#nullification surgery

My surgeon was fine with me getting non-nerve-preserving nullification surgery, but my mom will end up pressuring me into keeping the nerves, which I personally regret.

Do not give in - emphasize that you do not enjoy the types of sensations that it gets. Tell them that you appreciate their professional expertise, but in matters of preference, you know what you want.

If they try to get you to keep them under the point that you can always get a second surgery to get it removed ksk them if they would cover your travel and cost of getting a second surgery - or at least point out that those would be major inconveniences and additional medical risk.

(cause like. if i could fuckin yeet mine thatd be the dream)

kinda! decrease in hormones often leads to lowered libido - nullification surgery typically involves removing testicles or requires a hysterectomy, with testicles removal or hysterectomy with ovary removal your body stops producing testosterone or estrogen in significant quantities. You will actually need to take hormones afterwards to prevent osteoporosis and menopause like symptoms, but a lower dose will generally result in much lower libido! I can personally attest that my libido is all but gone at this point with me with my now low hormone levels!

Not a dumb question! Nullification surgery refers specifically to bottom surgery, though I found that most people seeking nullification surgery also wish for top surgery to make them flat under a similar desire for smoothness.

Since bottom surgery and top surgery are on different parts of the body trying to recover from both at the same time it puts a lot of strain on the body so they are typically done as two separate surgeries.

I mean the main obstacle for me was getting my insurance to cover it. There are more surgeons offering it every year because as you note, it is just easier bottom surgery.

To find a good surgeon who has lots of experience in nullification specifically, you will have to cross state lines in the US or go to Spain.

I have heard tale of asking surgeons who don't explicitly offer it but do offer bottom surgery to do it and it working out. Essentially, they just do the phalectomy or vaginectomy and don't do the corresponding vaginoplasty or phalloplasty.

in terms of physical appearance, recovery has been even more gradual. swelling has been going down extremely slowly. there's still that tight feeling but it isn't enough to really bother me anymore. bleeding has also stopped almost completely. there's still a couple drops of blood every now and then, but about a week ago i got to the point where i don't need to wear pads anymore.

almost all my sutures are gone too, most of them fell out during week 6. the only ones that are still there are the ones right in the middle, near the bottom of the V shape scars. they feel like they're made out of a different material too.

A little after the 4 week mark, i bought myself a hitachi magic wand. I've tried it out a couple times but honestly, the sensation is underwhelming. vibration is a nice feeling and there's a ton of euphoria in not having those parts anymore. nerves still haven't recovered so I'm not as sensitive as i should be, and definitely not sensitive enough to orgasm. it's impossible to say when that'll happen, it's different for everyone. could be just a few weeks or over a year. One thing i did get to confirm 2 days ago is that i still get wet, precum definitely still happens💦

Overall I'd say that the biggest surprise is just how normal this feels. i don't mean that in a "this is how my body was always supposed to be" way, it's more like sometimes I actually forget that I have different parts now. How often do you actively consider your genitals during the day? How often do you feel the sensation of having particular body parts? it's the same thing. but at the same time I'm so happy with it!

I can't put into words how glad I am that now that is just a nightmare and I get to wake up and that's not the reality.

Gender affirming surgery saves lives.

so I'm pretty much done with the hard part- pain has gone down enough for me to stop taking oxycodone, I've gone out with friends, i can move around without hurting myself, it feels like things are starting to return to normal. there's barely any blood in my maxi pads anymore. my wounds are almost completely healed now so over the next week or two, 8my sutures are gonna dissolve and fall out- I'm really looking forward to them being gone because they're kinda really annoying. i can feel the tips of them stabbing into my skin sometimes. I'm allowed to cut them off now (but not pull them out) but I'm not gonna do that unless they really start to bother me.

Today I had my second post-op appointment. check the fit~

i also squeezed a boob and found a free stool

The appointment itself went really fast, basically everything is healing perfectly, apart from some slight hypergranulation. when a wound is healing it forms granulation tissue, but sometimes it forms too much and that impacts the healing process. it's pretty common with these types of surgeries. they treated this with silver nitrate which came in the form of these big matchstick-type things. The doctor said it might burn but i didn't feel anything. that part of the wound will have some extra bleeding for a few days, but it basically has a second chance to heal normally now.

i asked about sexual activity and the answer is that i still have to wait another 2 months before sex. BUT I'm allowed to start slowly experimenting with clitoral stimulation!

(something i forgot to mention, gabapentin makes me absolutely STUPID. not the fun kind of stupid like with marijuana or ketamine. it's a boring stupid. your thoughts are just slow. but it did help a lot with nerve pain)

Also I'm gonna add that nerves are reconnecting. I'm feeling jolts of pleasure when im rinsing off with the showerhead and when im in a car that goes over a bump.

when i kiss girls I feel a ??? between my legs but i don't have the words to describe it yet. it's different from getting hard but honestly, not as different as you'd think. it's all the same stuff down there but in different locations. as much as i really wanted to keep exploring that feeling, it's definitely too early for it.