#vintaker

Since the moment I awoke this morning, I have felt a hollow ache in my core.

I force a smile, though, because a frown just won't do on my sons’ birthday.

But throughout the day, it persistently gnaws at the pit of my stomach. A feeling. One not unlike when I had questioned if Cedric was indeed my father.

“One gift each for now, and you both can open the rest later this evening. After cake.” I spoil my boys a bit with early presents. 

“Thank you, father!” They hug me, and I hold them just a little tighter than usual, savoring the moment. 

“Memories are all we have when the last breath comes. Make good ones, love. Ones that make you laugh, and smile.” Undertaker had said that day. 

None the wiser, they then tear into the wrapping paper and bows. 

Walking up the staircase, I turn and look at them once more before retiring to the master bedroom. I remember smiling and laughing like that. When my life seemed endless, too far to see. And I thought everyone I loved would live for eternity. When love was painless. 

But that seems like a lifetime ago.

Quietly, I close the door behind me. The hidden drawer to my bureau creaks, and lay my hand on the cool wood of the velvet-lined memory box hidden within. 

Seven years. It has been nearly seven years since I opened it. 

Dare I look? 

Hesitating for a moment, I then slowly lift the lid to find the bloom of the black rose has shriveled dry and brittle, dehydrated of its velvety softness. 

Carefully, I pick it up, and a petal breaks off and flutters to the floor. 

I step on it, and with a sad crackle, it grinds to dust beneath the toe of my shoe.

Today.

There is no question. I am going to die today. 

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You can read this chapter here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39778392/chapters/140141125

I have so many feelings right now. 😭💔

For two years I've worked on this fic- and I mean every moment of spare time I had, the files for it were open and I was glued to the screen. I poured so much of myself into this story. Pain and joy and love. But mostly pain. It's how I worked through a lot of complex emotions and trauma.

In this story, I made Undertaker the monster that tore me (Vincent) apart- but also what holds him together. Because that's what trauma does. It breaks us. It molds us. It reshapes not only how we see the world around us, but how we react to it. It becomes the familiar, poison we willfully drink because we don't know anything else.

Undertaker is Vincent's rock, as well as his ruin.

If you have not read this story, please be mindful of the tags before proceeding. It's not for the faint of heart.

"Foresight,” Vincent muttered. “Is that what it is?”

Read the new chapter here:

Vincent is actively getting worse, so it's good that fic only has one chapter left, lol

Start from chapter 1:

when 2ct was confirmed I hated it. But then I reread kuroshitsuji and changed my mind because yana has been throwing hints about her plot points here and there masterfully. It's amazing because they're put where no one expects them and especially after impactful scenes or filler episodes (the most evident 2ct hint is in the egg hunt arc hELloO???).

She's done the same with the undertaker subplot of bizarre dolls. sneaky mf was SO READY to propose ciel to bring her back as a doll should he had answered yes. And it was blatantly put for all of our eyes to see, because otherwise why would ut, out of all the characters, ask ciel if he regretted not saving those people who could have been saved?

Some notable examples from my brain:

Urbosa x Botw Zelda's mother + Zelbosa

What can I say? I first saw the former on Twitter and loved the fanart/au ideas of this ship. Frankly, I like it on its own whether as an au where they got married/became partners, or even if it's a homoerotic friendship with unrequited feelings (on Urbosa's end at the very least).

As for the latter, it kind of just struck me when I first watched that memory in base botw where Urbosa is holding Zelda as she sleeps (tuckered out from surveying) and talks to Link about her. This scene really set Urbosa up as a comforting presence to Zelda, and the knowledge that Urbosa displays sets her up as someone just inherently close to her (or at least someone who has been watching her all this time)

Under the framework of this post though, I love to imagine that Urbosa either has/had a secret thing with Zelda's mother, watched over her diligently and tried to position herself as a helpful presence, and then once Zelda properly grew up and started to get older, feelings (on Zelda's side first) started to grow more uncertain. I'd like to think under this framework that once Zelda becomes an adult and comes to terms with these feelings, she becomes embarassed around Urbosa😂

Or, as someone I know once said "Don't you think it's funny? Urbosa had a thing with the mother and the daughter!"

I also can't help but think back to this post I saw on my for you page about how a "MILF" should specifically be a woman old enough to be your mother. So like. It's also funny to imagine like, a sweet childhood friends situation with past!Urbosa/Zelda's mom, but then Zelda being so down bad for a MILF with eventual Zelbosa

Botw Zelimpa + Zelpaya

Now, I've shipped Zelimpa in botw since Age of Calamity released. Real princess and her number one bodyguard kind of situation seemed to be going on there (for the record, I watched the trailer and played chapter 1 of that game). As for Paya/Zelda, I didn't really think much about it until I (1.) got into botw Zelimpa and (2.) went through Paya's diary in botw and it hit me that Paya could very plausibly be into both Zelda as well as Link.

Under the framework of this post, I really can't help but think of them like parallels to the movie Hook (Paralleling Peter/Wendy and Peter/Moira). In this case, it's funny to me to imagine Zelda having this deep bond and relationship between Impa during AoC era, and then 100 years later (post botw) when she finally meets Impa again, Impa introduces her to Paya. And while Zelda sort of slowly falls for Paya as they hang out and get to know each other and talk, the feelings hit Paya like cupid's arrow (I love you bi crisis Paya).

Nanago + Goyuu

This one sorta came about because (in addition to both of these ships) I like those aus where Nanami is Yuji's adoptive parent. And so it's funny to imagine a situation in which Nanago are exes and/or divorced, and then like years later Yuji and Gojo have one of those chance meeting x romcom romances where they both find out after the fact that Gojo was once with Nanami, but it ends up being Nanami who's the most annoyed and bothered about this situation in the end

Nanami really wishes his adoptive son would dump his ex's ass😂

Rigurd/Siguriddle + Hayariddle

This one's a bit different just because Hayato is Sigurd's reincarnation rather than Sigurd being Hayato's ancestor, but it’s close enough. And it's close enough because this is actually arguably pretty close to UR canon?😂

Like Riddle has an entire King and his most devoted servant/secretary thing going on. There is so much implying that Riddle was probably in love with him, if not that they actually were involved as a couple. And then after his lord (Sigurd) dies, he dutifully makes sure that his beloved's soul reincarnates properly. And then he watches over and protects Hayato (said reincarnation) as he grows up, sets his plans in motion and inserts himself into Hayato's life when Hayato turns 17, and then grows attached to him enough that when he finally ressurects his dear lord after centuries, he chooses his reincarnation over him. And if the ending of that manga tells me anything, it’s that Riddle really did get the King and his reincarnation 😂

Vintaker + R!Ciel/Undertaker

I haven't actually read far enough into BB to know a lot of details, but all I need to know is that the Undertaker may have been implied to be involved with generations of phantomhives, that he did canonically hang with Vincent, and that he's like the Sebastian to R!Ciel. Funny to imagine him involved with the father, and so too his precious dead heir that the undertaker went through the trouble of trying to bring back

Lansoni + King Sonic/Galahad

If you follow me you may have already seen me posting about them but regardless

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