through me the universe will know itself

With the more fleshed out picture of Julien’s home life from the new ep is anybody else thinking about like. How Julien and Azune are both clearly struggling under the weight of their familial expectations (your life doesn’t belong to you. Thjazi’s life would’ve been worth a thousand of me.) but had completely different responses to it. How Azune bent himself to the absolute breaking point to be what Thjazi needed him to be to the extent that he’s grappling with his own sense of personhood, but Julien lashed out and rebelled against the mold his parents tried to shove him into with all his might to their frustration and disappointment. And that maybe stems from Azune having next to nothing as a child and needing to cling to what little he could call a family as hard as he could while Julien assumed that his well-off comfortable position as the scion of a vassal house would never come unmoored no matter what. But now they’re both equally completely adrift. Can anybody hear me

#what if we were both weapons of war I mean boys and we kissed#and also both of our sisters are in peril and we’re fucked up about it#idk just like!!! the potential of Julien asking Azune if he’s ever not done something someone told him to.#and its mean and condescending but also a little horny. you get me? hello?