#thoughtsofyou

but your shadows did not

Each night you haunt

it gently tears me apart

- thoughtfulsage

This is how you make me feel-

Like a grand piano in an abandoned home; I wish you would visit and lay your hands down onto my keys and play me until the melodies are dripping out through your pores. I want you to know that when I listen to certain songs I can hear the sound of your footsteps scraping along the pavement the evening you went home with somebody else.

This is how you make me feel-

Like I am a rain cloud and I have emptied myself over the driest countryside on the entire continent and still nothing grows. And I’ve been around long enough to know “just friends” aren’t supposed to kiss each other’s throats. And I’ve torn fistfuls of heartbeats from my chest that should have never belonged to you.

And I’m through pretending I’m the one who matters most to you. And just as a child we learn to keep our hands clear of sharp knives and away from burning kettles through trial and error. Perhaps your my flesh wound that I insist on reopening time and time again. My deep burn, a lesson learned. I should stay away but I know I won’t be able to.