drarry microfic (set in eighth year) ~ mixed signals
âYou came.â
âI did.â
Thereâs a disturbance in the air, and the head and torso of Harry Potter appears right in front of him. Draco shakes his head in disbelief, doesnât dare to let his own gaze linger at the other boy for too long. Harryâs wrists are exposed due to his sweater being one or two sizes too small, the moonlight shining through the window of the Astronomy Tower making his toned skin look almost pale. Somehow the sweater still looks baggy on him, making his wrists seem smaller than they are. Dracoâs breath hitches when Harry awkwardly runs a hand over his neck and his sweater rides up, exposing a little bit of skin above his waistline.
Draco turns his attention to the floor.
âYou fucking idiot. You absolute moron.â
âIâm sorry.â
âOh, for Merlinâs- donât be, Harry. Fuck. Youâre just so stupid.â
âThank you?â Harry laughs softly, and it sends a shiver down Dracoâs spine. The familiarity of that laugh forces him to look back up, and he watches Harry carefully. Harry doesnât hide the fact that heâs staring, too.
âYouâre sending rather mixed signals, you knowâ, he says after a beat of silence, and Draco blinks stupidly.
âSays youâ, he scoffs, and the way his voice breaks at the end might be what gives him away. Or perhaps Harry has memorised his every facial expression these last months, like how Draco knows Harryâs every frown, every smile, every laugh. What matters isnât what gives him away. What matters is that Harry is approaching him. Slowly and carefully. Merlin knows how much Draco needs him not to be careful right now. He needs the Harry he knows.
âSays me.â Harryâs smile is unbelievably soft. Draco had no idea that a smile could break down within him what no insults or curses could. Who would have known that someone doesnât have to be harsh and cruel to make Draco Malfoy feel things? Experience these odd little things called feelings?
âYou canât talk about mixed signals, Harry James Potterâ, he says, his voice fragile enough to barely carry but strong enough not to break. That bloody beautiful name leaves his lips in a voice quiet enough to be silenced by his exhale, and his lips tremble before being pressed together. But he canât stop the words now, and they force themselves out of his mouth like Harry keeps forcing himself back into Dracoâs life time and time again. âI told you weâre done, didnât I? I thought I made it pretty clear. Yet youâre here, stubborn as always, you git! What makes you think that our relationship is cancelled but our stargazing date is not?â
âYou never said it was cancelled, love.â
âDonât call me that.â
âOh, but I love seeing you flustered whenever I call you that, Draco. Look at you. Now whoâs the one giving mixed signals? You canât tell me Iâm a git and that weâre done while blushing like crazy and refusing to look at me.â
âI can, and I did.â
âHm. Cute.â Harry takes another step forward and lets his invisibility cloak fall to the floor. Itâs draped over his shoes, making them vanish and creating the illusion that heâs floating a few inches above the floor. Draco feels like he is floating. He must be floating. Maybe the breakup did kill him, and that wasnât just him imagining things, and now heâs a ghost doomed to haunt this very tower forever. The tower where he broke up with Harry beneath the stars. The tower where Harry is now back, where theyâre both together again, and Harry is staring at him with stars in his eyes. That shine makes up for the lack of stars outside, and Draco doesnât regret coming up here one bit, even though itâs cloudy and cold.
âHarry.â
âNo, I didnât come up here in a foolish attempt to win you back, Draco. I didnât think youâd be here. After all, you broke up with me. I didnât think thereâd still be a date.â
âThis isnât a date.â
âThen what are you doing here?â
Draco canât help but stare at the matte black mess that is Harryâs hair after he has just woken up. âThe same as you, probably. Except I didnât manage to fall asleep no matter how hard I tried, and you seem to have gotten at least a few minutes of sleep before you decided to take a late night stroll up here.â
Harry doesnât ask him how he knows it, just nods gravelly. âI dreamt of you.â
âHm. Cute.â
âNot quite, actually. I think I prefer the real version of you over dream-Draco. Heâs quite cruel, you know. Not very cute when the person you love is yelling at you, telling you that youâre worthless and a fool for falling for him.â
âIâm sorry.â
Thereâs silence, and then Harry snorts. âAre you seriously apologising for your actions in my dreams right now, Draco?â
He blushes furiously and looks away. âYeah. Sorry.â
âYou fucking idiot. You absolute fucking mess of a person.â
And before Draco can process whatâs going on, heâs being pulled into a tight hug. With his face full of unbrushed, black curls and a fist full of Gryffindor sweater, Draco can finally relax for the first time in days.
When they part many minutes later, the first thing Draco does is wipe the stupid tears out of his face with his sleeve, and he clears his throat awkwardly.
âSorry.â
âItâs okay, Draco.â
Once again the words come tumbling out of his mouth. âBut what if it isnât? What if dream-Draco was right, and youâre a fool for dreaming of me and wanting to be with me, and Iâm a fool for wanting you? What if I am a fucking idiot? What if thisââ He gestures at his puffy eyes and tear-streaked cheeks. ââ is who I am? And what if real Draco is out to hurt you? Without even knowing it. What if I hurt you, hurt you by breaking up with you again of fear of hurting you, and what if I just arenât good enough for you or right for you and what ifââ
âHow about I just cut you off right there?â Harry manages to put an end to the stream of words with one look. âThere. Now that youâre done talking nonsense â because you are done, I hope? â what do you think about the two of us finally making that stargazing date happen? Like, right now?â
Draco canât believe what heâs hearing. âPotter, did you even listen to anything I just said?â
âIndeed I did, and I came to the conclusion that it was all utter bullshit. Iâm not saying your feelings are though, and weâre going to have to have a talk about all of that. But not right now. Youâll feel better after we do something else, something fun to get your mind off of the bullshit! Trust me!â Harry beams at him before taking Dracoâs hand in his. âStargazing it is!â
âPotter, there are no stars to gaze at.â
âWhat? Oh. Yeah, you seem to be right about that. Blimey. Well, Astronomy Tower and all, I guess that leaves us with one option then.â Draco canât help but huff something that could be a laugh at the way Harry wiggles his eyebrows at him.
âRemind me again when and why I fell in love with you and your weirdness.â
âRemind me again if youâve ever outright told me that you love me before?â
âI, er, I donât think so. Sorry, I didnât mean toââ
âWell, you canât take it back now! This means youâre stuck with me forever, there is no escape!â
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Imagining Scully having to give Skinner a heads up that she and Mulder split up sometime after IWTB, and preemptively telling him not to go kill Mulder
Because I'm sure there was an implied "if you ever hurt her..." conversation at one point, and well... Scully got hurt. But she wants Skinner to know that Mulder hasn't been himself, and he's not well, so please just let him be, don't worry about it
In the two years since his break up with Hermione Granger, he's done rather well for himself. On the outside, at least. On the inside, he can't seem to shake the memory of her curls, her laugh, or the way she showed him what love was supposed to look like. One morning, after staying up all evening haunted by the life they had, and the future that eluded them, he finds a package on his front porch.
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words: 3.7k
tags: post-breakup, non-hea, petty hermione, slightly comedic, inspired by the song i bet you think about me by taylor swift & chris stapletonÂ
Characters/Pairings: Luka Couffaine, Marinette Dupain-Cheng; Luka Couffaine/Marinette Dupain-Cheng
Summary: Marinette has a date with a new beau, but sheâs a little nervous about the potential kissing aspect of said date. Â Luka doesnât think itâs very fair that she came to him for help.
Authorâs Notes/Warnings: Written for the 6/8-29/22 Sprint Challenge over at @lovebugs-and-snakecharmers, using the prompt: âLuka teaching Marinette how to kiss, and Marinette ends up kissing Luka really quick, nervously asks 'Like that?' and leaves Luka silent and flustered for a moment.â  I should be jumping straight into PH11, but after PH10âŠI said I wanted to give yâall smoochies.  And now Luka is in the corner pouting, refusing to cooperate until he gets them. Oops?  đ  (Thereâs nothing here beyond silliness and makeouts and maybe a smidgen of angst?)Â
âPracticeâ
âLikeâŠlike that?â
Luka was dreaming.
He had to be dreaming.
It took everything in him not to reach over and pinch his arm, just to make sure he wasnât actually dreaming.
Because Marinette was sitting on his bed next to him, her leg pulled up and bent between them, one of her hands gently gripping his shoulder to balance (and God, was it shaking or was that him?) as she leaned in.  She was so close, her warm, shaky breath fanning against his parted lips an almost painful reminder that she had just been so much closer.  She was watching him with nervous, glassy eyes, so bright and beautiful andâŠ
He wasnât breathing. Â Was he breathing? Â He wasnât sure if he was breathing.
He definitely wasnât reacting.
And he definitely hadnât been reacting just a second too long, judging by the nervous way she was nibbling on her lower lip (no no no that was his job now he wantedâŠ).  Judging by the way her face was starting to fall, her beautiful over-anxious, over-thinking brain clearly starting to spiral with all the ways she could have possibly messed this up, and he felt the breath he definitely wasnât breathing catch in his throat.  His hands moved without his permission, ghosting along her neck to slide up into her hair and thread his fingers through the tied-back strands.  He swallowed, his throat feeling dry and thick andâŠ
ââŠno,â he choked out, gently tugging her mouth back to his.  âLike this.â
âŠhow the hell had they wound up here, he thought desperately as she gave a startled little squeak seconds before his lips crashed down onto hers.
It's the incredibly talented @moonstruckwytch's birthday. Cor, you were one of my first fandom friends. You're as smart as you are generous, and I'm so glad to have met you.
You wrote me an absolutely lovely songfic for my birthday last year, and it only felt right to return the favor with a little ficlet. I was inspired by "I Hate When I Think About You" by Calvero. I hope you enjoy a bit of angst. with what I think is a hopeful ending. cw: post-breakup đđđ
Traffic lights blink at me and remind me of youâyour eyes, your House; but this is what I get for trying to drive away from my own brain. I used to think that speeding down the motorway at night, music blaring, was the best kind of escape. Now I know it was being with you that made me feel free.
Fuck. I thought this would be easier.
You don't cross my mind, so much as you've settled there like a thick fog that won't dissipate. I left you, and yet you've stayed in my consciousness ever since. I try to shake myself, to push you from my mind, to find refugeâto drive in search of clearer skies. And yet the haze remains.
Pansy says it'll get easier, that time heals. But this persistent grief screams for urgency, for immediate relief, and I have to grip the wheel tightly to keep myself from speeding toward the nearest exit and not taking my foot off the gas pedal until I'm in front of your house.
Would you open the door? Would you roll your eyes and say, "Took you long enough, you git," and make me a cup of tea? Would you let me back into your life? Clear the fog and look for funny shapes in the clouds with me instead?
Maybe one day I'll gather the courage. I'll reach out and find your hand ready to hold onto mine, pressing the keys into my palm. And we can drive away together.
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A letter that was never supposed to be sent gets delivered to the addressee, which might be just enough for two souls two find each other again. (Modern AU, Famous Jaskier, Post-Break Up). AO3
Jaskier,
Tonight is warm, without a single cloud in the sky. Earlier, I gazed at the milky way and a memory returned, of how the same stars watched us together six years ago.
I remember how we looked back at them, pointed to all the constellations we knew. How we talked about the wonders of the cosmos and waxed philosophical about the flow of the universe. We lay on a blanket in the back garden. We didnât have another one to cover us because it was a summer night.
Above all, I remember the way your gentle voice resonated in the silence that surrounded us, how I loved every note of it, how I thought that if your voice was the last thing I heard then Iâd die a happy man.
I remember exactly how you sounded when you said, âI wish I could marry you.â
âWhat?â I choked out.
You hid your face in the crook of my neck and only whispered, âGeralt.â
Your voice wavered and my heart broke too. I kissed you because that was the only apology I could think of.
I remember the weight of you on top of me. I remember the way you touched me and how we made love right there, under the open sky. The memory of us is intertwined with the stars themselves, and I remember all of it.
The three months you spent at this house in the countryside, when I wasnât afraid to hold your hand when we took long walks outside through the meadows and woods. When we cooked together, went grocery shopping to town, woke up and fell asleep together. I watched you sleep for a while in the mornings and I could not believe that this was not a dream.
Little did I know that I indeed lived in a dream back then, for those twelve weeks taken out of time. In the grand scheme of things, three months means nothing. It was everything to me. I allowed myself to be selfish and have you all to myself because then and there, I wasnât just an awkward martial artist from the middle of nowhere and you werenât an internationally famous musician. We were just us, fully comfortable with each other and as prone to silliness as in our teenage years.
The outside world didnât matter for a short time but thereâs no running from it, in the end.
Your beautiful eyes glistened with tears the whole day before you left on tour and I convinced myself that this would be for the better. I couldnât give you what you wanted. I couldnât withstand all that came with being your partner. You deserved someone who didnât get panic attacks at the thought of accompanying you to any event.
In some ways, I still uphold that I did the right thing. The world needed to witness you, needed your talent, and Iâm glad that I didnât keep you from it. I know you wouldâve dropped everything if Iâd asked you to but I couldnât have done that to you. The sad truth of us is that you wouldnât have been happy with me in the long run, considering the man I was.
Iâve changed since you left. I started going to therapy, got on medication and qualified for a service dog. Her name is Roach. She is strong when I canât be and helps me calm whenever my anxiety gets the better of me, but itâs rare nowadays. I can function normally and my career as a martial artist has finally taken off.
Iâve started a family, too, with Yennefer. We lasted four rocky years. I love her but weâre better off apart. We did one thing right, though â adopted a daughter. Cirilla was ten when we got her. She called me âDadâ a year later, which was two years ago. On that day, I cried for the first time since Iâd returned home without you after driving you to the airport.
Iâm much more in touch with my emotions now. Years of therapy have taught me how to work through them. Writing has been helping me with that too. Iâve written some works but I donât think anyone would want to publish them. I think my stuff is good but itâs not something that would necessarily sell.
Thatâs no matter. Iâve got other achievements, like my gold medal in karate for Kaedwen in the last international sports championship. I remember when I stood on top of that podium last year, I thought to myself that this was finally it.
That Iâm finally a man who deserves to stand by your side.
Everything Iâve done in those years apart is for you, Jaskier. Iâve been trying to face my fears, understand my inner world and find my words with the thought of you on my mind. Six years and there hasnât been a day that I didnât think of you. Of how it felt to hold you in my arms, how expressive your face was, how the love I saw in your gaze almost brought me to my knees every time I saw it.
There are moments like now, when the house is quiet and Iâm alone in my bedroom, and I allow myself to wonder: do you think of me too? Itâs arrogant of me to assume that you do, but I sometimes like to think that what we had meant to you as much as it meant to me. Such a large part of my past has you in it: our childhood friendship that bloomed again at a high school reunion, growing closer over the phone, trying to take it slow while I accompanied you on a tour, then the weeks we spent at my family home here. So many years that led to me breaking your heart because I was a fucking mess and a coward.
Other times, I hope that it doesnât matter to you at all. I pray that the pain I caused you has long faded and become insignificant. Itâs been six years of longing for you but I deserve to find that youâve grown indifferent. For breaking your heart, I deserve to know that youâre well over it, that you donât need me in any way to be happy.
I wish I wasnât still a coward. I wish I had the strength to reach out to you and find out just that â to hear your voice in the speaker and find that youâre happy. You do seem so in the interviews, which I sometimes watch when I miss you too much, though I never dared to listen to you sing. The songs on the radio found me anyway. The lyrics about stars were a deserved blow.
I so wish Iâd been braver, Jaskier. I wish I had been brave enough to see a way for me to still be with you. I wish Iâd had the courage to try therapy sooner. I wish Iâd let myself have you more.
I wish you asked me to marry you again, too, because I would say yes.
Fuck, Iâm such a fool to be even considering this. I have no right to your love anymore.Â
The letter cuts off here, clearly unfinished. A tear falls onto the paper and sinks into it, causing its surface to wrinkle. Itâs not Geraltâs or Jaskierâs â another person has just become involved.
Very involved, in fact.
***
Her heart beats wildly in her chest with fear, victory, and fear of victory too. It almost seems too good to be true: sheâs standing in line at a meet and greet with the singer Jaskier with her Mum, and the letter with an added note containing her Dadâs phone number is tucked safely into an inner pocket of her denim jacket. Her mother scrutinizes her, noticing her nervousness, and Ciri fights the urge to squirm.
Both her parents were surprised when she announced that she wished to meet Jaskier in person. She said that it was because she loved his music and managed to uphold this lie, despite their suspiciousness. She couldnât give up â sheâs been planning this for months, ever since finding that letter while rummaging through her Dadâs desk in a desperate search for paper because she needed to print out a school assignment urgently.
Initially, she didnât manage to get a ticket to this event; they were sold out in ten minutes. Fortunately, her Mum had enough connections to secure a place for them here anyway. The meet and greet is also taking place while her Dad is away to train. It all fell into place perfectly, really.
This was meant to happen, Ciri tries to convince herself as theyâre about to stand face to face with the famous Jaskier. Sheâs doing what needs to be done, she repeats the mantra in her head as the bodyguards lead her and her Mum to where Jaskier awaits. The melancholy about her Dad, which has always been there, might not be in his nature after all.
Thereâs sadness about Jaskier too, she notices. His face is expressive indeed, and it shows some undeniable hints of heartache as he looks at Ciri and Yennefer approaching him. Yet, he flashes them a bright smile anyway.
Ciriâs resolve falters for a moment because the man makes her bashful, of all things. Heâs broad and tall, handsome, dressed to impress, and has a warm but captivating presence. The combination of charisma and kindness he radiates is intimidating and Ciri finds herself tongue-tied.
âHello, Yennefer,â he greets Mum politely.
âHello, Julian,â she replies in that imperious way of hers, like a queen receiving due honours.
Jaskier only smirks at that tone. Directing his attention to Ciri, he says, âThis is your daughter, then.â
âYes,â Mum replies, putting an arm around her shoulders.
âCiri, isnât it?â Jaskier asks.
Ciri can only nod dumbly, struck by the realisation that her Mum and Jaskier mustâve talked before this.
âIâm delighted to meet you,â Jaskier says and smiles like he means it.
He looks at her with fondness that seems so genuine even though he doesnât know her. âI... â she begins, then trails off. His gaze is so affectionate.
If he looked at Dad in a similar way, she understands why he loves this man.
Suddenly overwhelmed with what she knows about the depth of her fatherâs feelings for Jaskier, Ciri cannot bear the secret anymore. With her heart in her throat, she pulls out the envelope. âI have something for you.â
Jaskier grins, happy like a beam of sunshine, and takes it from her. âYou wrote me a letter? How wonderful, thank you!â
âNo,â she clarifies, way too loudly in her anxiousness, âItâs a letter from my Dad. From Geralt.â
Jaskier gasps audibly. His eyes grow wide as he stares at the letter heâs holding, rendered speechless.
âCirilla,â Mum says sharply. âWhat have you done?â
âItâs important, Mama,â she defends herself weakly. âItâs important,â she repeats to Jaskier and pleads, âPlease keep it safe. Please donât give it to anyone. Please, itâs too important.â
The singer watches her for a moment, silent and serious, then gives a solemn nod and puts the envelope into an inner pocket of his floral Gucci jacket. Ciriâs whole body sags in relief. For a blissful second, she basks in success, but then a hand grasps her arm in a vicious grip.
âWhat is the meaning of this?â Mum demands.
âI â I had to,â she stutters, âDad wouldâve never sent it, he wouldâve never said a thingââ
âYoung lady. Since when are you allowed to meddle with someone elseâs private correspondence? Do you know that deliberately opening a letter not meant for you is considered an offence?â
Ciri gulps, frightened in the face of her motherâs anger.
âI did!â she exclaims, jumping on the chance to redeem herself. âI do. Youâll see for yourself!â
Mum is about to lecture her more but the bodyguards tell them that their time is up. She apologizes to Jaskier and leads Ciri away, fuming wordlessly until theyâre sitting in the car.
âThis was extremely inappropriate and inconsiderate of you,â she says as she fastens her seatbelt furiously. âYouâre going to call your father as soon as we get home, and youâre going to tell him exactly what youâve done.â
The very idea fills Ciri with immense dread. âBut Mama,â she whines.
âNo buts,â Mum snaps harshly. âActions have consequences, and if you were willing to take action such as this, to violate Geraltâs privacy on this level, you must answer for it.â
âI did the right thing!â Ciri roars, sick of being scolded. âYou have no idea what Dad wrote there! You have no idea how happy he was with Jaskier!â
Hurt flashes in her motherâs eyes. She looks away, outside the carâs window, and murmurs, âIâm well aware of that fact, believe me.â
The bitterness in her words rings so loud in the car that Ciri is glad when she starts the engine and begins to drive.
***
When he sits down on the floor, he takes the water bottle left out for him and drinks from it in big gulps. His muscles ache from exertion, which he welcomes, today more than usual.Â
Vesemir stands at his side. Geralt sighs, knowing what his foster father will say, even though it doesn't need to be said.Â
âYou're distracted.â
He grunts. The reason for his distracted state resurfaces from the back of his mind and he thinks of laughter. Laughter like silver bells, twinkling blue eyes and a heart-stopping smile. He thinks of how Ciri and Yennefer got to see all that today.Â
âGo take a break,â Vesemir says. âIn the changing room. The quiet will do you some good.â
Geralt gets up, squeezes Vesemir's arm gratefully, takes Roach from Eskel's care, and goes when he was told. As he walks into the room, he hears his phone ringing in his locker, but he doesn't manage to answer it in time.Â
There are notifications about four missed calls waiting for him. Two from Ciri, one from Yennefer, and the most recent one from an unknown number. Letting out a heavy breath, Geralt decides to deal with the stranger first. It might be some nonsense and he wants it over with before calling Ciri back and hearing about the meet and greet.Â
Three signals ring out. The person picks up at the fourth. A moment of complete silence follows.
"Hello?" Geralt says.Â
The voice from his dreams replies, âHello, Geralt.â
Everything around him goes to a complete standstill. His heart begins hammering in his chest, his hands tremble, and he has to sit down. Roach puts her head in his lap and he pets her, grateful to hold on to her.
âJaskier?â he asks in disbelief.
âHi.â
Thereâs so much caution in his tone that it could be mistaken for gentleness and Geralt has to swallow hard. âHi,â he croaks out.
They donât speak for a few long seconds again. There are so many things Geralt wishes to say that heâs unable to muster a single word. Jaskier finally takes pity on him, huffs, and says, âIâm sure youâre wondering how come I have your number.â
âYeah,â Geralt answers, willing both his brain and vocal cords to finally work. âHow?â
âSee, it began with a seemingly innocent meet and greet,â Jaskier replies. âImagine my surprise when Yennefer fucking Vengeberg, of all people, somehow got hold of my private number and called me to demand an entry to the meet and greet Iâd soon be doing in Kaedwen, quite near where you lived. Which is also how I found out that my childhood friend, who also happens to be my ex, had a daughter with her.â Geralt cringes in guilt. Jaskier continues mercilessly, âAn actual kid that I didnât know of, who then shows up, with her hair like yours, and gives me â â
Jaskier cuts off his own chatter and gives an irritated sigh. Torturous silence falls between them again. Geralt takes a deep breath, a long-overdue apology at the tip of his tongue, but Jaskier speaks first.
âCiri did something very out of line,â he says seriously. âShe... handed me an envelope. There was a note with your number and a letter inside it.â
His body goes utterly still, frozen in dread. âA letter?â he hears himself ask.
âA letter which I donât think I was supposed to read.â
The meaning of the words registers. Right there and then, in the quiet of the changing room, his world completely falls apart. In the aftermath, he finds himself unable to speak â his throat is so constricted that air barely passes through. Roach shifts closer with a whimper.
âGeralt?â Jaskier says, so awfully softly. âAre you all right? Can you talk?â
This is what truly breaks him, in the end: Jaskier remembers things like that and is so kind to him still, even though Geralt hurt him. Geralt only earned the opposite of the consideration Jaskier shows him and it strikes somewhere deep. Itâs the most heart-warming heartbreak possible.
âFuck, Jaskier,â he grapples for words, âIâm so sorry, I didnât â I â â
âYou didnât know,â Jaskier explains for him. âItâs okay. Well, not really, but Ciri had good intentions. I must say, the lengths sheâs willing to go for you are truly impressive. I seriously wouldnât want to get into this girlâs black books.â
Geralt snorts at the comment, the little splash of humour easing some of the tension inside him. âI apologize for her behaviour,â he says, tired more than anything else now.
âItâs not me apologies should be for,â Jaskier replies. âAnd anyway, sheâs still a child. How old is she? Thirteen?â Geralt hums in assent. âThere are things she doesnât understand yet. For her, itâs just... that easy.â
Heâs so patient and understanding that Geralt wants to scream. Show me your rage, for fuckâs sake, he wishes to yell, say something hurtful, do something that will finally make me stop loving you, dammit.
âItâs not though, is it?â
âNo,â Jaskier answers, quiet, simple and brutal. âI canât just... come back to â This doesnât fix things.â
âIt doesnât,â Geralt agrees. He strokes the fur on Roachâs neck, grounding himself in the touch because he feels unsteady. This situation feels like living in a nightmare you canât wake up from. Itâs also possibly the only chance he will get to, in fact, fix things, at least to a small degree. So, he counts to five and dives into it, âI am sorry, though. For... causing you pain when I broke up with you. For the things I said at the airport. They were unfair and uncalled for, and I regret it. Jaskier, I... I regret this more than anything else in my life.â
âYou were afraid,â Jaskier adds gently. âThatâs okay. I understood that. I just hoped â â
He doesnât say, only sniffs.
âWhat?â Geralt prompts.
âIt doesnât matter now,â Jaskier dismisses, voice cracking. Clearing his throat, he says, âBut... thank you for the apology. Itâs accepted and appreciated.â Geralt hums, his whole body sagging in such relief that heâs suddenly like a puppet with no strings. Jaskier chukles wetly. âIâm actually glad we had this conversation, you know? Itâs good to have this... closure.â
âYes,â Geralt chimes in hoarsely, not trusting his voice to anything more.
âIâm also glad that I heard from you,â Jaskier goes on. âItâs wonderful to know that youâre doing so well. Youâre so brave. Youâve always been. Iâm very proud of you, darling.â
Thereâs a wounded noise at the back of his throat before he can stifle it. Donât give me any more tenderness, he nearly begs, I canât take it when youâre saying goodbye, stop it.
Jaskier doesnât stop. âAnd in your devastating letter, you said that... That...â
âThat you make me brave.â
âGeralt,â Jaskier whispers pleadingly, asking him not to say it.
âJaskier,â he murmurs, letting his ache for him show for once.
They breathe heavily together.
âI... I am happy,â Jaskier confesses then, âSometimes. Most often when I think of you.â
for the @drarrymicrofic prompt âSpace Soundsâ (also fulfills âPaperâ) | rated T | post-breakup, hopeful ending | 798 words | Read on AO3
Draco spills his third drink of the afternoon and has to stand in the stockroom for ten minutes to remember how to breathe again. One piercing light through the square window to the outside. The cool thin metal of the racks against his forehead. The nutrition label of some near-expired muggle juice illegible in the shadows. He picks one up reads the ingredients to himself over and overâfiltered water / Â apple juice from concentrate / fumaric acid / natural flavors / chill and shake before using. The words blur and come back into focus intermittently. Lucia is going to notice if he keeps going off to corners to cry like this. He doesnât have the time.
Itâs been a week since Harry broke it off with him, and everything had fallen quietly back into place. Harry retreated into Ron and Hermioneâs place in Diagon, and Draco had known it wouldnât have been worth venturing back into Wizarding London only to be inundated with the latest Witch Weekly rumours about the breakup. Heâd just returned to his empty flat in Muggle London. Heâd shown up for work at the same Muggle coffee shop heâd snagged a job at before Harry had been part of his life. He started getting quiet rounds of drinks with Lucia and Alex after work again when their shifts happened to line up. No more raucous Gryffindor pub nights at the Leaky; none of the drunken debates with Granger, egging Finnegan on until he either set something on fire or snogged Thomas breathless, no pulling Harry close and resting his head on Harry's shoulder. As smoothly as heâd joined that world, heâd slipped irrevocably away.
Lucia nudges him from the back, and Draco shakes out of his stupor. Sheâs wearing thick eyeliner today, and her hair is in a high ponytail that trails halfway down her back.
âSomeone left a note for you outside,â she says.
She presses a folded piece of paper into his hands. Draco looks around, thinks he catches a flash of owl wings outside. He unfolds it.
Draco,
Iâm sending Athena to deliver this, I hope she doesnât get lost or fly into a telephone pole or something, you know how she is. Hermioneâs been on my case all week, she thinks we didnât talk at all about what happened, and since sheâs Hermione sheâs probably right. She also wants me to tell you to come back to pub night, if you want, although I think thatâs mostly because she misses shouting with you about ministry politics once youâre both three pints in.
You do know youâve been the bright spot of the last year for me, donât you? Itâs been strange not seeing you around. Come to pub night. And thenâŠwe should talk, I think.
Please?
-H.P.
PS: Lucia, if you get this before Draco donât you dare read it, this is PERSONAL.
Draco reads it twice over, smoothing it out and feeling something in his chest flip upside down and then right-side up again.
âWell?â asked Lucia. âAre you coming to drinks tonight, or are you busy?â
Draco folds up the piece of paper carefully. âYou read the note, didnât you.â
âHe shouldnât have made it a postscript, itâs literally at the end of the note, thatâs useless.â
âYouâre impossible.â
Lucia throws her ponytail behind her shoulder and puts a carton of milk back in the fridge. âGo, Draco. And stop moping around the storeroom, I already had to stop Eric from going back there twice.â
For several moments thereâs only the sound of milk steaming.
âWho said I wasnât going to go?â asks Draco.
Lucia doesnât bother to look up from the milk. âGood, then.â
Draco runs his thumb across the paper one more time, then pockets it. Heâs off in an hour, and he can discretely apparate home to get ready. And thenâŠthey can talk. Just talk. It might be silly to hope, to read into it too far, but Draco feels himself grinning stupidly at the counter in front of him.
âDraco. Register.â
âRight.â
He barely notices ringing up the next few customers. Letter. Pub night. Harry.