#paragard

honestly, it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, but it was still pretty awful. the insertion was painful but i wasnt nauseous, didnt pass out, i was kinda thirsty and tired afterwards tho. 

my nurse was also a trans guy too!! his name was pete and he was so nice and made me a million times more comfortable.

around an hour or so after the insertion was when i started getting really really bad cramps. typically, my period cramps are like a 5 or 6 but these were like an 8 in my opinion. the only thing thats helped so far has been tylenol (cant take ibuprofen for medical reasons) and heating pads--cant stress that enough: heating pads were the only things that helped. a couple hours after the insertion the pain was too much for me so i took so melatonin and slept it off. 

I have had my Paragard for about 2.5 years and I completely done with the breakthrough bleeding heavy flow, and the cramps. I think it is causing inflammation outside of my uterus, and in general I think my body hates it and it’s never going to adjust.

So now I need to scheduled an appointment to get it removed, but before I can do that I need to figure out what to replace it with... and I’m freaking out about that a little bit. Honestly I would prefer to just get a tubal ligation or hysterectomy. I don’t want kids, and I would love to have that concern taken completely off the table, especially since my mom and sister have both had hysterectomies due to fibroids. I don’t want to slowly bleed have to death over the course of a decade before getting the help I need.

I know the arguments.

What if your partner/future partner wants kids?! Current partner doesn’t, and a future partner wanting biological children is a dealbreaker for me.

What if you change your mind?! Then I’ll adopt. If I am not financially in a place where I can adopt I shouldn’t be having kids anyway. And there are tons of kids out there who need a good home and if that was something I decided I wanted to do, I could provide that. 

I have no idea what the plan is after that because no one at the Gyn office can tell me how long the four waitlists I'm on are, or when those doctors will be scheduling for when they start scheduling again (could be seen in June 2019, or June 2020, or never...)

My hope is they say it's fine if I just rely on the morning after pill the one or two times per year I have actual sex with my husband.

I had my nexplanon removed this morning. Mixed emotions as I worry about increased risk of pregnancy but I also want to see how I feel off hormonal birth control for the first time in 10+ years.

I'm still going back on some form of birth control in the near future. My insurance covers everything 100% thankfully. Either I'll go back on nexplanon (most likely the case) or give paragard a shot.

1/11/19

I got my iud out. It was very quick and easy. I have some cramping now but its not bad at all.