dumb barge (no engine), you say it. But if it's a rowing boat (no engine), you say she.
I hope this has cleared things up so that you may not be in danger of misgendering floating objects.
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2026 Mid-year QL Check-in
Got tagged by lovely @mikuni14 promptly forgot but here it is!
(BLs currently watching that aren't finished = not in the running.)
1.Number of QLs you've watched so far:
55 watched to completion
7 never tracked down or MIA
9 DNFs
10 didn't bothers
24 currently airing
2.Best QLs you've watched in 2026 so far:
Fake Fact Lips
Life in Smokey Blue
Love Upon a Time
Me and Thee
3. QLs that you want to watch but haven't gotten around to yet:
Crazy Love Moo-Moo
Flavor of Us (I guess it's just lost forever)
Ordinary Love
4.QLs that were the biggest disappointment for you:
Awakening the Steppe
Reloved
The Love Never Sets
Sweet Blood
5. Most anticipated QLs for the second half of the year:
Nour (just added based of killer trailer)
Popular Serizawa Acts Weird Around Me (high schoolJBL is my weakness)
Connecting to You (Taiwan my love!)
Ao to Midori (Japan does We Best Love)
You Maniac (WilliamEst obvs)
20 Lists (gentle version of Dangerous Romance)
Unknown Lover (ThomasKong obvs)
No. 1 Student
Friend Benefit
Twenty One (JuniorMark obvs)
To the Far Blue
The Crow Club (SailubPon obvs)
The Grim Lover (PavelPooh obvs)
Police in Love
My Secret Boyfriends
Lovers & Gangsters
Billionaire Biker (AouBoom obvs)
GMMTV 2026 Line Up - My Totally Biased & Wildly Flawed Feels
DMD Line Up 2026 Tier List (and thoughts)
6. Biggest surprise/favorite new actor (debut or new to you):
Love Upon a Time (Thailand) - This show used established reincarnation to neatly solved for many flaws in both time travel and historical series.
Half of Me (Korea) - A classy little vertical (I can't believe I typed those words either) about a office lacky who suddenly finds himself spending his nights working and his days in the body of a high school student whose teacher is his first love. A little mystery unfolds along with a second chance at love. A cute fun reunion romance with a magical realism twist. I recommended it. (No I didn't think I'd ever type those words about a vertical either).
And it's not on the spreadsheet because I can't really condone that nonsense but there have been 2 AI BLs out of Korea on YT that I really genuinely enjoyed. One made me cry. AI!
7. Newest fictional crush:
Ju Tae Seon in The Prosecutor's Office's Proposal is my 2026 spirit animal. But I'm supposed to be picking from COMPLETED shows only so...
North from the Fourever You series. Not that kind of crush tho. I just think he is a GREAT character.
I don't really get fictional crushes in that way.
8. Favorite QL that made you happy:
Me and Thee
9. Favorite QL that made you cry:
Private Galaxy
Love After Addiction
Beside the Sky (Fourever You)
10. What QLs do you need to watch by the end of the year?
That depends on what actually airs and how good it is.
Need is a relative term.
Such pretty behind the scenes pics of his cover with Lula
The tear kissing shot was great, but tbh I think I like this one more:
There's so much intensity here on multiple levels. Jay is gazing at Sun with such fierce focus, hand wrapped around Sun's neck in possessive dominance. He needs to see the effect this is having on Sun. To see his tears. And Sun is completely lost in sub space. This is exactly what he's wanted and denied himself for so long. To submit completely to someone he has a powerful connection with. To finally let go, put himself in that person's hands. And, however unhealthy irl this is, he needed Jay to break down not just his walls, but his will, so he could let himself have this. Now he's finally getting what he wants. His sadistic Dom is on top of him, inside him, eliciting tears from the immense vulnerability submission has drawn out of him. He's never let himself go like this before, and it's everything he never truly knew he wanted.
tries to be smooth in front of your virtual crush/enemy
fails
almost dies
gets up and tries again
a story as told by three
*knock knock to those of us who are insane* are we going to talk about the parallel shots from the beginning and end of the recent payback episode.
the episode opens with a boy beaten and broken (possibly dead?) lying stomach down on a bed, naked, after having been clearly sexually used (and likely abused) by an uncaring tyrant. one who typically preys on younger men who need some kind of monetary help to find their footing in the big bad world of entertainment. formally known as A Sponsor. the episode opens to deathly actor and the man who caused it walking out.
and then to parallel this with sun and jay. jay who is also an older man that could be sun’s sponsor (that’s how it looks to the outside and what sun was initially after anyway). sun who was also stomach down, naked, on the bed looking sexually satisfied. but this time jay is leaning over him a look of absolute care and (dare i say) love in his eyes as he actively engages in those acts of pleasure with sun.
this juxtaposition between what different versions of power look like under the “same” umbrella.
this is so badly worded im sorry im sorry but do you get me?

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Ryo finally got his boy
Fake Fact Lips Ep. 9
PAYBACK THE SERIES (2026) I EP. 8 "I understand you. What do you want?"