#nd problems

DR. MEGAN NEFF: What if the recovery from autistic burnout is depressing — like in the sense of like, isolation, darkness? Like, what a brutal Catch-22 if what we need for our bodies to recover are also things that disconnect us and slow our bodies down to a degree that we're then losing connection with the things that give our life meaning and joy...

PATRICK CASALE: Yeah...And you and I are both ADHD. The ADHD parts of me are like, "This is fucking terrible. Like, laying here, doing nothing, not creating, not feeling energized, not feeling like there's a spark or something to get excited about." And the autistic part wins every time, because it's like, waving the white flag, right? Of like, "I can't. Like, I can't do more than I can do right now."

¹This was sarcasm, btw. It is not fun. I fucking hate it with every fiber of my being.

Then I tried Headspace as a noob to try "deal with distractions" and it left me frustrated as it all seems to be geared towards relaxing you to sleep but I need to be stopped from having naps in the day and focus on my tasks.

Now I have a headache, feel like it was a waste of time. Maybe try the meditating another day

That Care Bears episode hit me right in the feels as a neurodivergent adult. Just like Bright Heart Raccoon, I have been trying VERY hard to contribute to society, but sometimes some people misunderstand how I’m doing it - in the best way I know how.