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We already know he’s a loser with a bunch of sock puppets kissing his own ass but this still got a chuckle out of me.
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"People who have no friends are a red flag!!111!!1!"
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I wish I had real friends. I wanna hang out in someone's bedroom. I want someone to randomly call me. I want to get a text when I'm bored at home that they're parked outside my house. I want to be surprised on my birthday. I want to be taken to a random parking lot in the middle of the night when we're getting rowdy. I want to be invited to lunch on weekends. I wish I mattered that much to anyone.
The feeling when someone texts you
no friends in hell
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APPLE SPEC BLINKIES MASTERPOST!!!!
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parts 1, 2, 3, & 4 (& 5)
[ID: stamps of aplatonic and a-spectrum flags. in order, they're aplatonic, aplatonic spectrum, a-spec (inclusive), happy friendless, beach aplatonic, beach aplatonic (alternative), poison aplatonic, poison (alternative), friendless, and loveless. /end ID]
[ID: unanimated & blank blinkies of the aplatonic, a-spec, loveless, and friendless flags. they each have a dotted, blue and white border. /end ID]
[ID: titled versions of the previous blinkies. in order, it's "loveless <2" with a loveless and a-spec flag, "aplatonic" and "aplatonic pride" with the aplatonic flag, "aspec" and "aspec pride" with the a-spec flag, and "aplspec" and "apple spec..." with the aplatonic flag /end ID]
[ID: titled versions of the previous blinkies, with the aplatonic and friendless aplatonic flags. they each say "friends? nah." "fuck friendship," and "don't need friends." /end ID]
One small thing about being a disabled autistic asocial and aplatonic person for me... Is being able to fill my social needs by watching really entertaining friend vlogs. Because in real life, social interaction is unpredictable and often becomes overstimulating very quickly.
I used to feel FOMO and jealousy over the vlogs I watched, until I had opportunities to have social hangouts like the ones I watched, and... I spent majority of my time feeling and behaving as an observer, rather than being an active participant. When i was participating, it was short lived, or on my terms (them joining my activity/convo, me dipping out 'randomly' to regulate, etc), because it was overstimulating or unpredictable. Even if I was excited and happy (which in my case, has always been coupled with mania), my excitement alone can cause overstimulation and dissociation.
I've always been the observer. For a long long time I internalized it as a bad thing, because I couldn't seperate my lack of participation with my isolation. But I don't think that way anymore.
Once my guilt and internalized shame about my needs were gone, I was left with a wave of calm. Its not like Im never going to try to talk to real people to meet my needs- it's simply me accepting that watching other people be social is an okay way for me to fill my own social needs.
Being intimate with others is overstimulating. Being friends is overstimulating and unpredictable. Relationships are overstimulating. Attraction itself is overstimulating. That's partially why I'm greyanaesthetic (if not fully anae), probably the only form of attraction i feel- even though i feel aesthetic attraction, the attraction itself becomes overstimulating and "implodes" on itself- basically, its presence alone is so strong that it shuts down and disappears.
i’m so tired of feeling utterly alone ✧𐬺𐬼☽
