my experience as a neurodivergent person in uni
honestly, i wish this was one of those posts that people make to kind of inspire others in their pursuit of education and academia in general, but it’s not. in fact this is more of a venting post about my first ever meltdown after i started law school.
just a piece of information for anyone who might read this, im brazilian and in my estate things are not progressing as they might in relation to covid so my uni decided that for now our classes will be online - and it will remain like that until at least 80-90% of the alumni are fully vaccinated and had their reinforcement shots too. another note: in order to function in school, i always need an order for things, rules to follow or guidelines; else my mind is literally unable to work and even when i can it tends to be way more stressful than it needed to be or that it would ever be for a neurotypical
anyway, this week one of my teachers put out an assignment that will basically make up 30% of my grade and that’s supposed to be a group project into which we are supposed to read a book about ‘reaserch methods in the formation of laws’. until that it was fine, but that’s where me being neurodivergent comes into play because i was pared off with a bunch of neurotypicals and the way they do things tends to be very overwhelming and overestimulating for me - which makes me get extremely anxious. so naturally i went with my teacher to try to solve things, and besides i needed to ask some questions in order to be able to do said assignment, but instead she simply said it was a free-of-form assignment (which was already anxiety inducing to me and did not help the situation). from there i was like ‘fine, so i’ll have to work my way with my groupmates then’ but they were just as uncooperative as the teacher and now im here (mid meltdown) writing this.
and before anyone says anything, yes i know that’s something minimal but still its gonna be extremelly stressful for me since i’ll have to make double (even triple) the effort in this class just to keep up with my group’s way of thinking because the group assignments are supposed to last the entire semester. which is something that wouldnt happen if i was allowed to turn in these assignments on my own or if the teacher knew how to accomodate my needs as a neurodivergent person better.
anyway, i just wanted a place to vent :/
