(Ref: talking about syscringe and FDC

I clearly don’t have enough people blocked with where our stuff turns up (fake disorder cringe). I’m in love with the idea that I’m delusional. I am, technically, but I’ve never been able to pull that blanket over our trauma history. That I’ve simply misattributed the scars and internal damage, trying to spice up a boring childhood I don’t remember. And that’s all that’s wrong with me; psychotic, the kind of mad where only I get hurt. I like that idea, almost better than a world where we don’t remember at all. Explains why we’re like this without the weight.

I can’t find the post, but we did try to save the people we left behind. A constant inconvenience, but the only real effort made it twice as bad later. I’ve always been a fan of loosing the saw and freeing the rope into the highway ditch by the rest stop. I’ve tried to trade my life, but they wouldn’t take it.

I struggle to explain away the daily memories; the worst of it might be delusions, maybe memories of hallucinations, but other people acknowledged the evidence. Unless I made that up, too.

No one understands the internal rationalizing I try to get away with, because to you I might as well be weaving stories from imagination. I don’t want them to be dead, I don’t want to think of the people who lived, I don’t want to think about the state of our justice system that we told and nobody believed us. They never checked, to my knowledge. Certainly not before asking whether we were on meds.

This is also not the post for this, I’m just rambling my emotions so my housemates don’t see my cackling at the wall later, but like us, RAMCOA is half-documented. Most RA cases aren’t brought in with the ideological imagery found at the scene, most torture is only uncovered after a rare investigation or a found body. Mind control is hardly an uncertain phenomenon, but it doesn’t go by that name in public. Group behavior, brainwashing. You might have to see the results in person to see what it does to us, and I’m not inviting an audience to me.

Sorry for the rant I'm just... Catty is such a kind loving soul and to infuriate them to the point of needing to leave front and have someone else, who isn't even a caretaker, care for HER??

I don't understand why they think they're in the right...

I'm so sorry :((( that's awful, they'll do anything to tear down safe spaces for disabled people and it's very telling about who they are

It's always either endos or reddit losers taking away our peace of mind, maybe there could be some kind of verification or something before joining? If there wasn't already 💚

Fictive acting like their source? Faking.

Fictive that acts NOTHING like their source? Faking.

Systems with low amnesia barriers and amazing communication? Faking.

Systems that have high amnesia barriers and terrible communication? Faking,

“Weird” alters? Faking.

Alters that are just regular dudes? Faking.

Overt? Faking.

COvert? Faking.

Comorbid disorders? Faking.

NO comorbid disorders? Faking.

Minor? Faking.

Adult? Faking.

Attention I'm not a professional, so only take this as another POV

I recently checked out r/fake disorder cringe to see if they had any good points. I gotta broaden my perspective and all that.

Bad news, they had no good point (shocking, I know), good news, they gave me room to think about my opinion on both sides.

I might make more posts about this, and it will be unorganized because I'm clearly faking mental illnesses I never said I had.

So starting off with the dumbest thing I've seen be posted, someone was posted on Fdc because they wanted to get diagnosed... the kid wanted to get diagnosed with bpd because they felt tired of feeling crazy, you know what the comments talked about, they talked about how people will make you feel more crazy if you get diagnosed AND people were saying she might have developmental issues because her eyes were droopy???

Another warning for abelism

From what I've seen, fdc is big on actual diagnosis, and they DESPISE self diagnosis, so if you support getting diagnosing, why are you actively trying to hurt someone who's trying to get diagnosed. If they got diagnosed, then they wouldn't be self diagnosing, and they could possibly find out what they might actually have if it's not actually bpd.

But to bring up the points mentioned in the comments "could just be hormones" now I won't say this is the dumbest argument I've heard (if you've been on the subreddit then you know) but if they've been feeling this way long enough then maybe they know they have it, it's almost like they lived their life and you haven't been there their whole life. But if it is just hormones and they still get diagnosed and have to deal with trying to get rid of it, how does that effect you exactly, they are the ones who have to deal with hours of paperwork, phone calls, appointments, legal stuff probably, and much much more. It doesn't affect you and all you would need to do in the end if you sit back and go "HA TOLD YA SO" scummy, but you could do it.

Another comment thing I saw was people saying that dissociation can only equal DID, which isn't true. I even saw a post that was labeled as DID, and people still said they were faking DID in the comments. A recent post I saw was about this guy singing, and then he dissociates, and people in the comments said he was faking DID.

I'm gonna ignore their number one argument on the sub where they say, "It doesn't look like that😡" because that's too easy. Instead, I'm gonna talk about how it could just not be DID. First off, with something easy, if they like that song, they could dissociate due to an attention disorder, or just cus, the op also didn't show the caption so I don't even know if they are making the claim that they have DID. For all I know, the tiktoker could be saying, "I don't have DID. I was just being silly and wacky, lmao." Also ,it doesn't come on in a second." That would make sense because not only is the video sped up, but also you could see the gradual shift before finally dissociating.

We got posted on systemcringe because Kei, our Ajin fictive, was upset watching his source cause of the memories and said he missed his partner and sister

And someone was like "just write fanfiction omfg" and like

It's funny cause we DO, and that's why our CoDZ introjects have most of our headcannons and it still doesn't make our disorder magically disappear 🤣

Omg I'm so sorry you got put on that subreddit!!

That's like telling a depressed person to take a walk or look at the bright side of things lmfao

what should I do if I have a persecutor (in-system abuser) who absolutely REFUSES to change and will get violent when faced with kindness and willingness to change is posting us and our friends on hate subreddits like r/fakedisordercringe and r/systemscringe? we have tried time and time again to show them kindness and support, but they just refuse to change and lash out at/abuse anyone who shows them kindness. they refuse to change and want to hurt us and get worse, they have joined multiple 4-chan-esque and bigoted discords, exposed us to sexual spaces (we are a minor bodily) and are now posting us and close friends on r/syscringe

I'm scared that our friends will cut us off (rightfully so) if they find out about this and said alter has been threatening me if I delete the posts or leave those discords and subreddits. I don't know what to do