your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for a graduate degree
#okay so when you start grad school they sit you down and they tell you that only 1 in 4 of you will actually become a professor#like not a tenure track professor (vanishingly rare) but just. a professor.#a person with a PhD who teaches at the collegiate level#and you think to yourself ‘wow I hope I’m that one’#and then you actually GET the fucking degree#you do all the course work#you talk all of your qualifying exams#you write the prospectus#you write the dissertation#and somewhere along the way you stop pitying the 75% because you realize#‘oh holy shit’#those people got out to save themselves#and THEN you realize that you too can save yourself#and to be clear I don’t mean that you HAVE to leave academia to do that#but if you choose academia then you have to choose it with your eyes open#you have to choose yourself with your eyes open#it can’t be a thing you’ll sacrifice yourself too#it’s just not worth it
