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Hello and welcome to a new post of mine. This time, I will give you a reading on something beautiful you do not see in yourself because you deserve to be reminded of all of your beauty, inside and out. I hope you enjoy and this makes you cheer up / happy.

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Pile 1

There is something genuinely beautiful about you that you refuse to see even when it is right there, even when it’s reflected back at you through mirrors, screens, other peoples eyes. You have convinced yourself that beauty has a very specific shape, a very specific way of existing, and that you simply did not get the memo when it was handed out. But you seriously did. You just folded it up and hid it away somewhere deep because it felt safer to believe you were lacking than to believe you were already enough. Your face is not something that needs fixing or adjusting or hiding. Your features are shaped with intention, with balance, with a softness and harmony you overlook because you stare too long and too critically. You zoom in on things no one else would ever isolate, you forget to look at yourself as a whole. There is a natural proportion to you; not just your face but your entire body that works together in a way that feels right. It flows; nothing is out of place, even if you’ve spent years telling yourself it is. The things you label as flaws are often the exact things people linger on. Not in a negative way, not in a judging way, but in a quietly noticing way. Your teeth, for example, are something you may barely think about or actively dislike, but others notice the way they soften your expressions, the way they make you look warm, approachable and real. There is a gentleness to you that shows through the smallest details. People see your beauty far more clearly than you see your own. They think it when they walk past you, even if they don’t say anything. They think it when you post a picture and they pause for a second longer than they meant to. They think it when they’re on a call with you and catch themselves just watching you talk. Compliments are not the only proof of attraction and silence is not the same as absence. A lot of people carry their thoughts quietly. Just because they don’t hand them to you doesn’t mean they don’t exist. You are definitely more beautiful than the version of you that lives in your head.

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Pile 2

There are things that are so beautiful that you tend to over look, well, that you have been taught to overlook, minimise, or even apologise for, and that is the way you talk. The way your thoughts spill out of you, the way you connect one idea to another, the way your stories stretch and grow and take up space. You don’t just speak to fill silence, you speak because there is life inside you and it wants to be shared. There is curiousity there, excitement, warmth. You talk because you are engaged with the world and with the people in front of you, and that is not something everyone has. Somewhere along the way, people made you feel like this was too much. Like you were doing something wrong by being audible, expressive, animated. You have memories of being shushed, interrupted, talked over. You remember looks that lingered just long enough to make you self conscious, you remember shrinking mid sentence, lowering your voice, cutting your story short because suddenly you felt annoying, embarrassing, like you were taking up more space than you were allowed. And over time that does something to a person. It makes you associate your natural spark with shame. But the truth is, those people didn’t dislike you. They disliked what they didn’t understand. They didn’t have the same hunger for connection, the same need to express, to exchange stories and thoughts and little observations about life. They didn’t know how alive a person can be when they let themselves speak freely, and instead of admiring that, instead of leaning into it, they tried to dull it. That is a reflection of them, not you. A lack on their part, not an excess on yours. You don’t see how pretty you are when you talk, because you were taught to associate prettiness with quietness. With being palatable, easy, small. But there is nothing small about you, and there never was meant to be. Your voice carries warmth, it carries humour, intelligence, honesty. People don’t tolerate you speaking, they enjoy it. They listen more closely than you think. They remember the things you say long after the conversation ends.

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Pile 3

This pile is for the people who, even when they sit down and try to list things they like about themselves, always add a ‘but-‘ at the end of it. Yes, you might like your creativity, but you don’t think it’s enough. Yes, you might like your hair, or your nose, or the way your shoulders sit when you wear certain clothes, but you wouldn’t call yourself beautiful, you wouldn’t call yourself the ideal. And that’s the strange thing here, because to the people around you, you are exactly that. Not in a perfect, polished, unrealistic way, a very human, very real, and very grounding way. You don’t see yourself as someone people look up to. Rather, you see yourself as someone who is just trying to survive, just trying to get through the day, the week, and the year. And maybe your life has been hard, maybe it still is. People don’t deny that, they don’t minimise it, they definitely don’t think you’ve had it easy. They see how much you struggle, how heavy things get for you, how sometimes you are holding yourself together by the thinnest thread imaginable. But what they focus on isn’t the breaking, it’s the fact that you keep going anyway. There is something incredibly beautiful about the way you endure. Whether you do it confidently or whether you crawl through it on your knees, it doesn’t matter. You still do it; you still show up, you still love, you still care, you still try. And that strength, even when it’s quiet, even when it’s messy, is something people admire deeply. They see you as someone who feels intensely but doesn’t let that turn them cruel. Someone who has every reason to shut down, yet somehow remains soft. You don’t think you’re the ideal because you know all your flaws, all your fears, all your worst thoughts. But other people don’t see you as your flaws, they see you as the sum of everything you are; including the pain, including the survival, including the kindness you give without even noticing. And to them that combination is rare. That combination is something they wish they had, something they wish they could be. You don’t see it, but you embody it effortlessly. Not as in that they wish they would experience all you have experienced, but in the way that if they did, they would be just like you. Even if you cannot fathom some people could see you as a figure to look up to.

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content will involve your next career, your relationship with your peers along with your manager and the finances. please remember this is about soon careers and it appears like the people who are interested in this post are likely creatives! do take it with a pinch of salt as this is for the general public!

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THE PILES

❦ PILE ONE

❦ YOUR NEXT CAREER? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {King of Cups, THE SUN XIX, Princess of Cups, Six of Wands, Ten of Coins and Four of Cups}.

shuffled songs ⟶[try sleeping with a broken heart by alicia keys, magic by coldplay and fly away by lenny kravitz].

❦ your next career is something that would emotionally connect with you, the King and Princess of Cups show that, which does make the Four of Cups at the end of this reading to be interesting. its a career where you have to be practical in but also hold your head high, you might see yourself being a person of importance as well, many of these cards insinuate you being in an important business where your creative side has to be called forwards.

❦ i wouldnt be surprised if people who picked this pile could be into the arts and might've been informed previously that jobs like that don't pay that much, yet this spread implies you have the opportunity to be paid a lot for your services. you would be specifically picked for this job because of what you can do, even if you might feel like you're unprepared for something, there is something in specific that you have that they will need which is why you would be picked. i do think it's a type of job that makes you known or very respected within your line of work.

❦ i'm leaning onto the idea of people who picked this pile are individuals who are very creative in a way that its astonishing and healing to the people around you. im hearing that you could be known for your looks too, it wont be the main things yet it's one of the things people would put on top when describing you. "oh they're intelligent, creative, with great potential along with attendance but they're also beautiful" it's not something they would mention first because since there's a chance they really respect you to not say otherwise.

❦ whatever career pile one steps into will be considered as a very successful pile. the company you could work with might already have a strong foundation and name in the industry it is in. i see the possibility of it being a type of career where you have good advantage so i dont think you would just be an ordinary worker there you'll be someone who has a type of substance about you that makes you very important, like they rely on you for telling them what to do. so there's a high possibility that you would be doing a lot of leading in this next career.

❦ but funnily enough i think you're someone who might not be impressed not because you dont like it, im seeing that you're someone who could have the responsibility of withholding information before other people receive it, so the questions other people could be asking you about future stuff could get annoying. however since this is a heavily creative pile, i return to the four of cups by mentioning how its a job where you have to use your day-dreams, your fantasies, all the stories that appear in your head as content for the industry you're working with. in the end, working with them will make you have to learn how to balance pressure, emotions and stress.

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❦ RELATIONSHIP WITH THE WORKSPACE? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {THE MAGICIAN I, Three of Wands, APHRODITE III, THE TOWER XVI, Six of Coins and Three of Cups}.

shuffled songs ⟶[system by chester bennington, boxers by lil hero and fancy by the-dream].

❦ to the people who picked this pile this spread shows that your relationship with your co-workers will be a positive experience for you. you could be considered as someone who is very influential to the people you work with, i see that they could be the type of people who pick on everything you do, your slang, lingo, humour and even style. intuitively i am hearing that you could be considered as a prodigy to them, someone who is very excelling.

❦ im hearing that your co-workers are even the type of people to anticipate your arrival, and i think they might even be surprised seeing you because i dont think the Tower in this reading is supposed to represent something bad i genuinely think its you coming forward and changing something and even how things work in the work space. so your co-workers would be very appreciative about you coming in, and even if you're not someone who has a "important" or "vital" role, you would still be the person who positively changes the energy when you step into the room.

❦ i wouldnt be surprised if people who picked this pile have people in your work space that would have a crush on you. its because of your beauty and charisma is what makes many of them swayed. they might've had a bad first judgement about you in the beginning, they might've expected you to be one way and then you show them completely something else that surprises them in a good way. your relationship with them would be harmonious plus there's much 3's and 6's which insinuates that there'll be much communication and devotion towards creative beauty that'll be shared around.

❦ there could be an imbalance of power as we, or someone can be over-giving and it would be over-whelming for you. the tower and six of coins being together in the same spread as the magician and three of cups means that you're someone who is going to be gossiped about, like its something that is inevitable it is a thing that is going to be happening for you. but people in your workspace will be working for your approval and you could feel like you'd have to be careful about not making other people feel like there is a favoured peer. there's something about you that would make people gravitate towards you. there's 2 Sixes in the reading [THE TOWER 16 and the Six of Coins] and this means that you might start to get annoyed with how over-bearing they can be.

❦ even if you would be annoyed by certain people, you would still have a good relationship because you're someone who would be striving for a balance with the people you work with. they would invite you to places a lot and celebrate with you, they would make sure that you don't feel left out, so despite the fact that there could be smothering people there'll be people you would consider to be family. and with there being 3 Three's including [Three of Wands, APHRODITE 3 and Three of Cups] and this can equate to working with people who would help you to get out of a hermit habit you could have, some of the people who picked this pile could be used to working alone but this can be a type of job where the opinion and aid of other people is vital here. but Aphrodite being here shows that they would find you really pretty.

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❦ THE PAY? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {THE STAR XVII, Six of Cups, Queen of Swords, Nine of Wands, Seven of Coins and THE CHARIOT VII.}.

shuffled songs ⟶[cherry-coloured funk by cocteau twins, 365 by katy perry and walls by beauty's confusion].

❦ so the money you are going to be getting from this job would definitely surprise you. you could also be someone who is gifted and given bonuses. some of you might've manifested this type of money or strive towards a creative career that gives you this much abundance. you would reach the financial goals you wished about when you were young it could even get you emotional.

❦ though when you get this money you will be serious about it, you'll be cutting off spending habits even though it might be difficult. but you'll be serious about investing this type of money. you will act with logic, but you would also get assistance, your intelligence is very needed in your workspace and the more you show it in this kind of job, the more your pay will be upgraded. keep on moving towards the direction your mind knows about.

❦ practising saving money would feel like a burden but it'll be testing your will and how serious you're about this life. you could be someone who might be going through financial pressure and this job could get you out of it. on the other hand, this could mean that the past financial burdens you went through would be personal advice that supports how you manage your money. you could also feel under pressure to help family, do place your boundaries and once again assistance that can manage your finances with you. someone who can help you with difficult choices and speaks to your family if you dont want to.

❦ your past is something that is heavily going to impact how you handle your money but your spread speaks of you as an individual who will be investing and moving forwards instead of backwards. have pride and trust in yourself, intuitively i am hearing you could receive a job offer where its only you that can do something or you'd be considered a really good employee.

❦ there's 3 sevens here [THE STAR 17, Seven of Coins and THE CHARIOT 7] and this means that you will have to listen to your intuition and your guts when it comes to managing this money that will be coming through or there would be moments where you will be failing in the finances aspect of your life. 3 Sevens usually symbolise success but it could also be a warning to not get too big headed before there's an actual comfortable foundation you can fall back on.

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ꨄ PILE TWO

ꨄ YOUR NEXT CAREER? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {ARES IV, HIEROPHANT V, Nine of Coins, Princess of Cups, Two of Wands and Queen of Coins.}.

shuffled songs ⟶[sundress by asap rocky, electronic heart by nivek fforhs and lilith by saint avangeline].

ꨄ in this career you would likely have a powerful position, or a position where much focus is needed. and you could be around powerful people too so sometimes you might feel like you're under pressure or watched but with how the rest of these cards look i do think you would be okay in your position, your needs would be met and you would have a comfortable space, but work is still expected from you.

ꨄ i do think you would be very comfortable in your position, like this would be the type of career in your life that makes you realise that your life is getting serious not only because of the responsibilities but because of the money that could be coming through. and to some people who picked this pile you might be spoiled in your career, or the women who picked this pile you could be considered a very important woman in your firm. you will be rewarded accordingly and this means that you could get bonuses as well. a lot of people who picked this pile are really going to step in their back with this incoming opportunity.

ꨄ this is a veryyy creative pile. like the people who picked this pile are very abundantly creative or really know how to lead through intuition that makes other people feel like they can follow you. i also do think your looks could be spoken about a lot and this could sometimes annoy you as it would sometimes be prioritised over what you can actually do. people who picked this pile can have a really nice aesthetic, nice visuals and art direction that could be used for the company you could be working with. it could also be a cooking job too.

ꨄ this would likely be a job that would have you travel too, and you would have to think a lot. im hearing a lot of people would be following your order or you could be a star-employee. this pile sounds quite similar to pile one. the nine of coins, ares, and two of wands can mean some of you might've started your own business and in the future the outcome of it will be very well. this career will have you thinking a lot, it could be freelance as well.

ꨄ even if its freelance it would still be a career that would have you well fed and okay. you might be thought as competitive or as someone who makes other people think to their highest potential if it is a group-setting. even if you are business-oriented and strict, you would still be respected for the money you bring into the business or your own. you will be happy about the place you're in and might even take care of other people with the money you earn. even if you don't need to, your money will be flowing enough to do that.

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ꨄ RELATIONSHIP WITH THE WORKSPACE? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {Queen of Coins, Princess of Cups, THE CHARIOT VII, King of Coins, Two of Cups and THE WORLD XXI.}.

shuffled songs ⟶[iloveitiloveitiloveit by bella kay, we belong together by mariah carey and daughter by beyonce].

ꨄ the cards say it themselves, the people who picked this pile will have a very strong connection with your workspace. queen and king of coins being here means that you would be connected around older people, you represent the princess of cups here but you might also share qualities of the queen of coins and the chariot that makes older people respect you and think of you as well-rounded.

ꨄ you would be popular there and it might make you feel emotional or awkward sometimes because you might've not had this type of attention before, or you're someone who's just very humble about the attention you get. the chariot being in this spread means that you would have people helping you along the way and the fact that you're quite shy keeps on coming through so they would also want to help uplift you.

ꨄ your opinion would be very needed in your workspace, and it seems like the solutions you'd give them would be very helpful in the environment. plus, when people get to know you more, they will find out about that secure side of you more, the one who is very protective and nurturing to the people they care about and that could be talked about. the world makes me think some of you might be foreign to your co-workers, so you definitely might travel abroad if you picked this pile.

ꨄ there might be someone you might have a close relationship as well, maybe you could have the same values, ideas, opinions. but i do think there could be someone who might become attracted to you in the workspace, or you could have a crush on someone in the workspace. either way be careful and responsible about it. either way, you would have a good relationship with your colleagues, it'll be strong and they could help you network with other companies for future ventures.

ꨄ your bond with your co-workers would be fun, you might even travel with them for business so i wouldnt be surprised if you're on the creative side or the commercial side of work. there's 2 Two's [Two of Cups and The World 21] and this shows that there could be an actual person you're partnered with and your relationship with them would be very moving. you might even find a best friend in this workspace.

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ꨄ PAY? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {Six of Cups, JUSTICE XI, THE WORLD XXI, Eight of Cups, Ten of Wands and Six of Coins.}.

shuffled songs ⟶[midnight sun by zara larsson, cyber stockholm syndrome by rina sawayama and thru your phone by cardi b].

ꨄ the pay will be good and fair, but the six of cups beginning this reading could mean to make sure to not be naive about things that might be hidden. this spread mainly speaks of financial gifts, sharing finances and being able to save your own funds and helping with other people. with this pay would would be able to live the life you want, eight of cups and ten of wands means that you'll be able to leave the struggle life you might currently be living in.

ꨄ when you get this type of money something about you will make you "lock in" about how you handle your finances. if you're bad at handling money it could be because of the fear of the things you purchase not being there in the future, but when you get this income there'll be this relief of knowing that you dont have to fear keeping up with future purchases that'll always be there. you'll be able to enjoy the fruits of your labour and some more.

ꨄ when you get this pay you'll be leaving a certain life style and this could correlate to how i said you will no longer have to worry about not having the money you need to purchase your wishes which could mirror how you could be erratic with money now. but because of how much happiness you will have some of you might choose happiness over financial security, you are allowed to take care of yourself but dont continue cycles by being too excited.

ꨄ im hearing there could be some people here who might use some substances, make sure to not lose yourself in it because it wont only hurt your money but it will hurt you and the version of yourself that is healthy and can continue having money flow into your life. these cards speak of someone searching for different ways to earn money, there could be people here who are really scared of not having something to fall back on so when you're supposed to be resting, you will continue working which can lead to a burn out.

ꨄ but pockets will be heavy, but dont take it for granted. you could feel burdened about having to share but this spread could be encouraging you to speak to a professional and it'll take a lot of burdens off your shoulders, but be sure who you give your finances to if you reach this version of yourself. there's 2 Sixes in the reading [Six of Cups and Six of Coins] and this validates my idea of me thinking you will share money with your family and people you care for. you'll be able to purchase gifts for people whenever without having to count money. on the other hand you might get irritated with some people who might want to just depend on you.

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♱ PILE THREE

♱ YOUR NEXT CAREER? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {THE BIRTH 0, Three of Coins, Ace of Wands, Queen of Wands, Six of Coins and Five of Swords}.

shuffled songs ⟶[spit by show me the body featuring princess nokia, cold by ramsey and house of balloons by the weeknd].

♱ so whatever you're going to be working as will definitely be something new to you, the birth and ace of wands show this is a career where you have to try your luck and its another indicator to it being a job that is completely different to what you might be doing now. its a career where you have to use your truest potential, you cannot slack and im not saying this because there's a possibility of it being very strict, its more like your team work and problem solving skills would be watched.

♱ things would be moving fast for you here, at first it could intimidate you with the five of swords being at the end. but this could also mean there might be an imbalance of power, maybe from expectations or people pushing boundaries. i would advise people who pick this pile to use discernment about who you get close to. on the brighter side you'll have many people wanting to work with you, they would think you have a passionate side and would find it very beautiful.

♱ you will be very powerful here and i see people fighting for your attention, but this can also manifest into you feeling like you have to prove your worth to people in the line of work you want to get into. maybe you could be trying to work in a field where it is taken over by people opposite your gender, race or money. but you would strive in this work career and become dominant, people who might've been suspicious of you in the beginning would end up crediting you.

♱ this would be a work career where you would be sharing your opinions, encouraging people, hanging out with them and making them laugh. it seems like every pile says that people would find you beautiful. and i think this would be an era where people feel like they can step into their power, freedom and confidence better, considering the aries stellium. this could be a career where you might have a mentor or you might mentor other people.

♱ though this mentor could be someone important, or there could be some moments where there could be a power imbalance with the people you work with, but we'll see more in the other questions. this spread also means that this job you would get would win you opportunities other people would be jealous of. so do be aware of envious people in your social circle.this could also warn you to not lose your humility because of your position.

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♱ RELATIONSHIP WITH WORKSPACE? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {Eight of Coins, THE STAR XVII, Queen of Coins, Princess of Coins, DEATH XIII and Two of Swords}.

shuffled songs ⟶[thank you by dido, take a bow by rihanna and sour switchblade by elita].

♱ your relationship with the workspace would be something that is worked on with everyone or just in the space that you're in. you could be like an apprentice for someone and your reputation would soar because of how productive you are and how you are someone who beats the standards. very proud for everyone's future here! you'd find yourself getting promotions if you direct your energy well, but remember just because this reading implies of a good future it does not mean you have to be lazy!

♱ this type of success and friendship comes from dedication from all sides. people would like it when you greet them, tell them goodbye or even invite them. im hearing that people might be shy to you or it could be the other way round but either way the space and the energy in the workspace is going to make everyone want to pursue a good connection with each other. there's a chance that the type of work you guys will be doing would need this type of good team work and everyone believing in each other.

♱ with there being 2 Eights [Eight of Coins and THE STAR 17] and this supports the drive people would have when trying to make a relationship well-balanced with each other and there could be a passion for people to be perfectly kind and correct the first time, but i dont think this would be coming from fakeness but coming from a place of not wanting the vibe in the workspace to be weird or one-sided. when time progresses the bonds you'll share with you peers would be something steady and diligent.

♱ this type of work dynamic was supposed to happen in your life to teach you something, and it could teach you how to not always do things alone, verily if you're someone who is used to doing things by yourself especially when you're in a space where there's people around you who will help you and want to be in your life. and there might be some people here that could like to be a hermit but this era will be different for you, that side that likes to be alone and think will still exist but there'll be a balance of socialising that would be healthy for your mind and social life.

♱ but i do think there might be some conflict that happens around you more than to you. there could be some individuals who are used to people taking sides, but to show that you have matured and changed how you handle conflicts in a workspace determines your comfort in the future. you could also be someone who is worried about your place in there in the beginning or there could be another career you have that could make you feel guilty because of the bonds you form in your first work area.

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♱ PAY? ⬎

CARDS ⟶ {Eight of Coins, Three of Swords, THE LOVERS VI, Five of Swords, Six of Coins and THE DEVIL XV}.

shuffled songs ⟶[who's that girl? by eve, love potions by bj lips and princess paparazzi and midnight sun by zara larsson].

♱ this spread is interesting especially because of the conflict cards that are happening here. you could be someone who is working for your pay and you could be someone who is struggling now, this spread is an indicator of getting out of it, but also having to make sure about how much money you should be getting. mainly for the people who are freelance and write contracts. either way, you'll be able to become financially independent but the eight of coins + three of swords is about being careful how you handle it.

♱ there's so much intense energy with your pay, there could be intentions behind it, like you either getting less than the people you're around or you get more. but with the shufflemancy above it could be you getting more than your peers and the people you're living around noticing that as well. i wont be surprised if there's someone in your work environment that could be giving you more for you to stay. maybe it could involve attraction but your work skills is a huge element here. but for those who picked this pile do be aware of money with strings.

♱ even if you could like your workspace, make sure you're not getting scammed. if you are someone who does get intense with how much you spend this spread could be warning about you getting a budget so you dont fall into a cycle of depending on monthly paychecks. but the five of swords being between the lovers and the six of coins is interesting because it could speak of an imbalance. in the section where i spoke about your relationship with your peers, i wouldnt be surprised if your money could be a thing that makes your relationship with them conflicting, so once again it has nothing to do with you specifically but with outside energy.

♱ there's 3 sixes in the reading [THE LOVERS 6, Six of Coins and THE DEVIL 15] and this could mean you might be given an opportunity a lot, like if you were to leave they would throw extra money to keep you hanging. i personally think many of you guys will do okay but the workspace can be very fishy with how they handle thing. the 3 Sixes speak about you being offered balance after a long time of working and wearing yourself out and for people who dont have a connection with their workspace that is attached with strings this can manifest into all your hard work being for the greater good.

♱ as there are 3 sixes, there's also 2 fives, and fives in tarot usually equal conflict. and for finances and the type of pay you are going to be getting, if you are signing a contract make sure everything is read. make sure things are not hidden make sure you will be getting your bonuses and the type of pay you're are supposed to be receiving that is connected to the type of work you are doing. dont overwork and be underpaid. but either way make sure you're not spending compulsively! dont stretch yourself too thin.

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⋆. 𐙚 ˚ ˚ PILE I

cards pulled: 5 of swords, 4 of swords, page of wands, 6 of swords, knight of swords, 3 of swords

Okay PILE 1, UHM… instantly, you’re giving main character energy in a way that intimidates the sh*t out of people. Like you’re not even trying to be the center of attention, but somehow you always are? You enter a space and people are like, “Who do they think they are?” while also copying your stuff three days later. You walk with a silent type of confidence, very “don’t test me” energy. People sense you’ve had hard times, and even if they don’t know the details, they can feel it. You’ve got this inner toughness that’s kind of scary hot tbh. Your vibe is a whole psychological thriller. Like, folks don’t know whether to admire you, kiss you, or block you for their own emotional safety 😂

You probably learned the HARD way not to overshare. You likely had friendships that ended weirdly, conversations that drained you, people who twisted your words. And now? You’ve mastered the art of being unreadable but piercingly observant. This group is in their “🧠 > 🤡” era( I SAID WHAT I SAID😭) . You don’t argue. You just watch, process, distance yourself, and transform yourself in silence. THIS. This is the part that has people frothing. You’re unbothered. People can literally throw tantrums, shade, or even subtle digs at you, and you’ll be doing your own shit and minding your own mental health. You’re the kind of person who pulls back, protects their peace, and doesn't give people the satisfaction of a reaction. And bestie, THAT is maddening to people who need chaos to feel relevant. You choosing silence? You choosing yourself? You resting instead of people-pleasing? People cannot handle how you don’t chase or cling or overexplain. Your energy says, “If you cross me, I’ll just go leave, idc.” And that’s more threatening than any clapback. Them not feeling worthy enough is what piss them off

Ugh, I love this for you 😭 i sense this is youthful fire. Like, your curiosity, your passion, your spark, it’s infectious. Even when you’re figuring life out, you make it look like an adventure. People wish they had your sense of excitement, your ability to find beauty in the unknown, your passion projects, your spontaneous glow-up moments. You still believe in magic, and you chase it. People see that in you and lowkey get anxious sometimes which in turn leads to anxiety. You remind them of who they used to be or who they wish they were. You’re like their inner child’s inspiration and trigger at the same damn time 😭

 If you ask how this jealousy shows up? Okay bestie, here’s the deal, they LEAVEEE. that's it....Like, people who get too jealous of you will slowly drift, ghost, or distance themselves. And it’s not because you did anything. Nope. It’s literally because your energy is a mirror, you unintentionally expose what they’re running from in themselves. So when someone exits your life out of nowhere? It's not always shade. It’s often that your growth, your self-protection, your refusal to settle… it gets too loud for their comfort. And some of them might even act like you’re "too much" or “hard to connect with” but that’s just projection, babe. They’re mad you're moving on, moving forward, and not looking back.

AND THIS is your sign to stop holding back. You’ve got things to say. Projects to create. Movements to spark. Opinions to express. And the universe is screaming at you to stop playing nice just to make insecure people feel comfy. You’re meant to lead. You’ve got clarity that cuts through the fluff, and people NEED that. You’re not here to be palatable; you’re here to be powerful.

Okay  big hug 🤍 because this tells me your power didn’t come from sunshine and luck, alteast not always. It came from heartbreak, betrayal, disappointment. Like… people don’t get that your confidence is built on grief. You’ve transmuted pain into power. And while they’re busy watching your highlight reel, they have no idea you cried yourself into this version of you. That’s the hidden jealousy no one talks about, how you kept going when others would’ve collapsed. That’s the real intimidation.

 I’m getting an oddly specific message: some people from your past (school friends? old internet mutuals?) STILL stalk you online. Like, they swear they don’t care, but they’re obsessed with the way you keep evolving. I even saw someone in my mind writing a note like “they always bounce back.” LMAO not them studying you😭

Stay sharp, baby. You’re meant to trigger AND inspire 💅🔥

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⋆. 𐙚 ˚ ˚ PILE II

cards pulled: the world, 9 of pentacles, ace of pentacles, ace of wands, queen of wands, 3 of swords

OMG okay wait PILE 2??! Babe… you’re not even walking into rooms, you’re making whole room shift when you show up (okay maybe a little exaggeration but i feel that way so i said it) 💀 but honestly, to me, This pile is aura-too-bright-for-this-world energy. The cards here?? ICONIC. 

So right off the bat, with The World as your “vibe that catches attention instantly,” I audibly gasped. No, seriously ’m seeing someone who’s got that complete package aura. Like… when you walk into a space, people instantly sense that you’ve seen life, evolved, and you’re not here to play. You feel like someone who's been through seasons, leveled up through pain, and came out looking expensive, composed, and unbothered. There’s this whole “I’ve arrived” energy that surrounds you. It's not cocky it’s earned.

And paired with Nine of Pentacles + Ace of Pentacles + Ace of Wands + Queen of Wands, like… WHAT EVEN IS THIS POWER COMBO?? Bestie, you are literally the embodiment of “I’m secured, unshakable” I’m seeing you as someone who might have had to glow up alone. People ditched you during your struggle era.People are so jealous because you make independence look luxurious. And this isn’t fake rich aesthetic energy, it’s like… you actually worked for the stability you have now. Financial glow-up? Check. Confidence glow-up? Check. ENERGY glow-up? Baby, it’s off the charts. For people who havent yet received any of these, just wait lovelies, you are soon reaching that level! You come off as someone who doesn’t need anyone, but also, anyone would kill to be needed by you. your creative spark is lit as hell right now. You probably have 10 ideas swirling in your head at any moment. You’re the kind of person who creates something new out of nothing, and just have oodly specific magnetic quality. People can’t stop watching you like they’re not even sure why they’re drawn to you, but they are. You might post the most random thing on social media and get a hundred saves. It’s THAT type of energy. You intimidate people without trying. You could be in sweats and people are still clocking you like, “Who is THAT?” You walk in like a flame in a room full of plastic candles. I’m not gonna lie some folks deadass want your confidence, your glow, your ability to just own yourself. And they try to copy it, but it doesn’t hit the same because theirs is curated. Yours? Authentic AF.

BUT THEN… BOOM. We get hit with Three of Swords and oof. That changes the whole flavor of this pile. This is the secret ingredient in your power. People don’t realize that the reason you shine so hard now is because you had to crawl through heartbreak, betrayal, rejection, and emotional hell just to find your light again. Like, this is NOT surface-level sadness. This is “I had to rebuild my damn self when everyone left” energy. Your glow comes from grief you survived. Your confidence was carved out of loss. And people feel that even if they don’t consciously get it.

Let’s talk about how this jealousy shows up in behavior. Some people act fake supportive. You’ll notice them almost hyping you up, but it’s giving “I’m clapping, but I’m also watching to see when you fall.” Others might straight up ghost you the moment you succeed at something. Like, why is it crickets when you’re winning?? 😭 Some people are so triggered by your glow-up they pretend they don’t see it. You’ll post something huge and they’ll scroll past like they’re blind, but you know they saw it. Oh, they saw it. They’re LURKING. I’m picking up on past friends or even family members who remember you before you knew your worth, are mostly jealous. They don’t know how to deal with you now that you’ve stepped into your power. Also I’m feeling online strangers too. People who watch you, feel inferior, and try to tear you down in petty ways, shady energy, maybe even copying you to feel closer to your vibe. But it never lands right. Because your essence? It’s not copy-paste.

Babe… you’re not meant to be digestible to everyone. Your energy is big, your aura is blinding, and not everyone has the emotional range to celebrate that. Some people will see your light and clap. Others will squint and get mad that it hurts their eyes. That’s not your problem. The World card is reminding you: you’ve already completed one of the hardest chapters. You don’t need external validation. You ARE the moment. Keep planting those seeds (Ace of Pentacles), chase that inspiration (Ace of Wands), stay in your fiery power (Queen of Wands), and remember you’re glowing because you healed through hell. And that’s the real flex.

People aren't just jealous of what you have. they're haunted by the fact that nothing could break you.

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⋆. 𐙚 ˚ ˚ PILE III

Cards Pulled: ace of cups, 9 of wands, judgement, 10 of cups, the sun

OH BABY. PILE 3??? This one has me emotional chaos in the best way possible, like, I’m laughing, crying, cheering you on, and lowkey feeling jealous myself 😭✨ There’s just something so undeniably rare about your energy, and I’m gonna be real with you, people don’t just notice you… they get emotionally activated by you. 

So right off the bat we open with the Ace of Cups as your “vibe that catches attention instantly.” GIRL. The softness. The emotional depth. The actual divine femininity (this quality is not restricted to one gender, it’s about the energy here) . People sense that your heart is open, your energy is healing, and you’ve got this naturally receptive, magnetic glow that pulls people in like you’re the human version of a warm hug and a deep exhale. You give off big “safe space” energy but also romantic, ethereal, dreamy vibes. It’s like… being around you makes people want to open up, cry, confess their life story and then fall in love with you. You’re that person.

And that’s exactly why the Nine of Wands shows up next because people have no idea how hard you’ve worked to stay this soft. You’ve been through so much emotional wounding, maybe abandonment, betrayal, family drama, heartbreak but instead of turning bitter, you became even more radiant. Bestie, you are literally the definition of a wounded healer. Your boundaries are firm now, but you still love so hard. You protect your peace(AS YOU SHOULD), but you’ve also never lost that softness. THAT is your power. You didn’t get cold. You got clear.

Now here’s the fun part: people are jealous as hell of your emotional fulfillment and the fact that you are so deeply in tune with yourself and others. The Ten of Cups and The Sun together?. This is “I’m manifesting the life of my dreams and I will protect my joy with my whole damn soul” energy. Whether or not you have the full picture yet (some of you may still be building it), people look at you and feel like: “Ugh. They’ve got it all.” The dream relationships. The emotional clarity. That sense of “I know what I want, and I will not settle for less.” That triggers people who feel lost, disconnected, or stuck in superficiality.

THIS is the energy that freaks people out the most. Because it’s the card of awakening. You’re someone who constantly reinvents yourself, levels up, and literally triggers people’s consciousness. Like, someone will meet you and a week later be in an existential crisis just from how your energy reflected back all the places they’re asleep in their own life. You don’t even need to say much, your presence alone forces people to confront their emotional blind spots. It’s that deep.

Let’s talk about how this jealousy actually shows up in behavior, because oh honey, it’s sneaky. Some people will love-bomb you at first. They’ll worship you, obsess over you, and tell you that you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to them. But as soon as they realize they can’t match your depth or keep up with your light? Boom. They either ghost you, emotionally shut down, or try to project their pain onto you. Some may even subtly compete with you emotionally, like copying your vibe but making it weirdly performative. Others might act overly critical of your emotions like “you’re too sensitive” or “too idealistic” but deep down? They wish they could feel as deeply and freely as you. I’m picking up on exes, old crushes, emotionally unavailable people, and even spiritually bypassing fake-deep people. They once had access to your love, your softness, your radiance, and now they’re haunted by the fact that they fumbled you. Also, I feel like some parents or authority figures might’ve been emotionally intimidated by how “different” you were growing up. Maybe you felt misunderstood for being so dreamy or sensitive. But look at you now turning your heart into a damn superpower.

Do not water down your light or dim your joy to make others comfortable. The Sun says your happiness is holy. You’re meant to shine, radiate, and live in color, even if that makes other people squint. And Judgement is reminding you: keep rising. Every time you outgrow your old self, people will fall off, and that’s okay. They were never meant to go where you’re headed. Your emotional depth isn’t a weakness. it’s what makes you a fckin force of nature. Keep protecting your peace, pouring love into people who deserve it, and curating a life that feels like poetry. The right ones will meet you there. You’re not just powerful because of your light, you’re powerful because you chose your light after walking through hell. And people will always be a little salty about that.

So go ahead and keep shining, crybaby angel warrior 😭💛 You’ve earned every drop of your joy.

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Note: tarot cards provide guidance and possible insights into what could happen based on current energies, thoughts, and actions. the cards can highlight potential paths or outcomes, but they do not fixedly predict the future. this is a general reading so take what resonates!

This reading is all about how your future spouse will show you love. Not just romantic love, but all sorts of love. We are positive here!

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Pile 1:

There is going to be so much physical affection in your future relationship its actually kind of insane!! Like this person will always want to be near you, touching your hand, hugging you randomly, putting their head on your shoulder for no reason. It wont even feel overwhelming, its more like you will start craving it too. You might even notice how safe you feel just by being close to them, like your body just relaxes instantly. There is also something about late nights here, like sitting together and not even talking much but just being close. This love is very warm and constant, not too dramatic but always there in the background. You might sometimes think ‘wow they really just love me like this??’ and yeah they do. Its very genuine and soft and just always present in small moments.

Pile 2:

This person is going to listen to you in a way you probably are not used to. Like really listen, not just waiting for their turn to talk or anything like that. You might even get a bit uncomfortable at first because of how seen you feel, like they remember little details you told them weeks ago and bring it up again. There can be moments where you feel misunderstood still, because really nobody is perfect and sometimes it’s impossible to pick up on everything going on with your spouse, but they will always try to understand you better after. Communication is going to be a big thing here, even if sometimes it gets a bit messy or awkward. You both might have to sit down and talk things through more than once, but it always comes from a place of care. There is a lot of patience present in your future spouse, and they will let you speak even when you dont fully know what your trying to say. Its a very ‘i hear you’ kind of love, even on days where its harder.

Pile 3:

On this PAC we will go over what makes your future spouse jealous & how they behave under the influence of their jealousy.

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