Tender as a rotten log🧚🏽‍♂️

🌻 My name is Julien, but you can also call me Faye/ Pixie or Firefly, Lucas, Arthur, Juniper, Nickolas, Wesley, Felix, Rhys, Quincy/ Quince, Percy/ Perseus, Jupiter, Ronan, Rosamel, Canelo, or Gwyn as I'm polynym and collect names. Especially ones of cultural relevance to me and my heritage (which is mainly afro greco-italian and celtic, but there's muuuuch more to it than that)!

🌿 I use He/ Fae/ Thee/ Comet/ Star pronouns, sometimes It/Its pronouns as well, don't use They/ Them for me.

🌻 Just turned 26!

🌿 I'm taken in the queerest t4t way ❤️‍🔥💍

🌻 This is my personal blog I'll be using to post about being queer (transmasc nb, agender, mspec gay/ homoflexible, and so on), physically disabled, mentally ill, plural (in a traumagenic way), neurodivergent, service dog handler, cat dad, pagan druid spiritualist, and multicultural (as a white-passing bipoc reclaiming mutt to refer to myself). Intersectionality is basically the theme of this blog, just with a nice fairy theme in the background due to being a fae changeling, amongst other faerie things.

🌿 I may also discuss my special interests and hyperfixations on this blog, vents (especially ones related to the topics of this blog), current joys, and things I like in general! If you want to follow me elsewhere, my reblog blog is @thefaereblogs, my plurality blog is @thefruitsaladbats, and my therian related blog is @therioddonesout !

🌻 This is the DNI/ BYF section of the intro, so if you're curious about my beliefs and values: read on! Also, I follow my own DNI (as should you tbh), and I block as I see fit. It's nothing personal, just simple incompatibility here.

I do not support radqueers, terfs/ swerfs, transmeds, radfems, sexism, misogyny, androphobia, or any form of discrimination against queerness! I also support good faith trans identities! I do believe in transmisogyny as well as transandrophobia as well as other descriptive terms for queerphobia. I've experienced most forms of discrimination for being queer, and my experiences (as well as the experiences of others) cannot and will not be erased. I do not believe in TMA/ TME for this reason, and I'm cautious when using AFAB or AMAB language as it excludes and diminishes the experiences of intersex people and acts as if transmisogyny is exclusive to the treatment of trans women, transandrophobia is exclusive to the treatment of trans men, and so on. Let us all have our own words to describe discrimination against us and use/ create more inclusive terms, and stop policing language! Also, Harry Potter fans can fuck off! I can't believe I have to say this in 2026!!!!

I do not support pro contact for harmful paras, but I don't believe paraphiles are inherently predatory or dangerous, do no harm and you have my instant respect and support.

I do not support transrace people, nor do I support racism (so fuck the police/ military, ICE, war, bigots, and fascists), transabled people (which includes willogenics), any form of ableism, sysplex, or polymind. I am also endo critical. The future is NOT plural, but it should be made more accessible to plural people/ systems.

I also don't support the use of AI in any way, shape, or form. This is not a political statement, this is about community care and saving the planet so we don't cause a mass extinction event while stepping on writers and artists and destroying their careers by stealing their work.

Do no harm, take no shit. Also: a kind reminder that freedom of speech is not freedom from consequences. Do something fucked up? Expect the same energy back AND people being upset with you. You are not exempt.

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I also love the idea of my dog and getting into dog sports and grooming together. My dog is going to basically be my whole life, and dogs need a lot of attention. Especially the breeds recommended for service work! It only makes sense that another job would distract me from being able to give my service dog the best life possible, especially due to my limited energy levels, so my dog being my job feels right to me. On top of this, I know that if I were to get a poodle or collie I'd be supported and guided by my breeders to this type of career if I asked for it!

Okay, so I've always struggled with body dysmorphia. My mom's entire family encouraged it, especially my mom herself who "gifted" me an ED, and my entire mom's side of the family seems very insecure about their weight. Even my peers in middle and high school were extremely fatphobic towards me when I was at my skinniest. You can guess how all of that made me feel about me about my body on top of my dysphoria.

Well... almost 7 years of HRT have gone by, and I gained a lot of weight during that time. At first it was a lot, because with weight redistribution you get this extra layer of body fat while your muscles shift underneath (from my researched understanding), but I shed quite a few pounds between then and now. I feel like if I had less of a belly, I'd be considered average in build and shape for my size. I don't feel great about myself, but I'm definitely a lot happier now than I was when I was a skinny 15 year old with BPD and regularly having C-PTSD causing bullying events at school that the teachers did nothing about for some reason.

Anyway, all that to say that I've struggled a LOT with my body image and that has made self-love and dating hard af. Earlier this year though, I'm pretty sure I found my soul mate. He's incredibly attractive, kind, and funny, he's great with kids, and not only is he neurodivergent but he also has had traumatic experiences and knows how to help me through mine and I know how to help him through his! My family loves him, my cat loves him despite her being a "dad only" cat all her life, and he just understands/ doesn't judge me on a whole new level and it's not just in a t4t way!

One caveat though: I know he wouldn't be with me at all if I weren't a very specific body type, and that body type is Large. For reference, he has a major crush on CaseOh and constantly talks about "wanting" him and wishing he'd officiate our marriage and/ or be our sperm donor despite us discussing wanting a donor who's more so... our ethnicities. We're mixed people and we want to have mixed babies damn it! He's really weirdly parasocial about him, I'm a bit concerned.

Anyway, as I've said, I've always been insecure about my body size and honestly? Idk how to feel about him thinking that's the most attractive physical thing about me despite me having other nice features like having extremely rare gray eyes due to being mixed, or maybe my hair as I do have really nice long, curly hair, maybe even my ass or my good taste in tattoos, but no, as much as he likes those things they all seem to pale in comparison to me being Large™️.

He likes to squeeze my post-op chest and tell me that he likes that there's something to grab (which makes me a bit dysphoric) and seems to fixate on my nipples (which I've told him many times I'm getting a revision to remove, he pouts every single time). I could understand if it was just my strength because I can lift and carry him almost like he weighs nothing, but idk how to feel about his actual favorite feature just being that I'm Large™️.

I know the answer is to just write specifically for diverse people myself, I am a published writer actually, but I feel like I shouldn't have to just to see representation for myself and others like me. I'm still going to write some because hell yeah, but what I mean is that I hate that if I didn't there'd be so little representation that it almost feels like there's none and it's frustrating af.

If you or someone you know writes for a diverse reader audience I'd LOVE to be sent their way, please and thank you!! Queer (especially t4t, bonus points for gay or mspec t4t), POC/ BIPOC/ overall non-white or mixed, disabled, neurodivergent, and plus-sized x reader fics and writers to the front! I love and appreciate y'all (platonically) 💕🎉

I can't get a program dog because they're $30,000+ and uncovered by insurance, don't train multipurpose, and they think autism is for children and PTSD is for veterans. On the other hand, paying over $3,000 for a breeder puppy I'll be training with a service dog specific trainer is a surefire way to ensure that I struggle to pay for puppy vet visits because I, a physically disabled and neurodivergent person, struggle to find jobs and to work, which is somehow a big surprise to others in the SD community despite this being a common issue. It's giving classism, honestly.

I get that a lab or golden is best, I've been researching that very thing for the last 10 years and I agree, but I can't find a good lab or golden breeder that is within my price range (again $3,000 per puppy or less), but I have found a poodle breeder for that price point, as well as a collie breeder and a corgi breeder who breeds corgis for service work and regularly donates to programs, and they all seem truly amazing and I have a lot of confidence in their abilities to create the perfect prospect for me...

But every single comment under my posts asking for better understanding of poodles, collies, and corgis as well as a request for breeder recommendations for labs and goldens is about how it'll never work and I should just give up and it's like... oh sorry, guess I should've been born richer, and why do you even recommend other breeds that aren't goldens or labs then? Why is every judgement something along the lines of "you should die because you're not doing things exactly like me and therefore you're wrong about everything even though you researched long and hard about it."

I even specify that I'm mainly looking at poodles, the breed they should be the most okay with, because they're my main consideration since I like that they're low allergen and will feel more considerate to the public while I'm in college, and someone will ALWAYS, EVERY SINGLE TIME, be in the comments explaining how hypoallergenic is the wrong term to use... even though I never said it even once in my post... or telling me to just get a lab or golden... and then someone else in the comments will yell at that guy for recommending goldens because "they're cancer magnets".