I hate being disabled when other people rely on me
I'm living with my sibling's family and we're all disabled in this house. It was decided that we all needed to have some chore responsibility a while back and I offered to do dishes since, of the unclaimed chores left, that's one I know I'm efficient at doing.
I'm supposed to do them every day between 8 and 8, so I don't disturb the quiet. Only thing is that everyone's not exactly on that schedule, so if I come down at 9 or so to do them and they're still asleep, I don't want to disturb their rest with dishes noise. They told me if it's the middle of the day and they're sleeping to just do them anyway though. Unfortunately, I also have a hard time staying on any kind of schedule because of disability and sleep problems and ADHD and, ya know, life.
I should have done the dishes this morning. They're backed up and the whole right sink is full but I fell asleep at 11am and now it's past 8 and they're sleeping. I feel so fucking unreliable and shitty. I wish I had the energy to do them before they get backed up. I was planning to do them last night but then I had to take over cooking dinner and that took a lot out of me and, it seems like every time any kind of house cleaning or shopping trips come up, dishes end up low on the priority list. Then they get backed up and they're even harder to manage.
I feel so in over my head. I don't know how to balance work and chores and sleep and I barely have the energy or brain focus lately to do anything for myself.
Everything is so fucking exhausting.
