Wondering if I might even be afamspec. Like, I know I love my close family (my sister and my parents, all with which I live), but when it comes to other people in my family… sure, I’d be sad if they were to pass, and I would certainly cry at their funeral/memorial, but that’s more because I’m thinking about death and how a person’s life was lost—how their presence was important to so many people around them—not as much because I’m thinking about how much I miss them. And I don’t consider my friends to be family, so there’s no room for familial attraction there. I mean, anyone who is in my family—blood-related or adopted—I consider family. But I don’t feel too particularly attached, I guess? Maybe it’s because I don’t see them much anymore? However, when I read posts about being afamspec, I feel this slight sense of excitement, but idk if that means I’m excited to learn something new in general about the overall aspec or that I’m excited to learn something new about myself. It’s difficult to distinguish between those two things. Maybe I’m grayfamilial? Demifamilial? Some other label under the afamspec umbrella? Hell, maybe I’m on the aspec for most—or even every—type of attraction or something. I might as well be, bc shit’s confusing, lol.
ETA: Forgot to mention that the only people I feel comfortable saying “I love you” to are my parents and kind of my sister (I don’t say it to her often so I’m not as used to it).
