#sleep issues

Zoey is the kind of sleepless that listens to music. She gets on her phone, scrolling on tik tok or reading fanfiction until she passes out around 2 in the morning. It’s unhealthy, but it works for her, so she doesn’t bother changing her method until Mira and Rumi start sleeping with her. Afterwards, she resorts to making a song to the different beats of her girlfriend’s hearts. This usually helps her sleep, and on days it doesn’t she still feels much more calm then before.

Mira is the kind of restless where she lays there, for about two to three hours before giving up and looking for something to do. Usually it’s something small, like checking up on her girls (pre-Polytrix), or something big like making something sweet. After she started sleeping with Rumi and Zoey, she took to sitting in the dark, watching them to make sure they were still breathing, that they were there. It helps some nights. Others she has to reach out, tentatively, and feel their heartbeats through their backs.

Rumi is the kind of restless that’s impatient. She’ll get up almost immediately and start doing work, typing out instructions to her team or setting up meetings until she wakes up to an alarm from her phone next to her on the desk. After the idol awards (and Polytrix) Rumi often has nightmares. They’re the kind of nightmares that you wake up from and freeze, fearful something’s watching and just waiting for you to move before attacking.the steady breaths from her girlfriends help calm her down, and sometimes she’ll wake up to Zoey pressing her head into her gently, or Mira gently touching her back. They don’t know shes awake when they do this. She doesn’t tell them. She sleeps deeply when she realizes what they’re doing.

May I request the Sanses with an S/O who is a very still sleeper? They don't move much (if at all) and they are a very shallow breather when they sleep too.

Part 2: S/O is a still sleeper but they sleep in the weirdest position, and they have the *loudest* snore ever. It's like that one audio with the AAUUUUGGHHHHH... They won't wake up for anything once they're out 😭

Hi! 👋

The first handful of nights, it freaks him out. You slept great, and now you’re wondering why he’s acting like a sleep-deprived zombie. (He stayed up staring at you cause he was scared you could die and he wouldn’t know the difference) Once he memorizes your sleep-tells, he rests much easier.

Geno, Fresh, Reaper, Syrah, Swap, Horror, Dust, Cross, Error, Template

Does not care. He sleeps before you and wake up after you. There’s a strong chance he doesn’t even know.

Red, Comic, Blue, Ccino, Bill

Clings to you enough that he can probably either feel your pulse or hear your heartbeat, so he’s fine.

Plum, Heart, Cherrybomb, Dream, Ink, Nightmare, Killer, Pale, Passive, Swad, Swan, Shattered 

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Invests in soundproof headphones for your safety. It’s better to adjust to the strangeness of the headwear than smothering his lover in their sleep.

Comic, Blue, Syrah, Swan, Swap, Ccino

Ditto. You snore like a harmony of sentient lawnmowers.

Geno, Red, Killer, Horror, Shattered

Drags you to the doctor to get a sleep study 

Reaper, Dream, Plum, Nightmare, Cross, Error, Bill

Finds it a (somehow) soothing white noise.

recently I received a couple of messages from followers and other blogs explaining how, when they were in sleep paralysis or lucid dreaming, were unsuccessful in reaching the void or shifting after stating their intentions

this also happened to me a couple of times, seemingly at random; sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t

I did a bit of research and also analyzed my own experiences to figure out the root of the problem and how to fix it:

you’re not completely grounded/you’re rushing

this took me an embarrassing amount of tries to realize this, but every time I’m lucid dreaming or feeling myself entering the void, I would instantly start to spew out my intentions/desires instead of completely grounding myself in there and I would be instantly kicked out from that state. I guess it just doesn’t work that way — you have to be completely grounded in your ld or sp for your desires to manifest

a lot of you (me included) get so excited or scared when realizing we’re in a certain state that the connection, I guess, breaks. as an example, when I wasn’t very knowledgeable on the void state I entered it and chilled there for like 10-15 minutes before exiting willingly, but after discovering it can be used for shifting or manifesting I could barely spend 10 seconds there before waking up unintentionally

I successfully changed my shirt this morning, though. So that's something. Because I ditched my shirt overnight, I had to change my shirt all by myself. And I did it. I made it work. I got a new shirt on all by myself. It's a bit tight, so I didn't pick a great shirt. But I found something and put it on, and that's actually a decent mark of my independence. Just a shame I did this only because I was having a very eventful and exhausting night. I guess it makes sense that I'd be more willing to be independent on a night that left me exhausted and impulsive and everything, though.

Now that I'm awake, I have time to kill before my dad gets home at noon. I'm not really going to do anything massively eventful. I'm likely just going to play music on my phone, maybe watch videos on my tablet, write notes in my notes app or posts online, read some things online and/or play a video game. These are largely the only things I do when my dad's at work. I've made some kind of routine of it all, but it's still repetitive enough to get dull sometimes. It's not like I'm much more active when my dad's home, you know. I think I do a tiny bit more when he's home, but not much more. I'm largely just convinced I'm better when my dad's home. Probably because I like the safety of having someone home with me. Well, that and because I'm dependent on my dad in many ways.

Sometimes I'm afraid of the future, because I want someone to live with me like my dad does forever. I don't really want to live all alone. But since I don't have any friends besides my dad…it sure seems I'll end up alone. That's why my fantasy is to have a maid, a housekeeper or a butler. Because then I don't need friendship, I can hire someone to accompany me through life. And if I can then befriend the person who's working for me…well, that's just all the better. That's how I'm seeing it, anyways. And that's something I've kind of fantasized about since 2022, at least. It's been something I always considered, because I know it solves some of my problems.

My dad goes back to work full time at the end of this month. That means his work hours will now be: friday from 1 am to 12 pm, saturday from 1 to 12, sunday from 1 to 12 and monday from 1 to 12. I'm still really nervous to begin making the adjustment to that schedule. I've dealt with it before, but I last dealt with it almost a full year ago. So I'm pretty nervous to adjust to it. I'm pretty nervous indeed.

I don't know if I'm nervous for killing all the time on my own. Sure, that's boring and dull sometimes. But I handle it remarkably well. I basically just do what I did in Elementary School, which is basically refuse to eat after I'm done breakfast. I basically just fast until my dad's home. When I'm all alone I don't talk too much and I don't eat too much. I'm just kind of there. And sure, it sounds dull. And it probably kind of is unadventurous and dull. But it's still something I've handled before.

No, my bigger issue is dealing with two things. Those things are sleeping on the nights my dad leaves and then also dealing with the irritability I feel when my dad comes home. I think those are my biggest issues with it all. The boredom isn't great either, but boredom is probably better than irritability and exhaustion. But let me try to explain both things in more detail. I've already explained the whole "I seem to sleep a bit worse when I'm alone in the house" thing, so maybe I'll just try to focus on discussing the irritability thing now.

I think I get irritable when I go from being alone all morning to having my dad home later. It's partially an adjustment to having other people around me again, and it's partially a reaction to the noise in the house getting louder. Considering all I do is usually play music on my phone when my dad's at work (and mute the TV to hear my phone better) and I barely speak during all this time, I feel like sound changes when my dad comes home. And sometimes that can frustrate me, I think. So yeah, I do get irritable sometimes when my dad gets home. And this (plus the sleeping thing) are probably my biggest concerns about my dad's work schedule changing right now.