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teenage me and current me are both depressed directionless girls, the only difference is that current me started appreciating the beauty of the world and realized how good it is to be alive despite it all

what happened to the skeleton war, you guys used to love the skeleton war

Wars over, son.

We’ll probably all be blogging about Sherlock season 4.

maybe

7/22/2013

happy decade anniversary to this post

you ever get tired of living but in a non-suicidal way

like everything is bad everywhere and no one has money and im tired of this cycle

i tried to explain how i was feeling like this to my drug counselor and she was like "yeah that still sounds kinda suicidal" and i could not figure out how to explain that i don't wanna die, i just like. am so so so tired of the way life is for me and all my friends and family. i'm tired of living like this but i'm gonna keep doing it bc i guess there's no other choice

I don't wanna die, I wanna go lay on a warm field under the sun and watch the clouds go by. How is this hard to understand?

I just want to spend a few days in the dim twilight between sleep and waking, but specifically the dim twilight of a Saturday morning in April.

There used to be something derisive from UK psychology/psychiatry, called “shit life syndrome” where the person isn’t actually depressed they’re just unhappy because their life objectively is terrible. Like their mental health issues would go away pretty quickly if they had friends and more money, and some support and people that weren’t being cruel to them all the time. As I unpack my own mental health, I think about that frequently, and I’m more sure that I didn’t have depression. I just was unhappy and my brain was too, that so many of my basic needs were not being met. 

Something about Sova being so kind and brotherly to most agents in the protocol but being so up front about fucking hating Cyphers guts is so funny to me. The way he's like "You will not be missed" when he kills Cypher. Top tier comedy

I think what fucks me up the most is that each passenger paid at least $250,000 to be in that submersible. And ultimately, as billionaires, that’s like. A percentage of a percent of a percentage of their wealth. It’s like a trip to Starbucks for people like me. There is not a single person in my life whose existence would not be monumentally changed for the better in ways they probably can’t even imagine by having $250,000 accessible to them. And these dudes handed it over to go die in the ocean in a tin can piloted by a video game controller in some kind of fucked up deep sea Major Tom situation

I mean, those 250.000$ did change their lives. I get what you mean, but their lives did change a lot since they took that trip.

You know what? Fair enough. I cannot argue with that.

What if you loved me so much it literally undoomed me haha jk unless

What if I had so much faith in you it literally reshaped the narrative into a happy ending HAHA JK UNLESS