ISTJ: What do memories of yours look like? I mean, are they like a movie or just pictures?
INFJ: Okay, Iāve got to say. Iām a bit shocked cause thatās the kind of question that I always ask people, but never get asked myself, so this is a new experience for me. But Iād honestly say neither, really. A few pictures like some blurry old photos, but the rest is just abstract information about what happened where and who was there etc., but thatās it really. Itās all pretty fragmented and very rudimentary.
ISTJ: Really? But how does that work? How do you remember anything then?Ā
INFJ: I donāt know. I usually donāt.
ISTJ: These pictures that you have, are they from your own perspective?
INFJ: Well, yes. Itās what I saw in that moment. Why, arenāt your memories from your own perspective?
ISTJ: Not all of them. Sometimes I can watch myself from the outside doing stuff.
INFJ: How does that work?Ā
ISTJ: I think it has to do with my emotions in that moment. When I remember sitting on the couch, itās such a normal regular thing that I donāt really associate it with a strong emotion, so I guess it doesnāt get encoded in my memory with the scene, so I see myself from the outside in those moments.
INFJ: That is so interesting. But the memories that you have from your own perspective, the ones encoded with an emotion, when you open that memory, so to speak, do you relive those feelings or is it more like the simple knowledgeĀ āI was happyā?
ISTJ: Iād say itās like an echo. I donāt really feel it again, but I get a sense of it again in a way.
INFJ: Fascinating. I donāt really exist in my memories. I mean, the blurry pictures are from my perspective, but I have no idea what I thought or felt in any memory. I donāt get any echos. When Iām lucky, I have some abstract knowledge stored somewhere likeĀ āI liked this placeā orĀ āI laughed a lot that nightā, but no memory of me laughing or feeling anything. Just my abstract takeaway from the moment.
ISTJ: Then how do you reanalyse a situation? For example, I had this fight with a colleague recently and it got really emotional, but on the weekend afterwards, I took a look at the situation again now that I had calmed down and so I played it back moment by moment and listened to her words again and interpreted them differently in hindsight than I did in the heat of the moment.
INFJ: ... you can do that? Like for real? That sounds like witchcraft to me.Ā
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Introducing a shape-shifter to the main cast of a Star Trek show meant that we had the chance to see him turn into all kinds of cool stuff. The limits of television storytelling, however, meant that certain restrictions had to be imposed on his powers. Odo must return to his gelatinous state every 15 hours to regenerate, or he risks falling apart. Also, judging from the unfinished shape of his face, he isnāt very good at imitating people (so, no Mystique-style infiltration missions for him).
Thus, despite his fluid body, Odo has the most rigid personality on DS9.
Odo keeps to a predictable scheduleāthe shopkeepers on the Promenade can set their chronometers by his passing when he makes his rounds. Heās a reliable and trustworthy Security Chief, impartial in his judgments whether heās serving the Cardassians or Starfleet, because heās only interested in the real facts of the matter. Starfleet keeps him on after they take over Deep Space Nine, thanks to his familiarity with the station and its denizens.
Odo makes a skillful investigator, picking up on details in his environment that build a picture of the crime or suspects heās studying. This makes it especially difficult for Quark to get any shenanigans past him. Even when Quark seems to have innocuous motives, Odo suspects him, because past experience has taught him that, āYouāre always up to something.ā
Odo prides himself on his knowledge of humanoid nature, and often uses the phrase, āItās been my observationāā when explaining something heās learned about them.
Though he could take on any form he wishes, Odo settles on the appearance of a middle-aged, grumpy, humanoid man. When heās briefly turned into a human, he still keeps such a stiff posture that he gives himself a pinched nerve. He somewhat resembles the scientist who studied and raised him, Dr. Mora, right down to the hairstyle. Even his name is a riff on the label he was given as an āUnknown Sampleā (āOdoāitalā) in the lab. Other Changelings he meets chide him for sticking to this one form so consistently, conforming to the looks of average humanoids, but something about the man the crew calls āConstableā seems to express Odoās essence.
Odo has an innate sense of order, of the way things ought to be, that never changes despite the many cultures and environments he lives in. His people tell him that this is part of being a Changeling, the desire to bring order and sanity to the chaotic existence of the solids (non-shapeshifters). When he gets his own quarters, Dax enjoys making him crazy by moving his furniture around, shifting it slightly out of place. Odo can tell when itās off by even a centimeter.
When heās temporarily stuck in human form as punishment, Odo keeps his smooth, somewhat unformed face, partly as a reminder by the Founders that heās not great at the details of the humanoid form. However, he becomes fascinated by the bubbles in his drink, now that he actually ingests sustenance. He eventually gets his shape-shifting powers back, but Odo keeps his new quarters so he can practice shape-shiftingāand his old bucket, which he used to āsleepā in before he got his own space, just for old timesā sake.
Odo doesnāt know where he comes from at first. His quest for his origins remains a driving force, a hardwired part of his genetic code, and heās grieved to discover that his people are in fact the tyrannical Founders of the Dominion. Heās torn between returning to the Great Link from which he was born, and staying with his loyal friends on Deep Space Nine.
As gruff and surly as he acts, Odo just wants someplace to belong. His personal experiences with the crew of DS9 help prove to him that solids are not evil, nor in need of domination. When he finally returns to the Great Link, he brings this knowledge with him in an effort to enlighten his people.
Odo lives to enforce law and order on the station. He has rules about not carrying weapons on the Promenade, not loitering, not sleeping, and a host of other things. He brooks no defiance of them. He especially loves calling Quark out for minor infractions of station regulations, just to make him miserable. He gets testy when Worf shows up and interferes with his methods, and has a list of security breaches on the Enterprise to rebut the Klingonās accusations against the Constableās abilities.
This side of Odo can go a bit fascist at times, like when he supports the declaration of martial law on Earth in the face of Changeling paranoia. When his job is called into question after Eddingtonās defection, he complains that if heād been given the broader authority he asked for, it never would have happened. He quietly believes that although things were grimmer under Cardassian occupation, at least they were safer. He illegally bugs Quarkās communications, and hints that he might do the same for others on the station as well.
Odo gets this drive from his people, the powerful Founders who run the Dominion empire in the Gamma Quadrant. The temptation to join the Great Link is not just that of returning home, but of joining a greater cause and power. He relates to their need to control the messy lives of solids, but ultimately he canāt go all the way with them in their desire to conquer the galaxy.
Tertiary Function: (Fi) Introverted Feeling, āThe Deep Wellā
Odo holds to a rigid, personal sense of justice. He serves many masters over the yearsāCardassians, Starfleet, the Dominionābut he follows his own code before theirs. He refuses to ever carry or fire a weapon in the course of his duties (being able to shape-shift his arm into a whip certainly helps). A major reason heās kept on by both Cardassian and Starfleet authorities is his commitment to the truth no matter who heās working for.
Odoās not crazy about anyone seeing him revert to his gelatinous state for regeneration time, nor really of anyone seeing his personal feelings about anything. Heās chagrined at the informal, affectionate nickname of āConstableā by which the crew calls him. Heās especially uncomfortable with the deference and adoration lavished on him by Weyoun and the JemāHadar, who see him and the Founders as gods.
Odo harbors an intense disgust of Quark that somehow also carries deep regard, though heād never say it aloud (Quark, being an Fe-dom, can see it simply through Odoās body language).
I really hesitate to praise anything about the Odo/Kira romance, but it does relax Odo emotionally. Heās awkward and fumbling in expressing his feelings to her over the years. When itās finally out in the open, heās the most sincerely happy we ever see him. Sadly, his commitment to his people, and to helping them become a peaceful race, must win out over his relationship to Nerys, and he bids his lover goodbye in the end.
Once Odo reconnects with his people, he has trouble learning how to shape-shift. Not that heās never done it before, but it was mainly in the line of duty. Learning how to ābeā different objects and lifeforms, to experience their essence, seems mysterious and untenable. He asks a lot of questions of the Founder to try to understand the nature of the Great Link, but her answers sound to him evasive and vague.
His fellow lost Changeling-child Laas gets Odo to expand his understanding of what a Changeling can be. He doesnāt have to be defined by the humanoid shape he walks around in most of the day, but Odo doesnāt have much practical use for changing forms multiple times in a day unless it serves his law-keeping purposes. He even derides the humanoid imagination in the episode where everyoneās fantasies are coming to life, which doesnāt surprise Quark at all.
Odoās Intuition usually serves to make him suspicious and paranoid, which is useful for a security officer but detrimental to his mental well-being. On the less aggressive side, he also gets caught up in linking and shape-shifting with the Female Founder, losing track of time when heās supposed to be helping Kira and her resistance. However, Odo twice becomes a parental figure to a member of the Dominionāonce to a lost JemāHadar child and once to a sick little baby Changelingāand he wishes very much to raise them differently from the abusive experiences he suffered, or from the expectations of their kind.
Ultimately, Odo proves more flexible than the other Changelings in one key pointāaccepting non-shapeshifters and their differences as good rather than something to be feared.
Itās this tiny change in one shape-shifter that ends the war and saves the galaxy.
When typing the Vulcans of The Original Series, I observed that most of them are ISTJs. The orderliness, logic, and composure commonly associated with the type just suits them. Turns out our two favorite Klingons are also Si-doms, and Worf and Martok find ways to tear apart their typesā expectations with a fury.
Martok has worked long and hard to get where he is. He comes from a lower-class, ācommonerā background, and never forgets it. He was the first in his family to apply for officer training, but he was rejected thanks to a negative vote from the legendary Kor, who believed that those without noble blood should not be allowed in the ranks of officers. Martok holds this against Kor for the rest of his life, and refuses to speak to the man when he joins his crew for one last mission.
Martok had to work as a common day laborer due to his rejection, but he never gave up his original plan to become an officer. He served as an orderly on a Klingon warship and finally earned a field commission from his General when they fought invading Romulans. Sadly, Martokās father had died by the time he accomplished this, and Martok carried that sore spot with him as well, nursing his grudge against Kor.
Over the years, Martok became an experienced and skilled strategist. He rose through the ranks and attained the position of right-hand man to the Chancellor himself, Gowron. He was briefly replaced by a Changeling, and spent at least a year in a Dominion internment camp.
During this imprisonment, Martok loses an eye in one of his daily sparring matches with the JemāHadar. He also loses his edge, and worries that heāll never set foot on a Klingon ship again. Once heās free, he feels that his captivity has dulled his senses.
It takes a while for Martok to get his footing and his old instincts back. He decides not to replace his missing eye, keeping the scar as a badge of honor, to remember what the JemāHadar did to him. He also keeps his fearāvery un-Klingon of himābelieving that due to his past experiences, only he truly understands and appreciates the danger that the JemāHadar represent.
He takes command of an old Bird-of-Prey called the Rotarran, whose crew is beat up and defeated, and canāt shake off his own malaise. Heās looping a bit, afraid of facing his fears by encountering the JemāHadar again. It takes a butt-kicking from Worf and a few successful battles under his belt for Martok to feel like his old warrior self again.
Even as Martok gains status in the Klingon Defense Force during the war, he keeps the Rotarran as his flagship based on the memorable victories he won with it and its crew.
At the end of the war, Worf deposes the reckless Gowron and installs Martok as the new Chancellor, based on his years of experience and service.Ā Martok balks at taking the mantle, as heās never forgotten the humble roots he came from. Heās a common Klingon warrior. To Worf, that makes him the perfect leader.
When Martok first takes command of the Rotarran, heās looping, and out of touch with his Te. He uses it ineffectively and bluntly, much like someone in an inferior Te-grip, demanding compliance with unclear orders, bullying and berating his crew, and threatening them with charges of treason if they question him. Heās deeply disappointed at the poor service record of the ship and crew, as they have grown incapable and defeated after months of losing battles.
Worf challenges Martokās command competency, and the two of them duel on the bridge. Worf almost bests him, but he sees the fire return in Martok, and he lets him win. Now Martok feels like a commander again, and he pulls the crew together for a victorious fight.
Martokās still a strict disciplinarian, though. He throws a subordinate off the upper level of the Promenade just to teach him a lesson, and almost gets locked up in the stationās brig for it. Worf argues to Odo and Sisko that the General is perfectly within keeping of Klingon disciplinary structures, and they let him off with a warning.
When Nog stands up to Martok and his unruly men, Martok marvels in the little Ferengiās show of confidence, and gives him respectāand spaceāfrom thereon.
While still a traditional Klingon, Martok isnāt as caught up in the formality of ritual like the ISFJ Worf. Theyāre both Si-dom, but with different Extraverted Judging functions in the auxiliary position. Martok lets Worf go through the motions of the chants and songs as the Rotarran launches, but he really just wants to get on with the job.
Once Martok becomes the liaison between the Klingon forces and Starfleet on DS9, he finds to his dismay that his job involves a lot of paperwork. Howās that for a non-stereotypical ISTJ? Martok prefers direct action, not busywork behind a desk.
When they make it to Cardassia in the final push against the Dominion, Martokās Starfleet and Romulan comrades stand dismayed at the destruction. Martok, however, wishes to celebrate the victory with bloodwine. This is satisfaction for a job well done.
Tertiary Function: (Fi) Introverted Feeling, āThe Deep Wellā
Martok discovers a special bond with Worf during their imprisonment. Itās a moment Worf describes as tovaādok, a kind of spark of understanding between warriors. Martok coaches Worf to keep fighting during their imprisonment, and later appoints him his first officer on the Rotarran based on the trust theyāve built.
Eventually, Martok adopts Worf into his house, letting him take the name of Martok and regain his social standing in the Empire.
Martok has a fiery relationship with his wife Sirella, a majestic, formidable ESTJ. No one can quite understand how they work, not even Martok himself. He only knows that as tough a warrior as he tries to be, his honor leaves him lonely without someone to share his victories with.
Martok wonāt let go of his grudge against Kor, and initially refuses to explain his emotional reaction to the Dahar Masterās presence on his ship. It is a matter of personal honor (whereas Worf, the Fe-user, is typically concerned with the honor that others will see). Even seeing Kor lose his honor as his mind deteriorates doesnāt satisfy him. After Kor goes out in a blaze of glory, Martok salutes his victory, but will not sing along with the other warriors in his honor.
As a young warrior, Martok hoped for a better position in life than what he was born into, and fought to attain the rank of officer, which by all past tradition should have been out of his reach.
When he returns to command after his imprisonment, Martok has developed fearful and paranoid anxieties about the enemy he faces. Overcautious, he repeatedly orders the ship away from possible confrontation, citing various negative outcomes if they try to engage the JemāHadar. He grows pessimistic about the possibility of success, deciding without evidence that there can be no survivors on the ship theyāve come to find. Heās distrustful of his crew, and most of all himself.
To be a warrior again, he has to embrace the unknown possibilities of striking out into battle. Afterwards, he offers Worf a new beginning by becoming his brother.
When heās being tended to by Doctor Bashir for battle training injuries, he gets fed up with Bashirās worry. An inch or two this way or that, and Martok could have lost another eye or severed an artery. The old Klingon grumbles: āThe human fascination with what might have been grows tiresome. The artery is not severed, and I am not dead.ā
Martok is very much alive, despite everything, at the end of the saga. In fact, heās wearing the robes of Chancellor of the Klingon Empire. It was not an outcome he expected, but it is a chance for the Empire to renew itself after generations of corruption.
ISTJ: Miles OāBrien,Ā āStar Trek: TNG/Deep Space Nineā
ISTJ ā the Inspector, the Trustee, the Steward
Chief OāBrien was dubbed DS9ās Everyman character, one the writers could throw into any manner of weird and wild adventure and see how he bore up. Since the ISTJ is the most abundant personality type in MBTI theory, the role makes a good fit. Whether facing temporal anomalies on TNG, or bumpy-headed aliens on DS9, the Chief brings a down-to-Earth perspective to a far-out place.
Chief Petty Officer Miles OāBrien has a long record of service with Starfleet. His early assignments directed the path of his later career, moving from tactical to engineering, and then specializing in transporter operations after he performed a nifty trick to beam his crew out of an emergency. While heās humble about his own accomplishments, heās proud to be part of the established institution of Starfleet. He also boasts of his Irish lineage, as it includes a king and a union leader.
OāBrien experienced a great deal of combat as a young enlisted man during the Cardassian Border Wars. In court, heās counted as an expert witness based on the number of combat missions heās run, and the recognition heās received. As steady and useful as the Chief is in such situations, he doesnāt love his memories of being a soldier.
The war colored OāBrienās view of Cardassians for the rest of his life. He frequently calls them āCardies,ā and heās slow and stubborn to trust any of them he meets. Even the Cardassian war orphan who stays with the OāBriens only bonds with Miles after they realize they both dislike Cardassian food. The Chief witnessed the many atrocities the Cardassians committed, but he tells one Cardassian that what he truly hates is what he became because of themāa killer, even if it was in combat.
One good thing that came from his war experienceāwhen his old captain goes rogue, OāBrien is able to talk him down partly by singing their old battle songs together.
OāBrienās favorite place on the Enterprise is Transporter Room 3, where he serves most of his time. When the anxious Barclay starts freaking out about using the transporter, OāBrien is quick to recite the solid safety record of transporter technology. Later, he introduces Barclay to his pet spider, which he keeps in memory of the time he had to overcome his arachnophobia to crawl into a tunnel full of spiders and make repairs.
OāBrien gets the post on DS9 partly thanks to his previous experience with Cardassian technology during the war. Heās not thrilled with the state of things on the station, and frequently wishes he had access to reliable Federation technology, but he has the Si-domās persistence of sticking with the work until itās done. Once heās jerry-rigged everything to work properly, the station becomes the Chiefās domain, and only he really knows how to keep it functioning.
OāBrienās a meat-and-potatoes kind of guy, a traditional family man, and a working class engineer with no desire to move up into the ranks of officers. Thus, the many trials and tortures he suffers in his years on DS9 constantly test his resilience. He always manages to come out of them with his basic nature intact.
The exception is when heās implanted with 20 years of prison memories that feel so real he has a hard time re-adapting to his old life. The environment may have been false, but the violent actions he took to survive feel, to Miles, authentic and damning. It takes the love and care of his wife Keiko and best friend Julian to keep him from killing himself, and to convince him heās still the man he was before.
OāBrien gets back up and gets on with life, able to survive whatever the universe throws at him.
The Chief is happiest when he has work to keep him busy, and the broken-down DS9 provides plenty. He has classic Starfleet engineer workaholic tendencies, and doesnāt know how to put down the technical manuals even when heās on vacation with his wife. Heās straightforward and honest in his approach to his workānone of this fudging his estimates like a certain famous Miracle Worker. He can be a little by-the-book sometimes, as when he scolds Ensign Ro for dumping raw phaser power into a computer console to get it working in a crisisāa perfect clash of impetuous Ti-Se versus cautious Si-Te.
Still, the Chief never fails to get the job done in spite of all the difficulties he complains about.
OāBrien sports a certain dry sarcasm, born from his realistās perspective, that rears up most often in contrast to his Extraverted Feeler friend Dr. Bashir. He gets especially testy with Julian when itās revealed that the good doctor was genetically engineered, and thus had been letting him win at darts all these years. Miles wants to win legitimately, based on his ability, but that means making Julian stand a few feet farther back from the board.
Like many a high-spirited Te-user, Miles plays as hard as he works. Whether itās darts or raquetball, heās highly competitive, especially against Julian. In his free time, he hits the rapids on the holodeck, and repeatedly dislocates his shoulder doing so. Itās a very un-cautious, un-Si-dom thing to do, but he tells Julian he canāt stay away from the challenge.
OāBrien has little patience with more emotional approaches to life, which again makes him clash with Julian. When theyāre stranded with a group of rogue JemāHadar, Bashir feels compelled to help them overcome their addiction to the chemical that keeps them enslaved. OāBrien doesnāt trust the JemāHadarāagain, based on reliable past experienceāand insists their focus should be on the more practical matter of escaping and leaving these guys behind to their fate.
On a later joint mission with the JemāHadar, OāBrien witnesses their pre-battle speech, about victory bringing life because they are dead until they win the fight.
The Chief gives the Starfleet people a pep talk of his own:
āMy name is Miles Edward OāBrien. I am very much alive, and I intend to stay that way.ā
Tertiary Function: (Fi) Introverted Feeling, āThe Deep Wellā
The Chiefās honestly not great in situations requiring emotional sensitivity. Heāll bitch and moan, and possibly explode, when too many things go wrong. Heās both brittle and stubborn with Cardassians, for whom he harbors deep resentment and prejudice. He constantly finds his patience tested by his begrudging friendship with Dr. Bashir, and he bickers with his wife Keiko so much it seems thatās all they ever do. Heās private and doesnāt like discussing his feelingsāespecially not to a shipās counselorāuntil a talk with the ill-fated Captain Cusack inspires him to give a very serious, but very heart-felt speech to his friends at her eulogy.
For all the storms in their relationship, Miles and Keiko are probably a match because of their headstrong personalities. In separate episodes, they both show themselves willing to risk it all when the other is possessed by an alien entity (this happens often to Starfleet people), and OāBrien is at his most soft and tender when enjoying his family. When a telepathic mishap causes the DS9 crew to act out on their latent sexual attractions, Miles and Keiko wonder why nothing happened to them.
Miles says of their attraction to each other: āThereās nothing ālatentā about it.ā
Interestingly, the Chief is the one to give Fe-user Worf advice on how to go easier on the engineering crew. Worfās formality makes him rigid and stern, while OāBrienās humility and practicality make him more suited to running a team of non-coms and technicians. Miles wants to be known as a good man, and he believes in the ideals of Starfleet even if he doesnāt stand up and preach them like his captains. This is why it hurts him so badly when heās arrested and accused of terrorism by the Cardassians, or driven to suicide by his experiences in prison.
OāBrien achieves most of his emotional growth by gradually opening up to Bashir. The doctorās incessant Fe-dom pestering makes them instant adversaries from the beginning, but after sharing many adventures together, they develop mutual respect. OāBrien eventually admits that, in some ways, he loves Julian as much as his wife, and enjoys their time together more.
(The Chiefās many outbursts and emotional misunderstandings with his loved ones, as well as his developing openness with Julian, often made me think that he was inferior-Fe. His strong Si and obvious lack of Ni kept me from typing him as an ISTP).
OāBrienās an engineer, not a theorist. When asked hypothetical questions in court about the battle in question, he gets irritated. It didnāt happen that way, so whatās the point of speculating?
When heās sent skipping back and forth through time by a temporal anomaly, he figures out the moment-by-moment actions he needs to take, but thinking too much about the paradoxes of his situation makes him complain, āI hate temporal mechanics.ā
By his own admission, the Chief misses the forest for the trees when the creature possessing Keiko assigns him a list of seemingly random adjustments to make around the station. It takes the Ne-user Rom to realize what all the re-calibrations will result in.
However, Miles has an enthusiastic playful side, as proven by his many holosuite escapades with Julian. The boys go all out, dressing up in full costumes to recreate many a historicāand tragicābattle. Theyāre the ones who get everyone roped into Vicās in the first place.
Miles is willing to change when necessary. Like another famous Star Trek ISTJ, he disappointed his father by joining Starfleet instead of taking the expected path. He talks himself into being more tolerant when he advocates to a Cardassian war-orphanās father the value of an open mind. He takes the job on DS9 despite the disruption to his life, and applies his imagination to many an engineering problem. He eagerly leaves his time as a soldier in the past, and works to be, as one Vorta put it, āOne of those famed Starfleet engineers who can turn rocks into replicators.ā
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ISTJ: Michael Eddington,Ā āStar Trek: Deep Space Nineā
ISTJ ā the Inspector, the Steward, the Trustee
Eddington undergoes a major character switch when he becomes a villain. After a couple of years serving quietly in the background, he jumps ship (or station, as it were), and goes rogue. Heās more aggressive and dramatic as a crusading Maquis than he was as a law-abiding Starfleet officer, leading me to believe heās operating out of his lower functions when he makes the change. Eddington sees himself as the hero of his own story, but to Starfleet and Sisko, heās a terrorist.
At first, Eddington seems like a good old-fashioned, reliable Starfleet officer. He joined with the ambition of being a captain, like everyone else, but ended up in security. That department doesnāt typically lead to command, but he still stuck to his job and did it well. Sisko asks him why he doesnāt just transfer over to the command division, but Eddington doesnāt seem interested in a big change at this point.
Of course, that could just be because he has other things brewing.
Eddington eventually reveals himself as a leader in the Maquis, a terrorist group dedicated to protecting Federation colonists left behind in Cardassian territory after new borders are drawn. The Maquis, and Eddington, donāt believe they should have to leave their homes for any reason. Though theyāre offered many alternatives, they hold their ground and refuse to leave no matter how poor their living conditions grow.
Eddington appreciates the real, hand-grown, fresh food he raises and eats as a Maquis. He doesnāt like the taste of replicated food, and recognizes the exact menu selection heās given as a prisoner. His whole existence as a Maquis feels more natural to him than his outward presentation as a Starfleet officer.
On the run from Sisko, Eddington relates their entire cat-and-mouse game to his favorite book, Les Miserables. Heās the persecuted Valjean, and Siskoās the obsessive Javert. He makes Sisko read the book to understand his perspectiveāand Sisko plays along, doing all the villainous things Eddington expects of him until Eddington surrenders.
Once the Maquis are wiped out by the Dominion, Eddington feels he has nothing left to lose. He grows nihilistic and cynical and sits around waiting to die. Sisko tests his death-wish, and Eddington comes around long enough to help him out on one last mission.
He keeps a family heirloom, a two-hundred-year-old āLucky Loonieā coin from Canada, as a good luck token, though he seems to have left it behind when he defected.
His last word when he goes out in a blaze of glory is the name of his wife.
Eddington is originally assigned to DS9 to provide greater Starfleet control and influence over security operations. This means getting in Odoās way a lot, although he means no hard feelings about itāitās just his job. He has the same attitude when he sabotages the Defiant under orders from a Starfleet admiral. Heās just doing his duty, stopping the Defiant from carrying out a mission they were ordered not to do, and heās very careful not to cripple the ship entirely. Once OāBrien fixes the sabotage, Eddington actually continues serving on the bridge, dutifully fulfilling his function.
Eddington self-sacrificially performs his service as an officer, which probably leads to his discontent over the years. He promises to Sisko that heās willing to escort a high-ranking ambassador off the bridge against his will if his duty calls for it. He stays behind in the Defiantās Engineering to help Jadzia prevent a warp core breach even though heās badly burnedāin fact heās the last officer to leave the scene after the problem is fixed.
Despite his apparent low-key nature, Eddington admits upon Siskoās promotion that he is a man obsessed with rank and title. When he defects, he in effect gets his own promotion, going from humble security officer to a sort of general in the Maquis, a man respected and followed by many. He feels personally responsible for not being there to lead his people when theyāre attacked by the Dominion.
Eddington engineers a masterful heist when he defects, making off with a shipment of industrial replicators for the Maquis, while diverting suspicion, and the crew, to Kasidy Yates.
Tertiary Function: (Fi) Introverted Feeling, āThe Deep Wellā
Even Sisko admits once heās gone, that although Eddington was a traitor to Starfleet, he was loyal to what he believed in. Eddington sees the Maquisā cause as noble and pure, and anyone who opposes it as on the wrong side of the fight. He feels no guilt for the civilian ships or populations they destroy, as he has a very similar stance to Kiraās āall Cardassians (or Starfleet officers) are guiltyā speech.
In his Starfleet life, Eddington pretends to have no strong conviction about the Maquis. Just before he springs his trap, he still claims to be solely devoted to his Starfleet duty, only chasing down Maquis because thatās his assignment. Everyone believes him because thatās just the kind of guy he is.
Strangely, Eddington introduces himself when he first arrives on the station as āhere to make friends.ā Not a typical Fi-user statement, but he really does seem to be a simple, friendly person who wants to do right by his jobāand that means being friends with his co-workers. After he defects, he accuses Sisko of being driven by ego, but itās hard to deny that Eddington seems to have gotten a little worn out with playing nice and normal all the time.
Eddingtonās clever and wily, and anticipates every contingency for his heist, planning an escape route and leaving bugs in the computers. He pretends to have no desire to leave prison to help Sisko, waiting until heās dragged out of jail to go on the mission, just so Sisko wonāt suspect that he actually wants to go so he can see his wife again. And heās plenty creative in his old job too, like when he problem-solves in the moment by beaming the crew into holosuite characters after a transporter accident.
Eddington explains that he was once loyal to the uniform like Sisko, but he began questioning everything he believed after seeing the Federationās treatment of the Maquis. He dramatically compares the Federation to the Borg, who assimilate others and expect everyone to play along. He aggrandizes his crusade, playing up his own mythos and tragedy, and Sisko calls out his ambitious desire to lead soldiers in glorious, doomed battle.
Eddington gets what he wanted in the end, dying in a flurry of enemy weapons fire while defending his people, fulfilling his fantasy of martyrdom.
(My main theory for Eddington is that he lived dutifully out of the top of his functional stack for most of his life, before the stress of seeing his home abandoned and abused forced him into his lower functions as a response. You could read him just the opposite, I suppose, as a meek Perceiver who was just waiting for the right cause to be a crusader. His Fi seems more strident to me, though, in a way that Iāve seen in other ISTJs who hit upon a sudden moral realization about something late in life.)
Do you ever get an inferior Ne (also maybe dom Si related??) identity crisis, like "Maybe my personality isn't this at all. Maybe my actual motivations are ... and I'm only this way in front of people. Or maybe I'm actually...," etc, because I know I do.
Yes, yes, yes!
I think especially with Fe, it can be hard to tell if what I feel is my identity versus how I feel and act around others. Itās not that Iām *fake* around others, but itās, it feels different?
Then, I think Si makes it so easy for me to just insert myself wherever I can in whatever system and identify with it. Iāve learned about myself that structure is a necessity, and I must find my place in one. In a way, Iām not the same person I am in the school year as I am during the summer.
But I donāt think who I am significantly changes. There is an identity I have. I just have NO idea what it is. I canāt see myself. Being close with me means that Iāll reveal my less-than-good feelings with you along with the ways Iām comfortable presenting to just about anyone (thereās layers, really, but Iām getting off topic), but not through words, or telling you how I feel. Iāll send you posts, song lyrics⦠Iām constantly searching for something to relate to so I can say āI think this is meā and then someone else goes and says āyes it isā.
As for intentions, Iām always doubting them unless itās something Iām used to being decisive about, because then Iāve made the same decision a dozen times and I know why. With new things, if it seems illogical, I doubt if Iām just doing something stupid to indulge my feelings in. If it seems even the slightest to lack feeling, I wonder if Iām being heartless.
Honestly, I think the best way to āsolveā (itās not the best word but itās what Iām going with) all this is to be expressive, honest, and have people you can relate to, be open with, who will help you grow. To keep that contact constant (to a certain extent), even if it can seem draining at times, really, at least for me, makes things keep running forward in my head, instead of reverting to doubt. I donāt think itās *ignoring* feeling a certain way by surrounding myself with people, but more knowing how I thrive and realizing that that way, things make more sense, including myself to myself. Itās so easy to doubt and overthink when youāre thinking over everything all the time. Sometimes you just need to see what you need and involve yourself in those things.
Iām not sure if this is anywhere close to what you meant, or if my problems are at all relative to what youāre going through. If you ever want to specify further, ask me any specific advice, you may send another ask or message me :)
That Si-Dom feel when Nextbus isn't working right and is listing the scheduled time for the next bus to work. But you know that the bus always arrives 7 minutes early. Sure enough it does but you left early to catch it!