#vulnerablepost

Here is my #vulnerablepost . 6 kids and tons of #stretchmarks . I used to wear shirts and shorts in the water. These shorts are shorter than what im use to and i havent worn a bikini top in years! I was so self conscious about my body. Since I started lifting weights I have become less. I am proud of my accomplishments so far. I feel #stronger and #healthier. My stomach may never be super flat and my marks will always be there but they are apart of me. I want my daughter and sons to look up to me and see that stretch marks aren't this bad thing and they are ok. I want to be an #awesome #rolemodel for them. I want them to be proud of me and hopefully instill these healthy habits for themselves. My body isn't where I want to be but its one day closer to what I want. 💪💜 #iam1stphorm #1stphorm #legionofboom #wedothework #1stphormathletesearch #bethe1 #duespaid  #Fitfam #fitnessmotivation #workout #getfit #becomestronger #learning #selflove #bodypositivity https://www.instagram.com/p/CBMLMFEgxgY/?igshid=inhsfp0rr7vg

#vulnerablepost I took this photo in March on my last drive to the valley totally raw, no makeup/natural in gym attire. I’m not one who wears a lot of makeup as it is or knows how to contour but I do know I look tired without eyeliner lol. I felt so good about myself this day & how I looked despite not looking my “best” & to me this is an accomplishment & progress in itself. I spent years drowning in insecurities & constantly comparing myself to others,& just never feeling comfortable in my own skin & I never felt/thought I was pretty or beautiful. And, unfortunately I drew a lot of my self-worth & validation from others whether it was in experiencing rejection, approval, & just how I allowed myself to be treated. I never felt noticed, pretty enough, or good enough & now I know it had a lot to do with my fragile & unhealed inner child...& not knowing my true identity in Christ or having a relationship with Him. Now I know that my actions (not justifying) & dating choices etc. were a reflection of my brokenness. Thankfully I learned how to “admire someone else’s beauty without questioning my own”,& that was so liberating for me in every way shape & form. I no longer ran to food/binging/purging for comfort or “control” & I stopped believing that I’ll be, feel,& look better/be more desirable when I’m skinnier & just all those stupid lies. I guess this post could be in honor of Mental Health Awareness month. Even though I’m not where I used to be (all glory to God), I can use my story & journey to help others who currently struggle with this & find it difficult to be vocal & suffer in silence like I once did. We’re in this together.🖤 #mentalhealthmatters . . . . . . . . #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #recoveryispossible #selfworth #Jesus #hope #freedom #wellness https://www.instagram.com/p/B_8cnaxhQWy/?igshid=uu8m1k0udgp7

So honest post right herr & (yes also my judgements): here’s an excerpt from my blog I urgently wrote after being inspired by my teacher. 👩🏽‍💻For a good while I was highly turned off from my decision in becoming a yoga teacher AND I even blogged about it back then lol. Talk about my Scorpio rising coming out, but I digress. Back to my aversion to yoga. I noticed how yoga is so highly commercialized, stylized, sensationalized and more often than not gone to the opposite spectrum of the ancient practice. I was turned off by the fancy poses, the photo shoots, half naked women/men, the vinyasas, oh the vinyasas, the, “I’m really fucken spiritual look at me”. When in reality their “spirituality” started & ended in the ability to teach yoga/simply contort into shapes. It’s based on a facade, the external show rather than the internal work. Most importantly I loathed how it became an ego stroke. I was like WTF did I get myself into?!!😫 But the story ends well and I found my voice and figured out that my ability to be me and own it was my ticket. I may come off as fake to some & that’s fine too so I can also be apart of what I’m talking about. I just know that now I’m not trying to fill someone else’s box. This stuff is all me. The out there beliefs I have, the strong passion to be not only preach light but also let you know that I’ve been in grimy spaces too. I say this a lot but it’s not all 🌈 &🦋 How do you choose who you practice with, teacher/guide/energy practitioner? Also you can read my full blog post if you tap the link👆🏼 #honestpost #vulnerablepost #yogateacher #yoga #layoga #yogateachers #yogateachertraining #yogateacherlife #yogapractice #yogateachertrainings #yogateachertrainingcourse #energy #energyiseverything #energyworker #energywork #energyworkers #blog #blogger #yogablog #yogablogger (at Panorama City - California - San Fernando Valley) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNacFBVBycl/?igshid=5heu4wwys50w

Truthfully, you get to decide what & who you listen to when others share their thoughts with you, because at the end of the day, 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗰𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗺 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗮 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗮𝗱𝘃𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 💯 ⁣ ⁣ 𝘏𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, I have SO much respect for welcomed advice / observations so long as it's blue and TRUE + in person 💙⁣ ⁣ 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 (𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵)? 💭⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ #truthseekers #truthseekersunite #blueandtrue #truthbetold💯 #vulnerablepost #vulnerabilityisstrength #honestyquotes #honestyisthebestpolicy #honestyiseverything #honestyhour #respectothers #respecteachother #bossladymindset #girlbossquotes #girlbosshustle #bossbabequotes #honestselfexpression #twit #quotepost #relationshipsarework #loveandappreciation #growthmindset🌱 #growthanddevelopment #meaningfulmessage #meaningfullwords #intentionalrelationships #peoplewholovepeople #truthistruth #truthispower #vulnerableisbeautiful (at Black Hills) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDwEI97nGeA/?igshid=1g5y25s9gd35l

"Only a fool trips on what is behind him" 👣🚶‍♀️💥 I went for a walk with a friend the other day. We ventured into the depths of the forest behind our childhood castle & I immediatly opened up to him about something that hit like a ton of bricks:⁣ ⁣ "Doing this makes me think of my ex."⁣ ⁣ At the beginning of my previous 4 year relationship, I wanted to take things slow. I didn't want to jump right into household hangouts and staying over so I invited him into the most dear part of what I loved: hiking ❣⁣ ⁣ We would meet up at any and all parks: ones I've been to and ones I haven't ⛰ ⁣ "My thing" quickly became "ours." It was nice. He enjoyed what I loved; "what could be better?" But now we aren't together and so much of our time was spend lost in green woods and climbing trees that I'm forced back to those times whenever I try to hike them now.⁣ ⁣ My friend said to me, "Then hike more now. The more times you hike 𝘯𝘰𝘸, the less times you'll think of hiking with him 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯."⁣ ⁣ He's right and we had a great day talking, exploring, and sweating... but a bit of advice I wanna give ⬇️⁣ ⁣ 🤲 Don't give all parts of who you are to another. Share with them, 𝘺𝘦𝘴! But save space for yourself as well. ⁣ ⁣ I should have hiked with AND without my ex, but I hate having people feel excluded. But guess what? I have excluded myself from a part of who I am and now I am having to work to rebuild a hobby uninterrupted by what is behind me 🛠 ⁣ I found this chalk drawing on the ground during our adventure. It reminded me of the child-like version of myself in nature, surrounded by color and natural vibrancy. It served as my first step towards hiking without baggage of the past, just the faith & beauty of the present moment 🌻⁣ ⁣ I'm so excited for all the hikes / chalk drawings I have ahead of me 👣 .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ #kidscastle #myex #hikemoreworryless #vulnerablepost #chalkyourwalk #chalkdrawings #growthmindset🌱 #hikeon #keepgoingforward #mindsetshift #hikemore #chalkart #hikingboots #bitofadvice #adviceoftheday #intentional #mindfulnessmeditation #growthanddevelopment #growthroughwhatyougothrough #growthroughit #hikersofinstagram #pavementart #hikenow #personalgrowthblog (at Kids Castle at Doylestown's Central Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDpB9RmHZkM/?igshid=1s27wk0bsq2h7

My eyes, one of my favorite features, but also the most intimidating. I often hide them. They tell my secrets, bond with strangers and announce my feelings without permission... ⁣ I love the compliments they bring, except when they are openers to awkward conversations I can’t seem to escape. I’ve been wearing glasses since I was eight. Glasses are basically part of my face, like my eyebrows or lashes. You’d never even know that I own contacts (not worn here)😳 A bare face is pretty much the equivalent of nakedness for me. Enjoy my nakedness. #barefacedbeauty #vulnerablepost #mybrowneyedgirl #melanatedbeauty https://www.instagram.com/p/CDmNIsrAkx0/?igshid=t99sutt3zguv

#wbw to telling a transformative story on @tasheenamedina’s body. Thank you to @danielphamphotography for taking some awesome photos this day! This was several years ago and one of a million body paints I’ve done with Tasheena! I wanted this story to be told in 360 degrees, hence the placement. This story was a personal one for me about my journey from living in cold Massachusetts where I felt frozen both in body and spirit. I didn’t know what I wanted to do, but I knew my creativity wasn’t being utilized the way I felt it should be. When I moved to LA, I did so almost blindly...and I didn’t give myself a backup plan, which was probably one of the best things I could have done. I started as a face painter and quickly tried body painting, then eventually FX makeup and beauty. I emerged as a multi-faceted makeup artist almost by accident! It was as if this was supposed to happen the whole time...but how could I have known what I’d look like as a butterfly when I was a caterpillar? A rather cliche comparison, I’m afraid...but visually it worked 😂🤦🏻‍♀️ My point is: things may feel like they don’t make sense in your life and they may feel like you have no direction or that your purpose is blurry. Keep saying yes to things that feel right and see where that takes you. You may be pleasantly surprised at what your journey ends up looking like! Of course in this painting, it seems as though my transformation into Miss Butterfly has been completed...but she still has to see the world now that she has her wings, right? I’d love to hear some of your transformative stories if you’ll share them with me! 🥰 . . . . . #storytime #vulnerablepost #shareyourstory #artist #makeupartist #bodypaint #bodypainter #makeup #wolfefx #photography #art #cliche #butterfly #transformation #nature #juliehasit #juliehassett #letsgoghpaint #local706 (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8wwI8XJBMN/?igshid=4lcd1l74etpp

Vulnerable post... T1’s, do you ever have a sensor or infusion set sit on a nerve? You know, the kind that occasionally causes shooting pain that catches you unaware? I mean not shooting like excruciating, but enough to make you jump. Exactly what I am dealing with both on my arm and stomach. Luckily, I get to change the infusion set tomorrow. Hopefully, the sensor settles in and acclimated for the duration. No, this is not constant pain, just enough to catch my breath when I move certain ways. #t1dlookslikeme #t1dwarrior #58yearsyoung #vulnerablepost #yoga https://www.instagram.com/p/B76GdVtBtOT/?igshid=1vrhzasgl9oki