#personal truth

Read that again.

People love to weaponize their “feelings” when it benefits their behavior. As if their emotions justify their cruelty. As if you owe them your peace, your stability, your self worth as payment for their insecurity. The truth is jealousy is a feeling, abuse is a choice. You can feel jealous and still speak with respect. You can feel insecure without tearing someone down. You can feel hurt without turning someone into a punching bag. When someone believes their jealousy gives them permission to, name call, curse at you, and justify emotional abuse what they’re showing you is not “love.” It’s entitlement and a lack of emotional regulation. When they start telling you: “ you should understand my jealousy” that’s not a relationship it’s an ongoing cycle of abuse. You are not required to sit in emotional crossfire to prove loyalty. You are not required to be someone’s outlet for their unprocessed chaos.

My life's inner work, or shadow work, has continually consisted of doing the work of cleansing the window of my mind, that it may become a mirror reflecting inspiration from the most High.

I do this, not with strenuous effort, but through quiet contemplation, through gently reaching and affirming an inward recognition.

Today I walk in the pathway of inspiration. Said inspiration intuitively guides my creative processing of ideas. I honor my boundaries, personal space and privacy so as to not ever step out of the creative flow of energy I've devoted myself to. There is an inspiration within me which governs every act, every thought, with certainty, with conviction and in peace...

"If your own life agrees with you, no other opinion needs to." - Dianne Cikusa

From 'The Jigsaw of Eight Thousand Pieces' (Mignon Press, 2020)

[Digital image by @dreamrecycler1]

When you know you fight from your heart and truth of who you really are,

It deserves every little drop of sweat

And the soul can only keep dancing,

Through the sunsets and storms,

In a constant state of harmonious bliss.

But once you know your truth? It's beautiful. My truth is that I am meant to rule. But I am more than anyone expects. I am not a tyrant; demanding submission with a brutal iron fist. I'm the little positive whispers in your mind telling you to live your best life, I'm the fragrance of a rose after the end of a storm, I am deeply, intimately, Queen.