Week two of creating a headmate from scratch:
She kinda flickers. If I wanted her to be sentient and present I could be working on that, but I’m more concerned about her having a solid framework. I’d call it a soul, but it’s more a lens on Hope. I need her to have a secure positive drive, uncolored by trauma. I don’t know what it’s like to have a non-traumatized brain, and also I’m trying not to pass on our maladaptive survival traits. She still has a fire to her, but I won’t give her a reason to rage.
She does deviate here and there already, which I’m treating as good. She already exists, even as I write her. Layers of fragments combining into one core in motion. She’s developing a sense of style and humor, though her voice and mannerisms are inconsistent.
I’m kind of treating her like a robot right now, adding in hardware and switching bits out to see how she runs. The core of her doesn’t have to be in her model, but it fits well. I’m hesitant to let her reside there too often, still unpolished in her prototype. There’s plans yet, but trial and error first.
Time will show what needs change.












