#cartomancy

mdni; strong mentions of sexual content.

little bit of a different format since i don't have the time to do my usual one. this is my first nsfw pac as well as the first pac of the year since i've been crazy busy with academics. hopefully, i'll be able to be more active soon.

pile 1 ₊⊹

If this topic is triggering for you, please feel free to skip it. This reading will still be here when you're ready to read it.

Quite a few of you have a very difficult relationship with your sexuality. In fact, the phrase "stilted seduction" came to mind. You could have been conditioned to believe that any self-expression even remotely sensual, not even sexual, is almost equivalent to "asking for it."

Most of you have a difficult time imagining you have a sex appeal at all and could have chosen this PAC to get validation that it is not the case. However, I honestly don't feel comfortable diving into the sex appeal of this pile because there's so much resistance and discomfort, that I sense you just want to force through instead of doing the work to deconstruct the shame you feel around sex. If you identify as a woman, you could not feel like a "whole" woman or a "real" woman because you can't access being sensual or seductive. You feel that you don't have the charm your peers easily wield nor can you get the person you have your eyes set on as easily as the others.

There's also a lot of anger and resentment underneath it all due to being unable to express yourself this way. Anger at the people who've instilled this shame in you, anger towards the people who have it easier than you and get what you want, anger and disgust towards yourself even.

Once again, if you identify as a woman, you might have had a phase where you thought it's easier to be thought of as "one of the boys" rather than a genuine romantic interest. And you really leaned into this, because it was the only way of getting attention from the people you liked. Some of you might have had a pick-me phase too. Growing up "ugly" or attracting unwanted attraction could be something you faced that also added to this stunted relationship with desirability.

I know that the PAC is meant to get into your sex appeal, but there is far too much fear and anxiety surrounding this topic and I do not feel comfortable forcing it. I've already tried to work on this pile for weeks but it just isn't happening so I'm going to take that a sign. Even a scenario I channeled was quite sad and from your end, rather than what others think about you. Some of you feel that even if you do get chosen, you're only the consolation prize and your person will always imagine someone else in your stead.

Pile 1s, what you need is a whole lot of healing and kindness towards yourself as well as others. I'm sensing some of you could have been quite nasty or passive aggressive to those close to you during rough patches due to envy or jealousy. You've judged others for being "overly promiscuous", for freely enjoying even pieces of media that depict sensuality/sexuality, but now that you've somewhat found in in yourself to explore it yourself, you fear others will do the same and get defensive in advance.

We all have moments we are not proud of but it is important to forgive and move ahead.

The messages for this pile are quite blunt and I don't feel called to sugarcoat it. Normally, I'd provide suggestions on how to go forward from here but Spirit merely wants attention to be brought to these patterns so that you are aware of it. And to do the work required to overcome this. Some of you have a habit of spiraling into shame & resentment, followed by quick fix of some kind to make yourself feel better. There's a whole lot of denial going on within that needs to be looked into.

Even though this wasn't what I intended for this pile, I still hope it provided some helpful insight for you all.

channeled messages : "it is easier to be competent than sexy."

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pile 2 ₊⊹

It’s giving Higuruma from JJK. Would not be surprised if y'all had dark circles that added to your appeal. Something about your tired expression, or the somber tone could get people going. Sex could be a huge part of your wind-down or stress release routine.

Also, the way you guys refrain from giving in way too easily. Not necessarily playing hard to get, but you don’t mind waiting. It’s like an unaffected mountain of patience and calm while the other person is deep into their desire. Even if you verbally affirm something (like yeah I'll come over to your place at 7) the other person could read it as simply another appointment to you because you don’t react to specially to it. You’re constantly busy and some of you could have pain in your shoulders or back.

I just heard “I could fix that.” The people you attract with your appeal are very eager to please or want to be of use to you in bed. They seek acknowledgement or praise or some evidence to see that they affect you too.

I feel like you come off as apathetic to most people. Because of this, whenever someone sees you passionate about something, whether it's for work or a hobby, they find that incredibly alluring and dare I say, even sexy.

I feel like if someone communicates this to you, you’d be a little amused and tease them. If you aren’t confident in your sexuality now, then perhaps this is later on in your journey, or just your admirer’s obsession (less likely), but I imagine you teasing them like “aw, my good girl/boy doesn’t see how affected I am by them, hm?” while touching them and getting them worked up. I feel like you’d tease them mercilessly through actions or words, before letting them take control as a way of apologizing. You’d whisper into their ear about what they do to you, about your arousal and take pleasure in their reactions.

Your sex appeal is coming through as chill, laid-back and confident. Primarily, you use it as a stress-relief or at least that’s what your partners perceive it to be. Some of your lovers do end up feeling a bit neglected/ not getting as much care or attention as they need, so pay attention to that and try to open up a dialogue.

You could blurt out sexual stuff quite bluntly (with tact ofc) that gets others flustered and you enjoy that reaction. You prefer it aa your method of flirting because it takes less energy and still has quite an effect them. 

They’re very eager to please you. I feel like most of you have arrangements for sex rather than a committed relationship.

Idk if you set the boundaries properly, but communication doesn’t really seem to be going on unless it’s for a booty call. But it’s a 180 during sex, you’re more attentive and all that attention is finally present now. It’s very flattering for other person and they once again want to please you. I feel like you could get head often or people definitely fantasize about giving you head often. 

Going to be honest pile 2, you should communicate with your booty call cause they ain't getting all that from their sex life with you when it comes to the emotional part. Maybe the aftercare isn't quite meeting all their needs or something else. It’s on them to communicate too but I feel like they place you on a pedestal and are a bit intimidated. It is the same if you're in a relationship. They don’t want to seem too difficult “otherwise you’ll stop calling” is what I heard.

Your strengths lie in prolonging the softer moments, long make-out sessions with you where there’s loads of sensual kissing, setting up the atmosphere, edging, etc. A wilder side is unleashed that your admirers are enchanted to see and want to be the only one who gets to see such a side of you.

channeled messages: "i wanna ride," cross-fading

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pile 3 ₊⊹

It's giving forest-recluse-faerie who’s happy with their animals, doesn’t go out into town much and is a bit skeptical of people approaching their, especially with romantic intentions. But a hunter who catches sight of her is bewitched by them.

There’s something very pure about you and I don’t mean it in a virginal sense. Pure of heart. You could be very kind to animals and have lots of compassion for beings or causes that people normally overlook, but when it comes to humans you could view them with a natural distrust and keeping your distance. This fascinates people. Especially someone who’s seen you be so kind to strays for example is a bit confused when you’re standoffish and cold when they approach you.

It’s not as if you’re completely closed off. You have a rich inner world that you have painstakingly cultivated (and brought back to life is what I’m hearing) People in the past have trampled on your heart so now you’re very careful about who you bring into your inner sanctuary. There’s this one specific memory where you show someone something really precious to you and then they sort of dismiss it like “That’s it? That’s what you wanted me here for?” For some of you, they could have also tried to get into your pants right after that which made you really jaded. For the ones you do care about, you share freely with them and others wonder why they can’t get that with you. You might find that people are even more insistent on getting with you ever since you imposed stricter boundaries as they view it as a challenge.

But even when they can’t get past the wall, they can still see the sharp wit and intellect. It’s something most of them struggle to keep up which is why these sort of people don’t usually impress you.

Which leads me to the sexual fantasies— they want you to touch them with wonder. They want you to direct that gaze of curiosity and awe when it comes to them. They want to "train" you. Hear you. They want you to trail your hands all over their body. They dream of you approaching them and then seducing them, like some sort of fairy nymph that just sits don on their lap one day, teasing and playing until they finally can’t bear it anymore.  They're very in awe of your body. Most of the fantasies are just unabashed checking out and exploration your body, being able to touch you and to gaze at you when you’re at your most intimate. Some of them want to watch you masturbate. They want to look at that blissed out look on your face so that they can have something for their spank bank.

channeled messages : "There you are again," hide and seek, roleplay, CNC, impact play, voyeurism, peeping tom roleplay/fantasies.

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i had originally planned to do written scenarios for each pile but i was practically writing smut so i scrapped it. i'll save that for future readings.

like i said, this is my first nsfw reading so i'd love to hear yall's thoughts on it!! pls do comment and reblog if you enjoyed it xx

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pile i

the sounds you were making especially that moans that are broken that says, "i can't hold it back", nothing is more exciting than hearing that coming from you!

drama, argument and refusal is a big turn on for them; watching you begging is their favourite thing to do

they secretly fantasize about those quickie or public-risky type of sex places. it's like—it adds fuel into their desire

they love to initiate rough actions and end it with soft ones.

they are lowkey obsessed with oral fetish; both giving and receiving. it seems like they can make it last until you cannot longer keep the pace with their energy

they have a high libido when you are around

they fancy your dominant role

they crave for your own cums

they love dirty talks, not only with words but the sexual noises you were making

they like leaving marks as a token of "this person is mine", expect scratches, kiss marks or bruises afterwards.

they usually enjoy competition in bed like they have this game in mind where the loser needs to surrender with the other one

they want love-making as in love must present when having sex because they value emotional closure rather than lust

they lowkey fantasize about make-up sex after a very heated discussion and fight where it blurs the anger you feel for each other.

pile ii

they are lowkey interested with threesomes or more than that.

they feel a quick aroused by the idea of you two are fucking in the kitchen, car or in the shower

they casually feel excited by watching you undress yourself slowly (in a teasing way) or do a little dance performance. they love that moment where "by the day as their spouse at night as their personal stripper. "

they love breeding kink

knowing that you are finally theirs is such a big their on to them. it's like, they keep imagining how they can claim or mark you.

they often fantasize that marathon sessions of sex

vintages, mature, and open-minded partner adds a lot of fuel into their fire. maybe old songs are their another fancy while love-making

they love doing those sneaky moves like slipping their hands under your clothes when no one is looking because it's giving them more thrill

they crave for sex that is surrounded by luxury and classic items or places like hotels in paris, having candle lights or fucking in a silk bedsheet.

they lowkey like the idea of you ghosting them, not reaching at some point of sexual orgasm

they love quiet and whispered moans rather than louder ones.

pile 3

they love virgin or inexperienced partners

cleanliness is very important for them, even before and after the sex

just imagining you exploring their body for the first time is giving a fresh and makes them horny even more

they get an immediate aroused by mixing slow movement with deep and rough thrusts

they fantasize locking you in the corner or simply wanting to see you feel powerless.

your vulnerability and innocent adds fuels into their hunger in bed

they may become obsessed with your taste and smell

they secretly love seeing your weakness

they are aroused by the boldness and your willingness to learn, it burns their desire even more

your lips are their favourite part of your body, they won't leave that until they are satisfied

they want to try and are really drawn-out with the foreplays

aside from love bites, they love leaving traces or those moments where their fingers tracing your skin or leaving nail scratches with each other.

How will your future spouse treat you in public vs in private?

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