public enemy №2

EN OK // 日本語OK(っぽい)

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i'm alistair .

it/it. // other names and prns too idrc.

i do not identify w/ humanity, or anything else for that matter.

this is my main blog. i just post my thoughts.

considering this is mostly said thoughts, a lotta my stuff is gonna fall in the mental health category. i am:

dx autistic (low support)

dx mdd w/ psychotic features

dx ocd

self dx npd (not officially dx'd but supported by professional)

dx dissociative amnesiac

dx gender dysphoria

phobia haver

🪐 before you follow🪐

minor safe. will not block minors. do not dm me unless you're 18+.

i may unintentionally do something/say upsetting. if i do, tell me sooner rather than later.

vents will be posted: view at your discretion. these will be tagged as such. i am a pro-recovery blog & will try to avoid too triggering posts.

critical of every piece of media & character i identify with. i do not endorse any problematic behaviour by creators or any potential problematic themes in media i consume. get a life.

dms/asks open — don't expect a forever bestie out of it.

will NOT reblog donations that cannot be verified. i will not respond to asks/dms asking for donations, but i will reblog said donations & contribute if possible.

pro educated self-dx.

leftist.

aroace. will not post/reblog anything 18+ that is not educational.

adult.

i behave in an innumerable different ways. you will often see periods of different typing styles and figure of speech.

will probably add more @ a later date.

🪐 fandoms🪐

vocaloid

hannibal

house

comics (dc + marvel + image)

rdr1 + rdr2 + rdrevolver

american psycho

project sekai

little nightmares

SCP

star wars

overwatch

kagerou project

legend of zelda

ace attorney

littlebigplanet

we happy few

undertale

hamilton

evillous chronicles

crypt of the necrodancer

hazbin hotel + helluva boss

five nights at freddies

six

happy tree friends

creepypasta

listed generally from most to least into. crossed out = not currently into.

🪐 dni🪐

basic dni (no general bigotry; right-wing; antisemitic; islamophobic; racism; sexism; zionism; queerphobia …)

ableism (against any disorder, including personality disorders, invisible physical disabilities, schizospec, dissociative disorders, anti-age regression …)

general lgbtqia+ exclusion (ace/pan exclusionist, transmed, anti-mogai …)

nsfw blogs (blogs that feature some TAGGED nsfw are fine. if your blog is mainly nsfw, dnf.)

radqueer/transid (eg transrace)

discourse blogs

ai/repost blogs (reblogs are fine!)

Crashonj out witj mozarts der hölle rqche kocht unmeinem herzn stuck in lyhead

doingwhoework with beethovenssymph9 ode to joy stuck in ly jead

vookinh with antonio vivaldis la primavera stick in my jead

bachs toccataandfu gue in d ljnor stuck in my jead while tryinh to sleep

the criticism without any respite are so immense and constant that i am completely overwhelmed. i cannot pick up a pencil without berating myself on the way i hold it. i really am trying to force myself to get better, to draw until i can finally create something that can prove everyone wrong and be worthy of my own hobby, but nothing's enough. i can't draw a line without collapsing under countless thoughts.

i'm so unfunny you guys can kill me now

Well, I now have that energy. Except I feel like typing different, and I don't have the energy to type like....that again. But I don't want to entirely re-do them, because would that not be losing the original heart of the posts? Like this, without any “spoilers.”

I also have more original posts I never posted for some reason, but should probably get to. Apparently I have a 9/11 joke in my drafts? Okay.