Yknow what. Appreciation moment for folks who deal with Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria.
So yeah, if you're like me and struggle to be Normal when no one in the group chat or the discord server acknowledges that meme you sent within a few hours (or a few minutes...), or when an email goes unanswered for exactly 1 day, or when you make 1 mistake in a big presentation, or when you don't get an offer letter after an interview--
And if your brain's reaction to that is immediate damage control--figuring out if they're mad at you; trying to think what you did wrong; berating yourself for not being Just Right; deciding how to play it off as no big deal even though it feels catastrophic--
OR if your brain's reaction is scorn for them, telling yourself they'll fail without you anyway, so it'll serve them right for rejecting you; if you think it's no big deal, I'm above that anyway, they're the ones with no brain for saying no to me--
I am giving you such a big internet hug right now. It's okay.
Bro this shit SUCKS. I hate that my brain is wired for damage control as soon as something I do is perceived by my brain as a Failure!!! I hate it!!!! It's WRONG. It's actually FALSE INFORMATION!!!! Brain, you don't have to do all that pLEASE!!
Bc 99.9% of the time IT'S NOT THAT DEEP!!! No one is mad at me!!!! People are busy at school or at work or with the holidays! Sometimes they miss notifications! People don't remember 1 little mistake in a presentation if the rest of it goes well! Believe people when they tell you it went well!!! It's tough to do, but you can practice it and it does get better, I promise. I love you all. We'll get through it. We'll smack our brains and say "bad! drop it!" if that what it takes 🫶
