AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/83722396/chapters/234973531
It was dark now, as you flutter your eyes open. Except.. It wasn't. There were rays of sunlight in your peripheral vision, sneaking around the wall of whatever rested in front of you. Over you. It’s living.
You freeze, your vision still blurry as you hear a shaky exhale come from over you. You felt the tummy of the beast relax and the puffy fabric being worn squished against your cheek. It felt like multiple layers, maybe a suit, but your heart sinks as it or he readjusts over you to change his hand placement and the mattress sinks to your left with all his weight on his hand. His other hand cradles the side of your head, entangling his fingers into your messy hair. You hear him inhale slowly, his nose pressing into the crown of your head as he breathes the scent of your hair in. Your heart throbs frantically in your chest, unsure if to move and startle the monster you cannot see or to stay still and maybe go limp when it finally moves away. Your eyes glance around his body, spotting the silver head of a cane against the bedframe. You see that the suit appears to be a dark blue, but it’s hard to tell. You see sunlight reflecting off of a ring on the left hand he’s supporting himself with. It’s taking everything to keep your breathing slow, hoping he doesn’t notice you’re awake yet and keeping that decision in your control for once. There was no control since being admitted here to the hospital. It’s decrepit, haunting, and the director, your psychiatrist, is far too interested in you or “your case”.
“You always smell so nicely. How do you do it while imprisoned? I certainly don’t give enough for this..”
You resist a flinch when he speaks and your eyes shut with recognition of his voice. Of course it’s him. Dr. Chilton is currently smelling your hair and you feel like death is a reasonable option now. Your flimsy bed blanket is bunched at your feet, you feel it when you shift. That movement did nothing to deter him. In fact, instead of just hovering over you, you hear the mattress creak and the bed sink as he crawls onto the bed with you. On top of you. You can’t resist the whimper the escapes your throat and Dr. Chilton stiffens for a few seconds, as if assessing if you’re still asleep, then comes to the conclusion you are. His head tilts to bury his nose in your hair and you feel his stomach move against your face and chest as he smells your hair. You feel something hard, don’t think about it, pressing into your belly. His legs spread their warmth to yours as he straddles you. You swear you even feel the cold metal of his tie pin against your lips, but it’s barely registering while you hold back a want to cry, thrash, anything.
Dr. Chilton groans, “Fuck..”, then moves to rest your head back down.
You keep your eyes shut, but relaxed enough as to not cause suspicion and you pray he can’t feel or see how distressed you are in any other way. His hand that supports your neck lays your head down on the flat pillows again and you feel his eyes staring over your “sleeping face”. It feels like eternity, but you feel his hot breath hit your face with a sigh before he gets up. You feel that rub against your tummy and you hear his choked gasp, but then it’s over and he’s back on your feet next to you. You hear his cane tap against the floor. You feel relief in your stomach until you realize you don’t hear his footsteps to leave or the door. He’s still there. Leave, please leave, don’t-
Dr. Chilton leans over, his body blocking the light from intruding your closed eyes once again. He stays like that, his breaths far more controlled, then his lips press against yours. They’re soft, not chapped or bitten. His beard scratches the corner of your mouth and your cheek and it takes everything to not react from the ticklish feeling. It would make you almost giggle if you were awake, consenting, for it. His lips move against yours as if unsure, experimenting, then he pulls away suddenly. His breathing is ragged and you hear his stumbling back to quickly leave the room, slamming the door behind him. You hope this is the first time..