Maturing.
I'll be honest, I didn't think I would be making this post. I have not been active on this account in a long time. I have not made an original post in a longer time. So really, coming back for this one post is maybe a little ridiculous. But I have considered it time and time again. I feel it's important to do, because it's about Snape and maturing to realize that people who hate him are RIGHT.
Back in the beginning/during when I was super active on here, posting/reblogging things, I was very much a teenager. A stubborn teenager who was swept up in the community of Snape lovers. I had watched the movies first and even after reading the books, I STILL chose to defend him and be a huge fan of him. My views on him were so warped that I refused to accept any truth people said about him. I defended him, the things he said, the things he did, and none of it makes sense. Why in the world I defended him calling Hermione, a 13-year-old girl an insufferable know-it-all is beyond me, and said at least he didn't call her it when she was younger, as if that makes a difference? But I did. I deleted the post a long time ago. Which brings me to my next point.
I have gone through and deleted posts/reblogs I know longer associate or agree with. Now I imagine I have unintentionally overlooked some things. The rest I have kept because they are interesting to me, or simply because they're funny (like, a funny, harmless Snape meme). Deleting a bunch of reposts/reblogs is maybe a little stupid and like I'm trying to hide the fact that I blindly defended Snape, however I'm not going to deny that I ever did. I DID defend him and I DID subtly pick fights with people who hated/hate him. I mean, I once SCREENSHOTTED a post, not reblogged it, because I myself was too afraid of genuinely confronting the person.
My point is, if I had ever said anything that made someone upset or anything hurtful, I am sorry. I don't recall being downright mean or horrible, but my behavior on defending Snape was simply delusional and wild.
Where do I stand now? I haven't watched or read the HP books in a long time. As an adult, I recognize the serious, harmful problems they have, which is a whole can of worms in itself. They still hold a place in my heart, though, and that's all I can say for now.
As for Snape? I no longer defend him. I no longer paint him as a victim throughout the entire story. Yes, he was a victim of bullying but HE bullied CHILDREN as an ADULT. He did so many horrendous things. That being said, I still like him as a CHARACTER. Perhaps if I re-read the books I would get a different opinion but this is what it is right now. Snape will always be an interesting character to me, but I no longer wish to defend his words and/or actions. Simply, you can like a character and still recognize they're a terrible person.
As for this account?
1. I don't think I'm coming back officially. I just made this post because I think it's important to recognize that defending a character who bullied children, was obsessed with a girl he called a slur, and countless other terrible things, is delusional and immature. Yes, the character is fictional, but still.
2. I'm not sure if I can change my username? Even if I can, I don't really see the point, because like I said, I don't see myself coming back. The only reason I haven't deleted this entire account is because I have a friend who I talk to on here time to time and this is the only place we can communicate. They are not a Snape lover or anything, they had just moved from Instagram (where we originally communicated) to here a long time ago.
If there is anything you'd like to add, please feel free to!
Have a good day.
