#solution oriented

And it's not like I'm doing nothing at all, but of course it doesn't matter to most people how much effort I put in, it's never enough unless I'm getting offers. Even the month back in the summer where I put in over 500 applications, it "wasn't enough" because I wasn't getting any interviews. Clearly I should have been submitting 600 applications

I've been working lately on spending any time and energy I can devote to the job search, on resume revising. Because that's the only thing within my control at this point that I can do differently, and the "spamming hundreds of job applications with my current resume" approach isn't working. I do finally have some friends who will help review my resume, too, and I personally have read up on plenty of tips too. So I'm hopeful. It's just very slow

I started my current job search in February. So that means we're 10 months in with nothing to show. Only one interview, and they ghosted me afterward. It's hard to not take this personally. But I do know that [1] the job market is absolute shit rn and has been all year, [2] I'm doing my best, and it's still nowhere near the amount of work into this search that I'd like it to be, and [3] I am shooting myself in the foot quite a bit by limiting myself to the region of one particular (expensive) city, but I have good reasons to need to do that

Ugh. Everything is so expensive, too, even though I've just been purchasing the absolute necessities for the past 6 months. I've been on short term disability for 4 months now (since I was working a barista job that was becoming bad for my health due to having to be upright/standing for so long), and it's not nearly enough. Even though I (luckily?) don't have to pay for rent or utilities right now (the roommate situation is real dicey though), I've still been going into debt every month just to pay for food, necessary bills, and healthcare

I've made the decision to go back to the barista job at the end of the month, despite being terrified I will pass out on shift, since we still haven't figured out how to effectively treat the POTS (though I do have appointments with actual specialists coming up in the new year, so there's plenty of hope there). But I literally can't afford not to be working, and no one else will so much as interview me

I don't say this to make people feel bad, just because it's unfortunately the way my life is truthfully right now, and has been all year. It absolutely sucks ass. And the worst part for me is that I know many people have it much worse, and society on the whole doesn't give a shit about any of us.

Do not give what you do not want, a second thought.  Stop checking the scale! Living in our head.  “Every time I eat, I lose weight.” I have long hair. If you are affirming, but you hate how you look, your body can’t get out of your own way. I love myself. I look great.  Your body responds to your thoughts.  

Your fundamental secrets to success: Not afraid of failure. Karma is the law of action. Karma means “action.” Failure is the lack of action. Be Solution Oriented. 

Knowledge, creativity and vision.  Depression is when something you can’t control, outside of you, is not meeting your needs.  We think our needs have to be met on the outside.  It’s poisoning yourself. 

But despite how popular it is among the masses and even many employers. Students are prohibited by it and sometimes automatically fail if AI detection software is accurate. Using AI for videos and text posts makes you seem inauthentic. The amount of data AI collects from scraping and using "user approved" information is mind boggling and very terrifying in terms of internet safety.

Upside is AI is super expensive to run. OpenAI spends billions a year just to run it. Not including maintenance needed to keep that sort of thing running. It's nothing sustainable long term right now. But we will see what the days ahead have planned.

But my opinion on this matter is this. AI is fine if it benefits the masses without ruining the lives of others. Whether that be reputation from AI developed nudes of real people used for blackmail(happening alot with teens on Instagram), loss of work for people whose careers and fields would be replaced with AI and automation.

Solutions would be to include a way to censor AI or prevent it from creating nudes of any kind. ChatGPT can already detect when you're asking for a way to hack someone and deny it(of course people have found ways around it by rewording their request but it's being worked on). For loss of work, use the money saved from switching to automation and AI and using it to provide a universal income for everyone affected.(4-8k monthly depending on where you live). Doing so humanity can move forward. People can live without fear of being exploited through nudes and without fear of losing their place of living because they would have the funds needed.