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‧₊˚ ⋅ 𑣲pile one ‧₊˚ ⋅

Right off the bat, the message I’m getting is that some of the people who picked this pile struggle with chronic illness, mental health conditions or some other invisible battle. You could worry quite often if you’d ever get the type of partner you yearn for, and sometimes even deny yourself the permisson to dream of the future you want. Well, I’m here to say that please don’t lose all hope. Even when I asked about what gets your fs choked up in love with you, the cards that first flew out just wanted to send a message of quick reassurance that even on the more tougher days that they will not go anywhere and will be a pillar of strength for you. In fact, they’re asking you to be a bit patient with them as they learn how to take care of you and to give them a chance/ don’t give up on them.

They see you as a kind of warrior. Compared to your life, they’ve had a very easy and restful one. I do think this is someone who comes from a stable background and has a happy go lucky attitude to them. To you, you’ll seem like two extreme opposites. It’s not that you’re a cynical or bitter person all the time, but you certainly can’t be a ball of light most of the time like this other person is. Awhh, pile 1, you’ll definitely be drawn to them and their light but you’ll also resign yourself to just being something in their orbit. I don’t even know if you see them romantically when this happens, you could just really like the vibe of this person and be a bit envious of their qualities. And wish “Ah, I wish I could live like that as well.”

(This sort of becomes a source of slight anxiety for them because they worry that you see them as someone who’s too easygoing and not someone dependable enough to consider as a partner.)

This person is a bit goofy + mischievious. They’re the type to make funny faces and teasingly bother you until you smile or loosen up. They’ll feel very happy and triumphant when they make you smile.

You’re a bit clammed up, Pile 1. And I’m not saying that to shame you. It’s just how you’ve adapted to survive through life. There’s this sense of heaviness that’s there with you most of the times that you pretend isn’t there when you don’t want to ruin the mood with other people. This person doesn’t care about that so you‘ll know if someone is your fs when they wholeheartedly accept you even without your mask on.

The thing that gets them all choked about in love with you is… well many things. A whole bunch of things came out like your inner strength, your resilience, your wisdom, your mind… This person just loves the whole of you (weird phrasing but that’s how it came out.) But what gets them choked up the most is your willingness to try again, especially in love and with them. They know how precious your energy is, and that you feel things more deeply than others, that it takes you longer to get up from the ground than others, but you still do. AHJDHJS I’m getting slightly choked up as well, so this person is definitely going to shed a tear or two. You’re so precious in their eyes. I don’t know if you ever faced anything particularly hurtful when you were a kid, but this person's heart would break when you tell them about it and they would be so sad. They would literally wish that they could go back in time and comfort little you.

I’m not even kidding when I say this, but say some kid on the playground bullied you or gave you shit that’s still affecting you in the present day, this person would be more than willing to throw hands 🧍🏽‍♀️ or at least give that person a piece of their mind.

They are so touched when you’re willing to give them a chance even though you’ve been burned before They’re fucking psyched up actually. I feel like you’d be concerned if you’re moving too slow meanwhile this person’s on cloud nine and dancing with their pillow or some shi at home. They don’t care how long it takes. They care that you’re willing at all. They know how many times you’ve gathered yourself up and they just genuinely don’t care about any of the things you’re worrying that they will.

I feel like you’re the type to be touched by reading all this, but you’ll still be doubtful, because I got so many messages for the other piles but for you, it feels like your fs is sort of holding out. “Wait for me to come and show you.” Is what they want to say. They’re more than aware of how guarded you’ll be and how high your walls are (I heard the phrase “especially now” so some of you may be going through sm in real time.)

They want you to focus on cutting people out (?😭), letting yourself cry real good and stay hydrated. That may just be a specific message for one of yall though… I think you’re dealing with some shady people who aren’t treating you well and you still don’t see it.

And don’t worry about your life in the bedroom. I feel like you’ve sort of resigned yourself here as well when it comes to trying things you’re curious about or getting a reciprocal relationship. Don’t worry about it, trust. This person will take all the safeguards to ensure you have a seamless, painless and safe experience. “You don’t even have to do anything if you don’t want to. Just lie down.” And “I’ll take care of the rest.” Also, this person will NOT pressure you for anything. Ever. Nor will they make you feel bad for not wanting to do it or making them “wait too long”. They just genuinely do not give a fuck as long as they get to be near you. This person might want to be really clingy with you but won’t at least in the initial stages because they want to preserve their image. If their friends heard about this, they’d be like “what image?”cause they all know how down bad your fs is for you.

They admire how well you take care of yourself and want to take care of you too. They won’t ever want to stress you out or make things tougher for you.

I hope you enjoyed the reading Pile 1!! Feel free to check out the masterlist in case you want to check out other readings from me. I wish I had a reading like why you’re that bitch (gender neutral ofc) to boost your confidence right now but I do have a what kind of beauty you possess reading so feel free to read that!! I also have 22% off on all my private readings until July in case you want a one-on-one reading xx

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‧₊˚ ⋅ 𑣲pile two ‧₊˚ ⋅

Your future spouse will have a very youthful heart-throb look to them. They could either be younger than you or appear to be younger than their age. Your future spouse is very soft in general. This is someone who believes in kindness and nurturing good things in their life so that they can multiply. They can be a bit naive at ties, but there’s also this element of being very energetic and passionate? They are certainly not passive but not fiery either. More like energetic the way a rushing stream is. This person has boundless patience.

I feel like there’s a very interesting dichotomy to this person’s energy.

Perhaps in their youth, this person certainly could have been fiery and hot-headed but mellows out significantly as they age. Like significantly to the point where it would seem like they have Buddha level of patience. and sometimes this would annoy you lol, like say you guys decide to have children and one day they break a vase or something expensive, you would be annoyed and have to take on the role of the stern parent. This person is so chill about it to the point that you think “does nothing faze this person?” Not to say that they’d be an irresponsible parent. You guys would be a great team actually. This person just has their own ideology, such as never raising their voice, etc. (which you’ll have in common) but if you tell them you need them to show up as a stern person, they’re always more than willing to support you.

Some people in this pile could honestly find their fs a little boring in the beginning. You would have preferred their past version more. Some of you crave that thrill that’s sometimes present in relationships with toxic dynamics, but none of that adrenaline rush is there with this person. I’m almost tempted to write “cheap” rush instead to describe it even though I don’t really want to call it that 😭 I think there will be a moment where it sort of clicks for you that this person is hot. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS SUPERFICIAL but hear me out for a second.

There will be some sort of situation where you’re sort of bracing for this person to react like your exes or other people did in the past (negatively). But instead they act in a completely different way than expected. And then you realise “Oh. This is the sort of person they are.” You’ll just feel really safe and taken care of and there’ll be such an abrupt shift towards how you feel, like, you’ll genuinely feel intense attraction to them in that moment. Like IMMEDIATELY.

I would say that your future spouse is the first one to develop interest in you but they also are super chill and “no pressure” about it. This just baffles some of you. “If you like me, then why aren’t you making a move for it?” But you only feel like that after you’ve developed interest in them. For your future spouse, who’s already had their eyes on you FOR A WHILE, they could have figured out that they aren’t the type of person they usually go for. JKSJEIOEO this is giving me second ml energy in the best way ( because the fact that they’re your fs means that they’re the first lead 🙏🏻🙏🏻) They just genuinely want to take care of you without expecting anyting in return. They’d do nice things for you here and there but won’t progress it any further to not pressurise you.

This is going to frustrate you soooo much, Pile 2. Especially sexually for some yall 😭 You know how you get the cuteness aggression when you see certain people? It’s that but sexual. Some of you just want to aggressively jump this person’s bones.

You’ll be the first one to take an action towards establishing a relationship (either asking them outright about their feelings or just kissing them when the moment feels right) cause they’ll be respecting your space (“too damn much” is what i heard lmao). I feel like something significant will happen in an elevator.

What gets them choked up in love about you and (ironically) gives them cuteness aggression about you is your protectiveness over them. You could think of them as too naive and trusting, which I guess they are but they aren’t completely powerless but they also don’t mind giving in to you. You know those types of husbands that just smile with affection when their wife is scolding them? That’s the type of energy it’s giving me. They love how nurturing you are towards them. In fact, there are times where they might even pretend to be sicker than they actually are to be babied by you. They’re just full of adoration for you in general.

If you have any sort of morning routine, they just silently admire you as you go on about it. They’ll silently think “I can’t believe I wake up to this person every single day. What a blessed life I’m living,” and they’ll be so deadass about it too. If you’re working from home and you suddenly switch to your “boss voice” or “corporate” voice they might find that hot too. They could even come over and kiss you, trying to tease you at times. This is a bit 18+ and also wholesome but another thing that sort of turns them on/ also gets them choked up in love about you is how you aggressively you chase your own pleasure, at least compared to them. In daily life, you may be the type to not get bogged down by the seriousness and the hustle culture of it all and prioritise your own fun. And when it comes to the 18+ stuff, let’s just say you aren’t scared to initiate. This sort of gives them the freedom and permission to also centre pleasure in their life and they’re so grateful to you for making their life better in so many different ways. “I learn so much from you.”

They think you’re the most strongest person they know and admire that about you, but this is also when the rare side of them comes out and they become stern whenever you push yourself too much. Lmao, this is going to be such a shocker for you and you’ll sort of be aroused at the same time.

You’re like a shining star for them. Your light brings them so much clarity and purpose. It could scare them sometimes because of how greedy they’d want to get with you (I feel like you’d be delighted at this admission and tease them about it).

Extra message: this could be the sort of person who struggles to hang up first/ be the first one to leave.

Well, that is all pile 2! I hope you enjoyed your reading! It is my first future spouse reading but I didn’t expect it to be this lengthy ahhh. If you’d like to leave me a tip or even purchase your own reading from me, please click here xx I have 22% on all readings until July hehe.

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‧₊˚ ⋅ 𑣲pile three ‧₊˚ ⋅

Aww pile3s, your future spouse is such an emotional softie to you. This is someone whose heart is very tender (they’d deny it if you ever asked them though). I think they like to think of themselves as someone who is gruff, intimidating (and in case it is a man “macho”). They could have been bullied in their school days for being too soft-spoken or shy, so they’re always conscious of appearing big enough for that to never happen again. I don’t think they’re the most in touch with their emotions- well, I don’t know. I think they try to avoid it but they can’t. I’m getting an image of someone who cries because a movie scene was particularly touching or sad and is sad the entire night, even cuddling with an old soft toy to comfort themseles. This is who they are when they aren’t performing what they think is socially acceptable.

They’re going to be sooo clingy and tender with you. Your relationship with them finally gives them space + permission to be wear their heart on their sleeve. I wouldn’t be surprised if this person acts one way with their friends and then a completely different person with you. Even if you tried telling other people, they might not even believe you.

In the spirit of honesty, your fs might have some toxic tendencies they might not think twice about. Esp for those who are interested in men, they might parrot some of the misogynistic jokes their friends cracked. This will offend you (as it should). But I’m hearing “ I will learn.“ Now, I’m not going to sit here and say that it’s your job to train a man or anyone else to deconstruct their misogyny and you should in NO way take this as a sign to stay around someone who is toxic/misogynistic thinking it could be your future spouse, no.

How you’ll know that it’s your future spouse is that this person’s expression will literally crumble when you express disappointment with them and pull back. They have no pride in this relationship. They don’t mind begging on their knees or going in between yours, whatever gets you looking all happy and content at them. They will like you so much that they’ll set onto do the work to deprogram their toxic mindset all by themself, because they want to be someone worthy of you. “I don’t deserve you.”

I want to emphasise that once again, pls don’t stay with someone who’s showing signs of a toxic mindset/ beliefs/ values just because of this message and think it might be your fs. LEAVEEE esp in this climate 🙏🏻 The message came through to convey that they realise how uncool it is to pretend to be someone they’re not and to just follow others to fit in. The shitty joke they made wouldn’t even be something that they believed in. This will cause them to go through an inner journey.

I mentioned earlier that they have no pride in this relationship and it’s really true when it comes to their clinginess. They’ll be the type to act like you’re the clingy one and tease you about that if you ever initiate affection, but they’re internally really happy about it. I just got an image of a tail wagging… very golden retriever energy. They’ll be pouty, wanting your attention, affection and time. You’re the most important person to them. I feel like this might annoy you sometimes and you set your boundaries. They’re going to be a lil dramatic in the beginning and their feelings will get hurt, but they want you to know that they will absolutely respect it. They just worry it’s a sign of you withdrawing from the relationship and not liking them anymore. You’ll find them very cute. Your opinion of them matters so much to them, Pile 3.

They’re the type to do big gestures or drive all night to come visit you at your house. (The sex life is going to be good. They’ll be eager to please and willing to do anything you like, anything at all.)

What gets your future spouse all choked up in love about you is your loyalty. Your unwavering single-minded focus when it comes to them. I mentioned earlier about them feeling like they don’t deserve you and they feel like it really is true. They feel like you’re better than them in every aspect, something about how you managed the twists and turns and all the curveballs life threw at you. You guys could have had similar backgrounds/ opportunities and they’re really in awe of how you’ve taken whatever you’ve given and basically transformed it into blessings. This person is really excited for you whenever you progress in your career.

They feel like you have so many better options. Some as cool and collected as you (I’m hearing “cool as a cucumber”) deserves so much than a person who can only razzle dazzle you. I feel like most of you will meet this person after the end of a relationship or when you’re in the market for a relationship/ marriage. I can definitely feel some meddling forces so maybe you’ve been set up to go on blind dates either by your friends or family (an aunt specifically for some of you).

I think this person sort of doesn’t go all way or hesitates when it comes to shooting their shot initially, at least not until that they notice that you aren’t looking at anyone else but them. This person puts you on such a pedestal istgg. I feel like you two could come from two different worlds. It’s giving Beth and Rip from Yellowstone.

There is someone who will actively try to get in between your relationship at some point. On paper, they think they are the better match for you and might just bulldoze it and try to court you( wining and dining you.) BUt you wouldn’t be interested in the other person at all. At some point your future spouse will realise that they’re the one you want, the only one you want. And let me tell you, that day they’ll feel like the happiest person in the world. The luckiest one too. That out of all these options, your unwavering heart is only for them. Mitski’s My love mine all mine is coming through. The moment they realise this, they’re going to lock you down AND love you down. (For some of you, I just heard that you make them feel like princess charming)

This person is a completely different person with others. More firm and even ruthless tbh. They’re sort of a down bad puppy only with you. (Eye contact could be something very important for them and something they’ll insist on during sex. “Eyes on me,” could be something they say. They’ll need that feeling of connection looking into your eyes gives for them to finish.) You’ll sort of be oblivious to this side of them in the beginning. You’ll only realise it when the switch-up happens right in front of you. This is probably when someone else is trying to hit on you.

That’s all for the reading!! I hope you enjoyed it Pile 3s!! I have 22% off on all my readings until July in case you want to get a one-on-one reading with me xx

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Pile 1-

Aww man your loved ones see you as their shelter. You are someone who is ready to accept everyone however they are. Extremely welcoming and homely. You feel like a warm and loving home. Do you often find people coming to you at their absolute lowest? Like they just appear in front of you? It's because of your presence. They know they are safe when you are near. You are someone who nourishes people and knows how to take care of them. You are someone who is wise enough to realise that being practical means taking emotions into account too. People can count on you to be the sensible one even in the most messiest cases. You are also someone who's good at managing things and for that quality shines in their career. I also see people being very happy at your success. Any good that comes to you people are not surprised or envious of it because they understand that you deserve it. They think of you as someone who's simple and practical. Your presence and being around you helps a person realise how simple life can just be and how things do not necessarily have to be hard. Your loved ones also feel like they don't understand why you bother for them or why you can for them. They can feel like you do more for them. They might at times get frustrated thinking that you deserve better than them. People absolutely love how you make them feel and your presence in general. I had a vision of blue sparkling water and heard the ocean in my ears too. People might think of you like that. You are someone who feels familiar to everyone people might be quick to give you to a family member tag or say that you remind them of someone that they love. You are nostalgic to people as you remind them of the time they felt the safest. You are almost like your loved one reading you a bed time story while you are tucked in bed. Even if everything in their life changes they know you won't and that gives them relief. You are a breath of relief. Your spirit nurtures all. Being with you heals. ykw pile one the best thing about this reading is that your presence alone heals people.

This might be a message for just a few people picking this pile but if you are struggling with delays and frustration in your life and think you are not going to be able to get out and make it I need you to know that you will. There's no doubt in the minds of the people that love you and the universe. The only one doubting your success is you

Pile 2-

People are grateful to you I keep hearing the word beyond and moist. You go beyond for people even when you don't have to. I'm reminded of something I read a while ago about how what people on the internet call princess treatment is something you'd normally go for a stranger on a random tuesday for no reason. You are kind and you are giving even when you do not have to be. I heard the mary oliver poem wild geese in my head. It can be exhausting this isn't related to this but people do love you and they don't just love you for what you do for them. Even if you were to stop doing this people would love you so don't think of something that comes so naturally to you as burdening. You are someone who has sacrificed alot for people you do for people what their own people wouldn't for them without ever talking about it. I heard martyrdom in my head. I think you are also the kind of person who is always helping their friends by introducing them to new people, new opportunities, connecting them and people are grateful for that as well. There's so much that you do for people and I think they do not say it out loud but please trust me on this they're more grateful that you could ever realise. Sometimes some things are just so big that it would kill you if you were to speak about them. You are someone who would make yourself feel down so others would feel confident about themselves. Now here's the thing, while there are sacrifices or things that you do for people that are good and noble there are also sacrifices that you make that you should not. Don't make needless sacrifices and think of your heartbreak as glory because it's not. You do not have to rob yourself of your desires and dreams to be good. You can have what you want and you will still be good and loved. Your loved ones wish this for you too. You are also someone who's intuitive, someone with a clear inner compass, someone who's pure and fair to all.

Pile 3-

You doubt yourself way too much for someone who always ends up making the best decisions. You confuse, you panic and then you make the best decisions. You are fair and you are not afraid. Your morals are strong and the world isn't that's why sometimes it's hard to admit out loud or accept the decision you know is right in your head. I think the other side of the coin is that in your life you might have always had the burden of making the decisions in every sphere of your life because everyone else in the environment acted too helpless. The responsibility of making the decisions always falls onto you. This is random and for a very few of you but if you are confused about your life purpose or career well here is your hint. Talking to you or looking at you is powerful and transformative and intense for people as it means having to come to terms with how things are actually. You hold a mirror to them where they are forced to acknowledge all that there is to a situation. I'm sure you are known as the strict friend and at times in your life your friends or people might have hesitated to tell you things or come to you after they've messed up. Well, it's not because of you it's not because you did something wrong or because you aren't a good friend. It's actually the opposite, it's because you are both of them, too good of a person and too good of a friend. Talking to you means having to come to terms with one is trying very hard to avoid and sometimes it's just not possible for people to do that so they avoid you. You force people to be courageous and reflect. You call out people and lend them courage to make the hardest decisions. You help people through. People are also sad sometimes that they can't do the same for you, that you won't allow them to. You go silent when its about your own battles and worries. People however might not say or complain about this because they mostly blame themselves for it. They think they're too under qualified or too bad to be of your help. You are someone who loves solitude and is constantly on their own search to get to the bottom of the truth of the world.

Pile 4-