#narc high

There's not enough of a focus on the self perception aspect of NPD in a lot of media, more on how they act outwardly, so I thought we could give our shot at some proper representation!

npd crash ( also referred to as a collapse ) refers to the experience in which the grandiose self-perception of a person with npd gets confronted with reality & results in negative emotions. that experience is different for everyone ; some may feel a slight discomfort, some may experience self-loathing, depression, anhedonia, manic episodes, etc. etc.

npd high is basically the opposite of that. a pwnpd is confident, even "overly" confident, energetic, could be experiencing delusions of grandeur or ( symptoms similiar to ) mania. narc high can be both a positive & a negative experience.

I hope I managed to explain it well enough.

Narc High. — A flag for Narc Highs.

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Narc Crashes. — A flag for Narc Crashes

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Narc High

"Oh.... you think I'm the best? Hahhhhh noooooo...... haha you give me too much credit..... hahhhhhhh"

It took like 15 minutes to get the right amount of smugness but by god I did it

His crown is intact, and his hand up to signify his front.... he's very humble, obviously.

Narc Crash

they think I'm dumb. they think I'm insignificant. they think I'm nothing. what do they know. what do they know. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

At least, that's to summarize the background text!!!

Our crown is broken in this one, and a bit bloody and bruised. His actual body is bruised as well, to signify ego injury, and his hand is now closed off, no longer receptive to the people around him.

Narc Stare / 50 Yard Stare

He's done with life and he wants to call you some of the most diabolical things he can. He has lost all faith in humanity... again.

Your ineptitude just proves to him how utterly useless this species is. God.

Minimal shading. Because... this is perfect.

{this is just my experience, if you do not feel this way then clearly it is not for you.}

in my experience my narc highs can both be an incredible feeling for myself whilst also being heavily destructive towards others. it is something i’ve never seen others talk about but often leaves me feeling as if i can never win when it comes to my own NPD and no matter what i’ll either destroy myself or the people close to me.

when i have a narc high it’s as if the internalised negativity towards myself that my NPD tries to compensate for is suddenly overpowered and i am temporarily consumed by my own sense of grandiosity. in those moments i am a god amongst men and i am an entirely superior being in every way, shape or form without a single doubt in my mind that that’s true. being above everyone else is a constant mindset that i exist within but is now much more extreme due to the high itself driving my ego.

however, it also means that i end up belittling others by going on extensive rants about my sense of superiority and expressing the ways in which they wish they could be me or even hold a candle up to my level. this is a way i feel perpetually even outside of a narc high, however when i have these highs my internalised conflict is significantly lessened because my ego has been soothed and reassured of it’s worth, which leads me to be much more vocal about how far above others i perceive myself to be and that often winds up with me expressing my own superior status in ways that leads to those around me feeling worthless or upset.

so why do you go on these rants if they hurt others?

i can’t help it.

in the moment i NEED to express how superior i am and affirm in other peoples minds that i am that god, that i am that higher life form, that i am above them in every way. i’m not necessarily doing it to hurt anyone, i just need it to be said and to be known. there’s some sort of insatiable need to make sure that the level i am on is how i’m perceived by everyone, which once again does exist even outside of narc highs much like my own superiority within my hierarchal mindset, but like my superiority it is now much more extreme and therefore requires people to just keep feeding.

perhaps it’s in the hopes to make sure that feeling never ends and i’m merely using them to supply my ego for the purpose of keeping it that high, or perhaps it is just a more externalised display of both that compensation for my internal conflicts battling with my insecurity.

but the way my superiority and need to express it is almost unmanageable often hurts my relationships with others, which just makes living with NPD all the more defeating when dealing with the aftermath.