I’m coming with a bit of a story time because I’ve just now started to realize how bad this was.
This post contains a lot of talk about transphobia and just general really bad stuff so if your not comfortable with that or it has a possibility of triggering something please don’t read, stay safe!
Now a year ago I had this friend, let’s call him Block because he really liked Lego blocks.
Now Block was a pretty like quiet kid, he didn’t really have any friends and such but it wasn’t like he was being bullied, he just didn’t wanna talk to anybody.
Now the thing was that he had two moms, which wasn’t bad and he didn’t get bullied because of it, it’s just important for this story.
Now I don’t exactly remember how I managed to befriend this dude but I did. So we started talking and hanging out a lot, along with another friend of mine I’ll call shadow because he really liked shadow from sonic.
Now it was a good year or so of us three just hanging out and being good friends, until some weird jokes started appearing. Now note here that I was publicly transgender, I had come out in front of my entire class with the help of teachers and such.
Suddenly Block started making weird jokes about transgender people being so sensitive and a bunch of those types of “oh you can’t even say merry Christmas anymore” things like that. Now at the time I thought nothing of it, because whenever I asked he said it was just his type of humor and I was pretty young and naive.
Now shadow started joining in on these jokes, refusing to call me a boy and saying stuff like “oh your a biological woman so I will call you a trans boy, not just a boy.”
Then Block started acting like I was a ticking time bomb, mind you I never talked about being transgender unless it was bought up so I didn’t know where he got this from, like if I was talking to somebody that could be curious about trans people and then he would go “oh you shouldn’t say that to a trans person they will get mad” even if it was completely normal and non offensive questions.
He also started mocking me when Shadow would misgender me and I would stand up for myself, when that happend Block would just say “did you just assume my gender” to make fun of me when I stood up for myself.
Then he once said to me, like dead ass- “I hate when people assume I’m not homophobic just because I have two moms”
Like- dude it makes sense that people probably thinks you don’t mind gay people when your parents are lesbians and your best friend is transgender. And reminder he knew I was transgender so he was admitting he didn’t like lgbtq infront of me and expected me to agree.
Another time I say innocently “happy pride month” to one of my friends that had recently come out as bi. And he went “yeah when is it straight month, you dont desvere a month for kissing dudes”
It got so bad to the point where he walked up to me once when I was drawing once and this is what happend.
“I don’t like that flag” he said and then pointed to a transgender flag on my drawing. At this point I had given up and just went “okay?”. He then raised his hands in surrender as if I had just shouted at him and went. “I didnt say anything about the meaning of the flag I just said I didn’t like it” he said with such a smirk as if he had just tricked me in some insane way.
When I would speak about women’s or transgender or general lgbtq peoples struggle he would mock me and deny it.
I once talked about the man or bear hypothetical and while I said actual evidence and statistics, he just called women idiots and that he hoped they were eaten.
I once talked about death threats towards furries and other minorities online and he just said he thought that it was so funny and that he loved those sorts of comments.
He often would interrupt my conversations with others to tell me “there is only two genders in my opinion” just completely unprovoked and normally he was never part of the conversation and it was never the topic of it. Like he once interrupted me in the middle of my sentence while talking about Minecraft with another dude and said “there is only two genders, that’s just what I think”
And whenever I would try to point it out he would call me sensitive and so would Shadow and he would mock me and act like he was completely innocent while I was being unreasonable.
I’ve finally stopped talking to him but he is still in my class and even if i have a totally new friend group he always approaches me to say something terrible about transgender people.
And I just can’t get rid of him.
Like he will ask competently inn appropriate questions about my friends. Once asking about if my friend still c*t themselves and who in my friend group had s*icide thoughts.
Yet I can never tell a teacher because he hides his behavior so well behind a “what I was just being curious or stating my opinion you can’t get mad at me for that”
And I remember when we were friends he was so convinced he was smarter then me, like he would constantly make me feel insecure about myself but he manipulated me into thinking I was the one in the wrong. I got a IQ test and I scored the same as him which he refused to believe and still denies to this day. As if it would be insane for me to actually be smart.
The worst thing is I still thought we were friends and so did he. He was manipulative according to my other friend, he would constantly switch up on me about trans people, like he would help me tell teachers if others mock me for being trans yet the next day he would be mocking me.
Yet he did all this so secretly so no teachers believed me and nothing seemed serious enough to tell someone. Yet now I’ve realized it definitely was.
He was kind one day, a jerk the next.
So I thought maybe he did support me and maybe he was just joking.
Now let me say this once to anybody that needs it.
IF SOMEONE IS HURTING YOU WITH JOKES, ITS NOT A JOKE.
A joke is funny, for all people involved . Not only for one or two.
He is still incredibly judgemental to me even if we aren’t friends. Like he will comment on my clothes and style just out of nowhere, even if we don’t speak at all.
He convinced me he was so incredibly mature when we were friends and I generally think he is convinced he is, but now I know he is just incredibly immature.
I didn’t take the warning signs early enough but I hope this post can help someone see when something is horribly wrong.
(Please Read pinned post on this account, stay safe <3)