#joint disorders

I can't tell what is a stim versus a tic, because I have barely any control of my body or actions, so I legitimately can't tell what's a stim or a tic.

I can't tell what is a impulse versus something I actually want.

People ask me what I want, and in most context, I can't answer.

My absolute bastard of a jaw, and the joints who acted as co-conspirators:

Me: "That sounds like a you problem. I shouldn't have to prove to you that I'm disabled. A lot of my conditions are internal or Neurological, and so a lot of them can't be observed by closed-minded assholes like yourself. Get a life instead of shoving your dysfunctional opinions down my throat. :3"

And people expect me to know where the line is between when something is wrong. Shit has been wrong my whole life, and only for the past six-ish years have I been able to get professional help, because I've lived below the poverty line.

I don't know how long a human can sit without some back support, no. Enlighten me.

I mentally told myself for as long as I can remember, that everyone was in this much pain and that I was just being a wuss about it. I'm not a wuss. I'm over muting my symptoms for other peoples' comfort, I'm over being internally ableist towards myself.