Elixirs:
Transfem Jax (Lily) cracked a layer of my egg in a way that I'm still a demiboy, but I (kind of) accept that sometimes I may fluctuate between feminine genders, or feminine expressions, rather than just masculine. Still, I like being called a boy, man, and being seen as a man.
Transfem Jax (Lily) made me realise that I kind of did what she did to the girls (bullied them), but towards the men, because I didn't accept myself as a man.
Transfem Jax (Lily) made me realise that some months ago was doing what she was doing to the girls, while I was fighting misogyny that was rising within me.
I love Lily. Yes, I also do hate her because she was a total jerk. I hated her since the beginning, but that hate eased a little after I realised why she was doing the actions she was doing. This does not excuse her behaviour though. And, because she helped me a lot.
Also, transmasc Jax is fine as a headcanon, and your fictiotype. So with non-binary Jax too. But, saying Jax is canonically trasmasc or non-binary is wrong, because she is canonically a trans woman, at least in the original source.
I sometimes am transfem, and while in this state, I like using ey/em pronouns.
