mental illness wrapped! you ruminated for 30,090 minutes, had 191 intrusive thoughts, engaged in 10 rituals and had 13 depressive episodes!

im tired of everyday feeling like my brain and my chest is going to burst open from the sheer weight of everything. im tired of never being able to look over all the negative in my life no matter how much i want to. im tired of never being enough for anyone and i hate that ill never be her. i hate my body and my face and everything about me. if i was pretty enough nothing else would matter. if i was cool and mellow enough everything would be fine. if i fake it ill make it.

i broke up with the person who used to make me feel like this everyday ☝️

i have accepted that i will likely struggle w socialising and developing meaningful relationships for the rest of my life, but it doesn’t mean i’m not extremely sad about it and don’t wish things were different