#writeyourheartout

Mesmerized by the vibrant shade of purple running down your fingers

I smile thinking to myself

He’s so messy and he doesn’t even care

He’s so messy it’s childlike

He’s so messy and my God I love him

You apologize for the mess

I laugh and say I don’t mind one bit

War paint streaks your face in jewel toned droplets

He’s so messy and I love him

I laugh without a care in the world at your utter disregard

And watch as you lean over to invite me into your mess

Your hand reaches across and paints me too

And now suddenly

I am a mess and I don’t even care

I am a mess and it’s childlike

I am a mess and my God I love him

You said “now we match

Just two blueberry messes

Huh that sounds like a poem”

And I wonder if you knew

That was the moment I fell in love

The moment that you brought me into your mess

And welcomed me with open arms

I wonder if you know

That blueberry juice is stained on my soul

With the patterns of your finger print

He did exactly what I thought and feared

the bruise he gave

is still visible.

I was ready

and mentally prepared

but it still hurt my heart

and made my body ache.

Funny, I still hope

everything he said

wasn’t a lie,

In the middle of the night

Oh heart, why you cry?

Let him go

he wants to flee

He can’t handle your love

or your dreams.

Oh, my love

I long for you; your presence and smile. I long for every bit of good and bad you have. I long for what we could have. I don’t want to say those 3-words, 8-letters; but, I feel like I want to. I feel like I am. For the longest time, I have been suppressing it; for the longest time, I been keeping it. I wanna say it out loud for you to hear my crying heart. It longs for you, it longs for your attention. My dear, would you be so surprised if I say; I am liking you way too much that I should?