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FIRST LAW: This character must be a woman.

SECOND LAW: This character must be a loser, but not in a way that can be pinned on her gender. Misogynistic response from the audience does not disqualify the character.

THIRD LAW: If the audience does not enjoy this character, then it becomes impossible to enjoy the show/film/book/game altogether. It is not possible to ignore this character, for better or for worse.

it will always choose you. you cannot die. you'll always come back because it loves you so much. you are its right and left hand, its eternal weapon. it will drown you in its light. light as horror. darkness as horror. what if it thinks you are its best friend.

The obvious answer is because of the horrible things she did.

But the other diamonds did horrible things too…worse things even.

Pink abandoned Spinel, which is wrong, but Spinel was planning to kill every living thing on Earth to spite the son of a person who was no longer even alive. Yet, no one talks about what a monster Spinel is.

So many Steven Universe characters have hurt people, but we forgive them and are happy to see them redeemed.

So why not Rose?

Then, it hit me: because Rose’s redemption arc is told to us in reverse.

The first time we see Rose is toward the end of her life when she is pregnant with Steven. We see her appreciation for life and how full of love she is for Greg and her future child. She’s willingly sacrificing herself to bring a new life into the world.

But then, we start learning who Rose used to be, all her mistakes, all the people she hurt.

The loving mother in Steven’s video becomes a distant memory.

For those of you who hate Rose, imagine her backstory unfolded a little differently for us.

We’re introduced to Pink Diamond: she’s spoiled, bratty, immature, irresponsible, and inconsiderate.

She throws temper tantrums when she doesn’t get her way.

Not exactly an endearing character, right?

But one day, her tantrum injure Pink Pearl, her best friend. From that day on, she keeps everything to herself. Now we see her dealing with a consequence of her bad behavior.

Then we see how she’s abused by the other diamonds. We start to sympathize with her.

We see her try to save Earth. We see her trying to do the right thing for once.

But it backfires horribly.

She spends the rest of her life trying to fix it, but she can’t.

She meets Greg. Here is where Rose has the most emotional growth as a character. She learns what is truly means to be a “real person.”

Finally, she grows such an appreciation for human life, that she decides to sacrifice her form to bring her son into the world.

The reason Rose is so much more controversial than other characters who have done problematic things is because her story is told in reverse, her redemption comes across as a fall from grace.

But there are plenty of characters who have a fall from grace who are still not as controversial as Rose. The reason why many people are less sympathetic to Rose is because we never see how Rose reacts to her mistakes. We never get much insight into how Rose feels about herself and the things she’s done. We get small hints:

people make mistakes, they get

hurt and they lash out.

In a lot of stories the dead are never really shown as being truly gone. Which I understand, most humans are kinda hard-wired into believing that the dead are still with us in one way or another, we don’t cope well with the idea that someone can just stop, but that means that not a lot of writers are willing to actually engage with death as something final in their narratives. Not to paraphrase wiser people than I, but Geoff Thew of Mother’s Basement pointed out in one of his critiques of SAO that killing a character is interesting and tricky because it means they are no longer a force that can effect the narrative. Whatever arc they were having is cut short, their relationships cannot progress in a way that isn’t one-sided, they are stuck as who they were when they died and no longer have agency. They are stagnate, frozen in time, unchanging as everything and everyone else changes without them.

So a lot of stories will confirm that the character is “still there” in some way. They will come visit another character in a dream or as a ghost to offer comfort and advice, or it will be hinted/confirmed that they are doing things behind the scenes like protecting living loves ones, they’re still around, just not in the same way the living characters are. And while that can be sweet and wonderful and some stories deploy it in truly masterful ways that make me weep so hard I can’t breathe and live rent free in my head forever…it’s also a bit of a cop-out imo. You don’t have to contend with the massive narrative shift that is having an entire character just stop, you just slide them into a passive state where they can keep going in their own way that’s separate but still present.

Steven Universe does not take that cop-out. Rose is dead. She’s gone, they DRIVE that home time and time again. Everything that was Rose became Steven, and that might mean that she’s essentially reincarnated or whatever, but for all intents and purposes Rose as she was is 100% gone forever and will never be coming back.

That on it’s own is interesting, but then SU does something even smarter; it sets Rose up as the perfect embodiment of all things good and pure and then spends the rest of the show meticulously tearing her back down. We see ALL of Rose’s mistakes come to light, every unkind and messy and hurtful and awful thing she’s done is dragged out in front of our very eyes and ROSE IS NOT THERE TO FIX ANY OF IT. We don’t even get her BEING there to remind us that she was a flawed person with unfathomable power in a horrible situation with no good options trying her hardest to do as much good as she possibly could under the circumstances. All we see now is Rose’s problems. Her flaws. The mistakes she made. And she’s not there to help us pick up the pieces.

Rose probably would apologize to Bismuth and Spinel and Pearl and everyone she ever hurt if she could, we can tell when she was alive she was absolutely drowning in guilt and regret, but she can’t mend those wrongs because she’s dead. She doesn’t get to visit Pearl or Greg in their dreams and beg them to stop hating each other, or release Pearl from her unintentional vow of silence, she can’t apologize to Bismuth or even just TELL anyone where Spinel has been all this time, she cannot explain why she did the things she did to Steven so he can understand her better or get closure or even just tell him that she really did love him more than anything. Rose cannot fix her mistakes, she cannot give anyone closure, she can’t do anything at all.

She’s gone, and all we are left with is the memory and legacy of an imperfect person who tried her best and failed far more than she succeeded but still loved with everything she had.

The closest thing we get to Rose adding her own voice to the story after she’s gone is the tape she leaves for Steven, in which she is the person she became after everything; a kind, flawed gem who loves her family and earth so deeply that she’s willing to die just so her son can have a chance to experience the joy that is being alive. And tbh I wish more people would remember that version of her, and offer her a bit of grace or at least recognition that she did change and mend things as best she could, but still. We can’t ask the tape questions. The tape can’t tell us what Rose would have thought about whatever was going on at the time. The tape cannot beg our forgiveness or express remorse. It’s a snapshot of a brief moment where Rose was free and happy, a reminder that she did love Steven, but it can never replace her.

The show even goes out of it’s way to drive Rose’s absence home, by having Steven TRY to use her room to make her, only to realize he’s still just talking to his perception of who she might have been, not who she actually was. So much of his grief and pain in the show comes from the fact that he cannot talk to the one person he needs to speak to more than anyone because she’s gone, and that’s the point.

Steven Universe is about grief just as much as it’s about love, and that’s something I really appreciate both as a writer and as someone who has lost people I loved dearly.

I think that’s part of the issue. People just don’t get what Rose being dead means, and they hold her to a standard the show is actively working against. We understand that death is not redemption, redemption is a flawed concept in the first place but it requires the person trying to make things right like, actually being alive to make things right. Rose had her redemption arc off screen for the most part, and Steven never got to see it, WE never get to see it outside of flashbacks. We never get to spend a lot of time with post-war but pre-Steven Rose, when she was at her best. We mostly just see her mistakes because those are what’s causing half the problems in the show. We see her in reverse, going from being a goddess of goodness to someone so profoundly flawed it’s hard to even know how to feel about her, and then the show drives home that you just have to learn to live with that.

The show is asking us to accept that Rose was flawed, and has done things that she shouldn’t have as well as things that are probably hard if not impossible to forgive, but that she was good, and she loved so deeply and profoundly that she was willing to fake her death, cut ties with everything she ever knew, go to WAR, and eventually die so her son could live, and she’s gone now.

She’s gone.

Steven Universe really is one of the most realistic and beautiful depictions of death and grief I’ve ever seen and I hate how all of that gets ignored in favor of making Rose out to be a supervillain rather than the flawed yet good person she really was. Y'all have to stop standing at the foot of her statue and demanding she answer for her crimes. She can’t. But we, the characters and the fans, can accept her for who she was flaws and all, let her go, and pick up the pieces ourselves.

When the Hail Mary is in thrust configuration:

The gravity is 1.5 g, just enough to make moving around the ship a bit more tiring than usual

The ship is basically a giant tower! Grace has to climb VERY tall ladders to go up to the next room. Climbing those in 1.5 g sounds exhausting. I'm sure he'd build up some good endurance doing that, but anyone who lives in a townhome can tell you how annoying it is to walk down three flights of stairs and then realize you forgot your phone upstairs. I imagine he would probably not wander around the ship a ton when he has to climb ladders to do it.

Related to the ladders, if Grace is in the dormitory and wants to go watch TV in the Don't Go Crazy room, he has to climb up 3 rooms of long ladders to get there

The usable floor space is pretty limited! All the rooms were designed to be used in centrifugal gravity, so in all the rooms the centrifugal floor is now a very, very tall wall. What would be the shorter centrifugal wall is now a tiny floor in thrust config (I'll put pictures at the end to illustrate)

Basically zero lab access! At the very beginning of the movie you can see Grace look up the wall at the lab equipment. It is all at least 10 ft up, totally out of reach and bolted sideways to the wall. The only real things he can use in lab are the white board, some screens, and the chair 4ft off the floor (that says "Not for use in thrust configuration" lol). The lab just straight up is NOT meant to be used AT ALL in thrust config. That's the whole point of having the centrifuge!

As you know, counting sheeps is perfect for sleep. Sheeps take that job very seriously. But some are still learning. It’s fine, I don’t think Wolf Hunter minds. 🐑🐑🐑

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i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.