#romo apl

Cause like I sometimes think about her saying she wants to date me but like maybe that’s because I don’t know how to do friendship (haha aplatonic)

I know I just want a girlfriend (or preferably a non binary partner) like I am hot no one wants me right now tho

Fuck

Every time a feel consistent platonic feelings it borders romantic feelings

I think am just a freak

I like being aplatonic tho it puts a lot less stress on being bad at friendship because of my autism because I know that I don't feel Platonic attraction for them and I don't like having a lot of in person friends I might be better off as having one irl friend and mostly being friendsless

They asked "what does being aplatonic and loveless mean and what is your experience"

I think I have made several post about being loveless and aplatonic but those are old posts and I post a lot

Anyways

Aplatonic means little to no platonic attraction or platonic feelings

It doesn't always mean you don't have or want friends but it can

Aplatonic is a spectrum just like all other aspec labels

My experience is not everyone's experience

Now for basic definition of loveless

Loveless is a term anyone can use even if you are not aspec or even queer

Loveless means you feel disconnected from love as a concept for any reason

You can be repulsed by the word love

But you can also be loveless and sometimes say Iove you to people

I personally am a mix of these two statements

I pretty much only love a few people

And that doesn't make those people special or the one

In one of those people is my younger sister so that would be incest

Anyways I don't feel love often

But that doesn't mean I don't care about people and I'm a very social and kind person

I just don't feel anything in my heart for my most people

The main attractions I feel are sexual and sometimes romantic

And familial attraction for my younger sister

I feel care for people as a whole and some people in my life

For me care and love are not the same thing

Love is a feeling

Care is a set of behaviors

I don't feel love very often but I do care a lot about the people I like in my life

I don't usually like it when people besides my parents and siblings say the words I love you

It makes me grossed out and anxious because I probably can't love them and I definitely don't love them as much they do

Sometimes I love the person I'm dating but usually I don't for a long time

But I still feel attraction to my partners usually mostly sexual with alterous or romantic mixed in

But sexual attraction is the first attraction I feel for partners

I am mostly allosexual

I experience sexual love for my online friend (Emma)

Sexual love is like being in love but instead of romantically it's sexually

Like I love them because I want to fuck them

Sexual love and family love are the main two types of I feel

I feel the most sexual love

If I think you are sexy and someone flirts with me and keeps talking to me

And I say I'm in love it's sexual not romantic

If you can't tell I'm aromantic allosexual and aplatonic

Now on to the aplatonic side of things

I don't want to have the number of friends I have it is way too many

And it's overwhelming

I feel grossed out when people I don't know call me friend because I'm aplatonic and don't usually seek out friends they mostly come to me

I'm a people magnet lol

I would be happier if I had a small polycule instead of a friend group because I don't like having a friend group because I'm aplatonic and don't usually feel Platonic attraction

Having more than one close friend is hard for me because I'm aplatonic and autistic

I feel like I'm supposed to love my friends but to be honest I don't

I would not mind if I drifted apart from most of them and only had her (the girl I make posts about)

I just don't feel attachments to most of them because I'm loveless and aplatonic